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No one talks about how feminism, liberalism, and the public school system works to forcibly feminized young neurodivergent men.

When I was a child, I was bullied relentlessly by other boys on the suspicion that I was gay. I was a quiet, shy aloof and introverted bookworm. I couldn't make friends with boys my age. I also had poor vision and hand eye coordination and couldn't excel in team sports. Instead my friends were always girls.

I relied on my female friends to provide some social protection against bullying as well as inclusion in activities. But as we got older it had to be made clear that I was not a potential sexual partner for anyone in the group, because this would upset group dynamics. Whenever I would try to protest that I was not gay, I would be harshly rebuked. If I ever developed a crush on a girl, it would create negative drama. I would be swiftly rejected and threatened with ostracizm for being "creepy." Eventually I realized that it was just more practical to accept being labeled as gay and the good natured teasing that came with it. I was always assumed to be gay just because I dressed and acted so differently from other boys as well as had both a lisp and a somewhat feminine voice.

Even once I got to college, getting romantic attention from women seemed impossible. I tried to act manly but it went unnoticed. When I made advances it was met with condescension and swift rejection. However with men it was the opposite. All throughout high school and college, gay men were drawn to me and always took my cool, aloof presence as a challenge to try to win me over.

Thus I intered my mid 29s a KHHV incel. My hypersexual urges only had porn as an outlet. Usually stuff like white women sucking black cocks paired with fully clothed asian models and idols. (Cont.)

All identity is socially reified, if you failed to be a man via your inability to assert yourself with a capacity and readiness for violence you are a woman. Women are merely failed men that have fallen into abjected subhumanity - you are exactly where you are meant to be

Eventually as I headed into my late 20s I just couldn't take it anymore. A life of no sex, no companionship, no love, affection or touch was literally destroying me slowly.

I began sleeping with men grudgingly. At first I told myself it was just to lose my virginity and that I was at most just "forced bisexual." But the first man i was with went a lot farther than I planned and we had penetrative sex a few times in one afternoon. There was never any discussion of who was the top or bottom. It was assumed with no discussion that I was the one who would be penetrated, and he didn't even pay attention to my dick. I couldn't believe that in a single day I had rounded all the bases and had my first hugs, kisses and cuddles. It was like a sensory overload, like a prison camp survivor being greeted with a full buffet.

I tries to avoid having sex with men again but the following year while at a part another man my own age slyly pursued me with the aid of alcohol, not leaving my side the whole day. He got me back to his place while I was tipsy and then took me with no further discussion. Once again, I bottomed without discussion. He wanted to see me again but I ghosted him. By that point I was desperately trying to hold on to the possibility of being straight, although I could feel that door rapidly closing.

if you failed to be a man via your inability to assert yourself with a capacity and readiness for violence you are a woman

it's funny how women and womanbrained faglords say this, then act shocked and appalled that violence they were cheering on is directed towards them lmaoo.

No one talks about it because its not actually a thing retard

It was when I was having sex with my third or fourth man after having just had my hair cut short that he asked me if I was transgender or nonbinary. I was surprised and asked why. He said that I radiated an unmistakeable feminine energy and pointed out that my proportions and body hair distribution were unusually feminine. He told me I looked like cersei lannister from the show game of thrones.

I realized with some discomfort that all the sex I had been having with men had been purely in the receiving role and had never even thought about using my penis for penetrative sex. By that point I felt like there was no point in struggling anymore. I talked to my doctor about starting estrogen and to my surprise he put me on female hormones immediately, diagnosed me with gender dysphoria, and placed referrals for sex reassignment and breast augmentation. My doctor suggested for best results i get an orchiectomy as soon as possible and switch to injections around that time.

I was quite surprised but at that point, it felt like some inevitable fate had asserted itself. Once i was on hormones and beginning to present as female, I started getting much more attention from men. I had always been pursued by gay men but now suddenly I felt I had the pick of literally any man I wanted. I had a series of partners, all very fit professionals, dominant, athletic, and straight presenting.

Less than a year after starting hormones, I had my balls removed. To my surprise it felt very freeing and I very much enjoyed the sensation of not having them there any more. After another year passed I finally settled into a long term relationship.

