/lesgen/ - Lesbian General

i just barely got to prestige 1. i have 2 gold guns rn trying to decide if i want to work on ars or the marksman rifles first. i can go nuts but im so bad at getting headshots in cod its taking me an embarrassing amount of time for the golds lol.

i mean she stopped hrt months ago so who knows how long she’ll keep the title going. it’s a damn shame because she’s an absolutely beautiful woman who gets way too caught up in her conservative ideology.

The double XP weekend helped me get through a lot of prestige 1 thankfully.
I've got 3 ars done and half of the 4th one.
I'm awful at headshots and I get really obsessed with it so I start doing poorly in game because I'm trying so hard to get headshots...

Consider the following: cis asian gf

Thank you for the consideration

ah i started on the double xp weekend thing. and yeah i do the same thing and then i end up just playing worse trying to get the camos and i get frustrated lol. i wish there were just like some big kill milestones that u needed to reach instead of headshots but ig that would be too easy. ill prob get diamond on one set of weapons and thats it.

Yeah diamond ar and mayyybe snipers or smgs and I'll be happy.
It's nice to have a game I can play with friends though, makes me feel less lonely so I could keep grinding if they keep playing

Thank you for voting!

i want diamond marksman rifles, pistols, and maybe snipers if i want to lock in like that. and i get what u mean, nowadays i just dont even play video games usually i just watch my friends do stuff. having people to play games with is so comfy but there are like no good mp games lol thankfully black ops has actually been holding my attention and im having a lot of fun with it.

im kind of a boy but im way too much of a woman to detransition

QOTT: Who was the last person you fell asleep next to?

transbian i am going to friendswbenefits zone
gonna hook up w a cis asian baddie just to spite u i think

this but i'm just ugly

i havent played a video game since jordan visited

can an avoidant goth girl and a punk bpd girl really be in love? discuss

it was fun playing ps2 in the hotel lucer :3 she's napping rn but later we're gonna play kingdom hearts 2 final mix wit da english patch

I don't know which one I am or want to be and which one I want to have

of course they can be, love is love.
It might be hard if one is avoidant though.. but I nonetheless wish you all the luck.
Just because it's difficult doesn't mean it isn't worth trying, I believe if there is real love then you should try

as a punk bpd girl that sounds impossible
avoidant girls are my kryptonite

luz sad

tfw no gf to bully me into working out with her (i'm not fat just depressed)

Avoidant girls ruin me too as a bpd girl, I hate when I literally have to beg for someone to communicate with me or show me attention

this sounds like hell

literally. my one experience with an avoidant girl made me want to kms so bad and it made me feel like an insane person just for wanting basic communication. never again.

is it good or bad if my gf of 4 months is referring to me as her "wife"..

What perplexes me is, why do I keep getting attracted to them?

Extremely good, you made it

it's dangerous desu
if it ends well that's great but if it doesn't it'll be a horrible breakup and is a big red flag
if you're okay with it then it's all good but if you have any doubts make sure to set your boundaries in a calm way

Cute if she proposed already

im not sure about keep getting attracted to them, but for me it was really hard to get over the avoidant girl. being unavailable and unreachable only made me want her more and made me do some pathetic things.

alright this may be surprising but im actually not smoking weed and playing call of duty tonight. instead i will be smoking weed and watching a movie with my friend. THEN maybe ill play call of duty idk..

call of duty

need malebrained dudebro gf...

i wish i had a millennial trans gf

millenial gock belongs inside zoomer srsussy

cuck of duty

ngmi

LMAO actually my cisf coworker is why i got the game she said it was fun and we were gonna play zombies tho i am kinda malebrained i cant lie but im cute and pass so like it doesnt matter

Worrying post

What does avoidant mean in this context?

Update: I ate spaghetti. Worried due to another 4ch thread and also clavicle pain. Having tea. Help dear loofykins about clavicle metal Injury fear? Tests? Movies to watch? Life meaning/boredom? My current plan is to finish all tests and maybe do more, work to move and be stable, get hip surg replaced, lose weight, and have friendship but I worry is ruined and derailed because my left clavicle is severely injured either bone got deformed or more likely the metal plates that were added in the begining have become lose years later. Yup. Thoughts? Should I walk 10min in the cold tmrw am for a coffee? Or buy a latte or something from Dunkin? Hot cocoa? How common r sexual random thoughts in the head?

only if you have good tastes
What's your passions?

