Me again how are yall

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Me again how are yall

I am doing awfully :3 i was fine when my besties were vcing with me it was so nice and now theyre gone and i feel shit again. also im having an "idfk who i am or how i feel or what i feel or if anything i feel is real or how i act or have acted in the past or just anything i dont even know if this is real" moment so i have decided to have an edible and drink too much cus i wanna make myself feel even worse because like feeling awful in some way makes me feel like idk... real? valid? idfk lmao but its comfortable.

so how are you guys doing? do anything interesting today? any interesting plans for the weekend or next week? i have a concert next week hopefully that'll be fun.

stop ignoring me i want attention and validation

Hello! The only thing I did interesting was also VC with my friends. I'm still in school so most of any plans revolve around that. I might watch a movie depending on how it goes. Hopefully you're feeling a little better.

give discord what the fuck am i gonna do fill out hiroshimoot puzzles to chat

hi coolgal i hope u feel better soon :) i definitely understand what you mean when you say feeling worse makes you feel more comfortable. i think that pain itself is somehow inherently pleasurable to us, especially when the alternative is something you don't want to face. i did nothing but study today and i kind of wish i could do more but its overall a good day. also it's estrogen day...

im not giving out my discord its pointless cus like im terrible at talking to people 1 on 1 so anyone that dms me will have to like carry the conversation most of the time and i might forget to respond and if we get too like close i might freak out or i might freak out over some tiny thing and block people or like numerous things lmao.

hell yeah i hope you enjoy your movie

thanks. it's definitely just more comfortbale. idk if its pleasurable because like to me thats a seperate thing (i am kind of a masochist but like 90 percent of the time its seperate im pretty sure. apart from when it mixes and i have thoughts of just wanting a partner that will do nothing but like put me down to raise themselves up and be horrible to me cus like either i deserve it or it'd give me some purpose or i'd be able to have a positive impact on someone without having to do anything but just endure it because i have no skills i can use to actually have a positive impact on someone anyway. but like thats not all the time? idk? i dont know)

glad you had a good day though

I sure hope I do, I rarely do stuff like this. Hopefully your concert is fun as well!

thanks :3

thank you! yeah i get that and ig i dont really mean pleasurable as much as comfortable/pleasing.

im sorry when u say u have no skills that you can use to have a positive impact on someone... do u have any hobbies or anything that you can share with people?

Sakura

That's a red flag

not really lmao. i have no interest in anything and even if i found an interesting hobby i have adhd so i can never just like stick with one thing and i'd probably get tired of it. idfk. i have lliterally zero hobbies or talents or anything like that. nothing.

how wtf she is literally the best character in fate i love her sm shes so awesome.

You're really telling on yourself. Then again, you are crazy enough to be a tranny.

i mean i dont necessarily mean talents even listening to music or watching movies/tv or anything u just liked doing counts

i mean i listen to music but its just a passive interest i dont care much about i could live without it. and like i dont watch movies or tv much really idk. i just do whatever my hyperfixation at the time is

wdym?

then do u have any hyperfixations rn :3

idk dragon age veilguard kinda but like idfk what it matters really my besties arent interested in it really

oh shit i havent yet heard abt that should i play it

idk really? idk what games you like or if you like the franchise or whatever so idk. im having fun though

i just used to play a lot of dragon age ii when i was a lot younger, i havent done much more with the franchise since. i remember rlly liking it but it was so long ago

idfk who i am

A faggot who posts for attention. Don't worry, we know who you are anon. <3

thanks :3

you need to play inquisition atleast desu for this

Got any good pictures of yourself at least?

no cus im objectively ugly and fat look like a man

no

:/

Got any cool interests at least?

no my interests change like weekly/monthly becuase i have adhd

You're making this really hard. :(

What concert are you going to? Anything interesting or just some tranny music?

within temptation, they're awesome i love them

feeling inadequate and useless as usual but my doc upped my meds so we'll see if that helps. it can take like a month to notice any changes though

sorry to hear, i hope the meds help atleast a little bit

i hope so too, i'm sick of feeling like a husk but nothing i do that i know is healthy for me seems to change my mood

omg literally me bestie

It's not anything I would listen to, I don't like symphonic and it feels a bit overmanufactured. But I hope you enjoy the concert.

fair, we all have differnt tastes. i hope i do too lmao its impossible to say either way because like something might stop mke or i might just randomly feel like shit the entire time lmao

lmfao i am sorry you can relate i hate it! i am lucky i am so close to my besties only cus like 1 incident forced us closer. idk what im even saying everything is in full effect now

ok im going to bed now cus the shit is hitting hard gn

Goodnight.