I fully believe that I was a straight man at heart though. I always felt women were extremely beautiful. However doing the whole straight male thing requires fitting in socially with men and I was just incapable of doing that. I tried very hard for many years to get a girlfriend and never even got close. I am so shy and scared of wrath and rejection from women I can't relax or assert myself in their presence. I believe this was learned behavior due to the liberal feminist society j grew up in.

The fact that right wingers think this is how transitioning works.
Can't wait for the grand finale, anon.
Don't disappoint me.

At the point i had finally settled into a long term, monogamous heterosexual relationship, presenting as a woman and with my legal name changed, I had had sex with 15 men in about 4 years. However in my entire life before that I had zero intimate relationships with women of any kind. No hugs, kisses, no dates, no snuggles, no i love yous, no walks on the beach, no cozy holiday celebrations. All of these wonderful things we need to feel loved were there for the taking as long as I acted in a submissive role towards men men received penetration.

Over time, my sexual appetites and attractions shifted to become ever more male dominated. Now i can scarcely remember being genuinely attracted to women. When I look at an attractive women like in OP picrel, the only thoughts it sparks are self insert type sexual feelings where I as the woman am having sex with a man.

That's it? That's the grand finale?
Change it.
Or delete it.
It was way better when it had an open ending with your third post.

So what am I to take away from this life I have lived? I am happy now, I have a life which I never thought possible. All I had to do to secure it was to completely reject masculinity, to accept my submissive position as woman within the hierarchy of other women, and to make myself into an ideal partner for a man, rather than focusing on my own desires for a partner.

I fully believe this is the reason for the current crisis affecting masculinity and the epidemic of Trans identity: there is simply no payoff to being masculine. It is very hard, not very enjoyable, and the reward is uncertain. Meanwhile if you embrace femininity and work on embodying traditional feminine virtues, you are virtually guaranteed protection, security, love, sexual fulfillment, and ultimately family ties.

For me the choice was ultimately clear. Although my nature might have been that of a straight male to begin with it was simply to risky and too costly to pursue it as a long time strategy, and the costs and risks only mounted with each passing year. Being a woman has given me everything that being a man could not. Far from regretting transition, I seriously wonder whether a large portion of modern day men could benefit from forcibly altering their sex and re wiring their sexual orientation like I did.

That wasn't the finale. Settle down, please. This is an open discussion, not a work of fiction.

No no no!
Up until the third post it was great snuff lit.
What the fuck is this moralist shit.
I was rock hard up to that point, what the fuck.
Write a bonus scene.

not a work of fiction.

I talked to my doctor about starting estrogen and to my surprise he put me on female hormones immediately

This is not how it works in reality, anon.
By the way, you can develop this part.

He happened to be a specialist in gender medicine. It happened as I have written it. Truth is often stranger than fiction.

if youre bi why do you care?
this was somewhat like my experience too but i realized earlier on that guys arouse me much more.

play your strengths

Why are you blaming this on feminism, liberalism and public school when the entire impetus for your change was bullying from male peers? Which is about as trad and patriarchal as it gets.

I think you're discounting the sigfigance of a formerly heterosexual boy deliberately discarding heterosexuality. I had been relentlessly bullied for being gay and had tried to swim against this tide and fight against this label for years.

And where did this struggle leave me? Literally on my knees staring up at the cocky smirk of an older black man, 6'4, muscular 280 lbs. I had dreamed of my first date with a girl my whole life and instead I was parting my lips and gingerly taking a man's penis into my mouth for the first time. I felt his precum dab the back of my throat and I gagged in surprise as he chuckled at my obvious inexperience. I looked up at him gasping for air, swallowing over and over again, the taste and aroma of his semen filling my sinuses. I knew right then that my bloodline had ended, that my heterosexual future was gone. Any chance of making my parents proud was dead and impaled on this stranger's cock, and ritual sexual suicide of sorts.and that was only the beginning. He took my virginity without me even telling him. I didn't need to, and he didn't care. It was all a joke to him. Deflowering me was just a way to alleviate boredom for him, and yet these were my first contacts with another human body. You never forget your first time.

By the end of it my sexual orientation was a confused mess and my body had been made to do things i never saw coming. I still felt some urge to try to turn back and salvage my masculinity, but there has been only failure, contempt and deprivation trying to do that. My body and mind were completely starved for physical affection by that point, and it compelled me to keep seeking out men to fill this role over and over again. Immediately brain imprinted this lesson instantly, that men were an instant source of easy pleasure and affection and women were cold, distant, unattainable, and simply not realistic at all. Trying to pursue women just creeped them out.