QOTT: Who was the last person you fell asleep next to?

my ex kms

QOTT: Who was the last person you fell asleep next to?

my little sister

injury fear

idk don't worry too much if it's out of your control

tests

idk good luck tho

movies to watch

the piano teacher

life meaning/boredom

the only purpose to me in life is making or being art

clavicle stuff thoughts

idk if the metal can just become loose I think it's meant to become fused, no? ask doctor

walk

yes yes yes please go for a walk find any excuse. it's beautiful outside even simple things it's just beautiful everywhere.

latte

good, but at home is better. I like to walk around with my coffee warming my fingers

hot cocoa

too sweet for me

random sexual thoughts

common, but less and less as you get older. I have a low sex drive but maybe once very few days or so I have a random rly perverted thought about something

Someone's shud have replied "my kitty!"

The piano teacher? Is it good? I dunno what u mean Abt making or being art. I can't make art I'm not artistic. Regarding clavicle since it's been years the bone shud be fused but I think the metal plate is now lose maybe? V worried
Regarding walk it's 39 degrees in am this the issue
How old r u? I am okish and asexualish but I sometimes get them. Mostly get stuck stuck in head randomly
What should I do about clavicle, homelessnes election worries, etc? Hmmm ideally can b cool
Having tea rn is warm yeh

my cat does sleep with me every night
and no I don't mean a transgirl I tamed into being a catgirl

tfw my cat sleeps under the bed instead of beside me

That's ok every kitty is different!

That's nice/sweet. Best buds

VI gf or Caitlyn gf?

She's moving far away....I dunno how I'm gonna handle it

piano teacher

one of the greatest.. Isabelle Hupert is so erotic and tragic. All of Michael Haneke's films are worth watching desu

being art

idk someone has already said this before probably but I see certain interesting unique people and the way they design their life and their person and everything they fill their life with it makes me think of them as super humble outsider artists that paint on the canvas of reality in a sense. I think of you in this way

metal plate

ask doctor

39 degrees

bundle up in cute layers

age

early 30s

clavicle homelessness election worrying etc

ask doctor, I don't think anything radical enough could happen to force you into homelessness, the election has always been overhyped and sensationalized to the extreme this is nothing new. if it has you worried then it's functioning perfectly. do not worry.

I googled it and it seems waaaay too sexual and dark and edgy for me so not gonna watch that movie sorry
Ty for nce comment tho
Asking a Dr Abt plate is fraught with issues. Regular doctors r ignorant about super rare trans surgeries. Asking the surgeon too many questions risks blacklisting. But I might soon.
I worry Ohio will ban trans and I'll be homeless before can move with job etx
TBD ig
Thoughts on this thread?:
boards.Anon Babble.org/lgbt/thread/37946679#bottom

fuck off

Ah sorry you're right. I shudnt put this here. I'm just desperate I guess. To discuss issues and worries. But I apologize and I'll stop now ueh

I can recommend something different. What kind of movies do you like?

doctor

I know so little about dealing with doctors and surgeons etc I have very low trust of authority figures so I avoid the doctor whenever possible. This is not to suggest you do the same just that our lives are probably very different.

ohio

I think logistically it's impossible to ban transgender people, but it's not impossible that very slowly over time certain states could put up barriers to trans care under the guise of protecting children. This will basically be of no consequence to you and other transgender adults. Anything extreme actually happening will not happen overnight it will be glacier slow and the warning signs will be all over, don't worry.

thread

I skimmed it it's bait, but there is truth in there with the bait ofc

I Iike anything that's good and not super upsetting. But I've seen most good stuff by now
The warning signs already happened. Banning birth cert changes, banning ID changes, banning under 18 hrt, banning bathroom, etc.
Regarding the thread what's your view on my posts? I was using the name L*F?
I am worried Abt much stuff so I am unhappy in life. Especially sex appearance theory thread, Injruy, homelessnes, hip money

"I'll stop"

immediately does it again

PLEASE fuck off laf you do not belong here

I didn't repost any edgy stuff I just talked about my life worries and housing and safety and injuries . Just filter at that point, if those things are horribly offensive to u. As if I'm the only one here who blog posts or talks Abt non dating topics.