He happened to be a specialist in gender medicine

Don't use technical terminology nor beaurocratic procedures in your fiction unless you know the meaning of them.
Anon, you've never studied creative writing?
You have raw talent, but you lack formal education.
Sanderson has a good course on yt.

I have slogged through the entire stormlight archive and what i take away from that is that he's the last person anyone wants to take writing advice from.

I have way too much formal education in literature and other subjects I would rather not elaborate on it.

And again, it happened as I have written it , which was simply the facts. You can choose to believe or disbelieve.

It might have been the boys who bullied me at first but the ones who rigorously enforced homosexuality on me and policed any deviation were the girls.

Female friends of mine would arrange suitors and "dates" for me and would spread rumors about which guy i liked. Whenever a new gay movie came out, my girl friends would require that I go with them. Every year for the high school musical they would insist that I try out for the female parts for a laugh. They would make me watch shit like rocky horror picture show, doctor who, rent, avenue Q, and even Cats. Imagine trying to reclaim your straight masculine identity while your best friends are forcing you to listen to Andrew Lloyd weber

born retarded

but it's the special kind of narcisstic "I'm the main character retarded"

bullied for being a weak retarded

"no it is them that is the problem!"

notice your bullies are nice to women

"stupid women theyre far more retarded than me! If i was a woman these bullies would be worshipping me not bullying me! I will make a better woman and everyone will know I'm the main character not a retard!"

troon out

Case for me, case for you. Many such cases.

Great shit, really great shit.

Sanderson sucks

Agreed. I read enough shit to not need courses, but some people try to insert complexity when they shouldn't.
So I really don't know where you should learn how to improve your form.
Just don't get though specifics.
"The one doctors I went to pushed me further and further toward transition, prescribing E, etc."
Maybe read academic literature sometimes. It should show you how little novelists actually know.

Bump for fucks sake how did this happen to me.

No one talks about how feminism, liberalism, and the public school system works to forcibly feminized young neurodivergent men.

Absolutely based
We need more of all of this

John, 50

you can blame society as a whole all you like but the real problem is the lgbt crowd being psyoped into being a caricature of what it wanted to be.

yes you might have been bullied, mentally handicapped and maybe internally misandrist but the real blame is on this joke of a community. you was given a world where no one would question your degeneracy, where degenerates before you was guiding your path, somewhere you can belong and most importantly, strength through government legal protection.

the lgbt community failed you, nothing else.

i hope with the western world leaning more to the right and trend hoppers leaving the lgbt, that the psyop can be removed.

"You're had sex as a woman and enjoyed it and continue to enjoy it therefore you must be an old ugly sissy male boomer crossdresser"

You wish that was true because you're a repper and wasting your life probably.

I tried really hard to avoid being part of the LGBT community and identify as a straight male though. No cis heterosexual male friends ever really helped, no one wants to form a connection with a man. You're just a loser and a work horse whose supposed to work until you die.

not this time CIA, not this time

I hope you manage to take it to your grave, but you won't. Because you're on Anon Babble whining about DEI or whatever is the current delulu buzzword. You have no strength of soul, John.

Screencapping this
t. closeted bi man

fortunately thats been more and more mainstream, lots of guys are pushing back on it being gay to be close nowadays.

not being a part of the lgbt community doesnt help because of the governments involvement in "protection". you have psychologists and doctors that give you the diagnosis you want because all it takes is you to cry online about them and their career and future is possibly taken from you. they dont do what they think is best because the community that has gotten out of hand has legal protections.

it's the jooos, repeat 16578984125

I was bullied a bit in school too but not for very long because i always fought back and was pretty athletic even though i stopped doing sports come highschool
doesn't matter though since i ended up a gross tranny in the end

i hope the future is bright for you anon <3

You, an extremely mid transbian or man moder, politically correct, doesn't think anything you don't like could ever be real, highly sex negative,

Think that you're owning me because I'm a closeted repressed Jon writing sissy erotica.

But I'm not lol although I will admit blaming liberalism and feminism is more of a discussion bait than a factual assertion. I do think I was forcfemmed by women though. I worship women amd always have. Women collectively demanded that men do better and stop harassing them. So I did. I now absorb the sexual aggression of men on behalf of women, and get immense validation from it.

Weak soul