There are sooooooooo many golden age classics that you haven't seen yet I guarantee it. Idk what upsets you exactly though I'll have to think of something.

warning signs

I dunno what states these apply to, but I feel strongly that most people can if they want make a 1 year plan to move away from any red state they live in on basically any budget. I have mixed feelings on states rights, but generally I think it is okay for certain places to cater to certain people instead of blanket rules we all have to follow in which nobody is rly satisfied. Unfortunately transgemder rights vs parents rights to raise children in xyz way collide rly ugly and it's complex to solve..

thread

I can't read all those posts im sorry laffy. if you want to summarize your posts I could comment on them though.

being unhappy

I understamd. I prefer thinking in terms of content or not yet content instead of "marketing" like descriptions of complex emotions like happy sad blah blah. Not being content usually means I'm not working hard enough or im being boring or im betraying myself artistically in some way. . .

thank god stacker is here to bait laf

im not baiting im being sincere. im trying to ease her worries. she's so worried, always worrying

I think I am losing any potential hope for a healthy dynamic so I've begun accepting the only way I could ever have anything longterm with a woman is if I cater myself to cis chasers. Though I am willing to work at it and change myself in any way required, so if you have any suggestions as to what to do, please throw them at me and I can look to cater myself.
context but not really required, as this is a general suggestion

1yr on hrt

socially confident

relatively locked in terms of uni and career, well as much as you can be at 22

I have had recent grief and trauma, not gonna blogpost but I am recovering

not a drinker and no drugs

no experience romantically

going through grindr seems horrible unless I want gross guys and I don't have any community connections, Canada for context, so any recommendations? what do cis lesbian chasers want and what can I do to cater to them?

You said you would cool off on the blog posting. Please just start a blog.

And she'll be like that until she dies. She uses this place to practice her neurotic behaviors. She feeds into them constantly. She's far from a self actualized being.

Im hoping to move I just worry I cant transfer in time. I plan to move back to CA etc. but I worry I'll get banned before cns transfer

Thread

I cant summarize here without being hurtful and offensive. Just Ctrl F theory in that thread and it'll explain it.
Yes by happy I just mean at peace and not in a state of worry

When I talked Abt bad stuff I meant edgy things which cud be hurtful to people. Not bloglositng. However I do want to blogpost less for personal productivity reasons.

They mostly want a good partner, so the usual stuff. Good communication is key. From there, there's a variety of women with different wants and needs.

In my experience most lesbians and especially most bi women are bottoms. They'll say they're a switch but they aren't. I'm cis so take that with a grain of salt. I avoid women that aren't into sex, since those tend to be pillow princesses. If you're ok topping then make it clear on your profile that you're a top. That will get women's attention. Basically the same as with trans women lol.

I'm okay with that I think she's more interesting than most of the people itt. I would unironically read her blog.
Okay I will look through and read thr thread and get back to you

Thanks!

Sometimes I hear pseudo sexual random intrusive female ASMR esque dialogue in my head. That's another reason I think I'm gynephelic maybe

Is it common to be not into sex? For mtf? That's how I feel

VI gives me terf vibes. caitlyin would totally be fine with the tran

You have strange interests. Her neuroticisms are neither novel or well written. It just gives me anxiety reading her shotgun style of thought. Way too high maintenance for someone who isn't even lesbian, just vaguely into some women's forms. Tried to get people to define what a lesbian is in a very silly attempt at a gotcha. If she didn't namefag and constantly garner attention through it she'd just be another spammer, which is what she does with her blogs.

No. Most people are into sex. You are an outlier. You know you have hangups that others do not.

Laffers do you have a movie recommendation for us?

Sure I've seen many good ones tho so it's hard to give specifics without a genre

Yeh but u said a lot of the women on apps weren't into sex

I appreciate her up front honest and heart on sleeve style of flowing consciousness. She's straight up pure Laffers. I think if she's questioning her sexuality like she says then she belongs here, even if her posts can sometimes dominate the thread. I love outliers I love when people are characters, real life can be so filmlike :D

Women in general have lower sex drives, you know? People who aren't as into sex tend to not be active partners. How much do I have to break this down for you? These not as active partners can be referred to as pillow princesses. Trans women can have sexual hangups, so even if they want sex (and girl they DO), once you get them in bed you might find a load of trauma. They'll be inactive partners if their issues prevent them from being an active one. So since I want an active sex life I stay away from women who aren't looking for someone with a sex drive. I have a kink picture of me licking a woman's boot on my profile to make it clear where I'm at.

Cis women can be annoying. They're horny but often times they'll revert to submissive passive behavior in bed. Some women aren't even aware they're doing this and will just use you for your face and fingers and not even get you off. If you don't communicate your expectations in bed, you may end up surprised with a pillow princess.

If you want to be a lesbian at least try to pretend that you understand women. You've actually vexed me.

I'm sorry. I don't "want to be a lesbian" I think that's a tad rude. I'm just being myself and not trying to larp as any different community. And "pretend that u understand women" is also a stretch. Why would someone who has never dated a woman or even seen much pornography have any idea statistically how different women act in sexual situations as sex partners? Youve "vexed" me in a sense but not really. Just further blackpilled me with the mask off, Abt the lizard man hypothesis. That being a transexual is akin to being a lizard man and even if people don't recognize u as such as give u hate on the street or in social situations they secretly hate u or at least subconsciously do.

Okay, that seems very doable, and I guess I am lucky my dysphoria for topping isn't there and i can definitely handle it, I'm surprised saying you're a trans top will get lesbian womans attention. It feels like trans women straight or lesbian are okay with the whole penis stuff but not cis lesbians. Might as well try with a dating profile soon, thank you for the advice!

See, this kind of thing is why I can't stand you. You took what I said, then twisted it into some anti-trans ideology. Your neurotic tendencies are ridiculously out there to someone who has spent a lot of time interacting with reality in ways you clearly haven't. I can be patient with you, but due to having so much exposure to you in these threads I have none.

If you want to be a part of a lesbian community as someone just trying to figure things out, why do you choose to dump your brain farts here ON TOP OF exploring lesbianism. It's clear you just want a place to shit out your nonstop brain turds.

Nice pic

I didn't twist it instead between the lines and picked up on the language. That's the lizard man hypothesis.

brain farts here ON TOP OF exploring lesbianism. It's clear you just want a place to shit out your nonstop brain turds.

All I did was ask Abt ur experience with women and asexuality spectrum which is relevant to myself.

I'm talking about your spamming. Your constant need to list your thoughts. Explore lesbianism all you want through chatting with women here, sure, but as it has been said over and over, why do you use this place as your blog? Why do you give in to that compulsion? Don't you have a discord to talk in? That's what other people do to dump their thoughts.

I just wish I didn't know that you're asexual. It really makes it clear you're just looking for community with a vague connection that's accepting enough to not call you out. How many communities have you done this to?

Laffers is literally doing nothing wrong. She's a woman posting in the women loving women thread. Love her maybe? Sheesh

she wouldn't like that we've tried

I only want to date a girl who would call me a trap

How do I (mtf) get a butch gf?

I don't want to argue with you. IMHO I don't think u or anyone else would care Abt the bloglositng of there werent a half dozen people preemptively complaining Abt my existence here when I first popped in, due to being some weird MTF ttt microcelebritiy with posting style. If I wasn't recognized u wudnt care Abt me asking Abt asexuality spectrum in your experiences with women or about what to have for dinner.
I should also add that u wud never say a cisgender bio female didn't understand women if they asked Abt your experience sexually with asexuality. But it is what it is. Like I said, lizard man hypothesis. Everyone hates trans I feel or views them as a lower caste. Even if u look indistinguishable you cannot escape this reality of being hidden in plain site but hated or seen as lower or like 1 annoyance away from normal people going mask off and being called uppity man.

Find a woman named Butch

She turned what I said into a thought about how trans people are lizard people. I love trans women. I'm trying to marry one. I've dated plenty of cis women yet my best relationships were with sensitive beautiful talented needy nerdy funny trans women.

You know what? Maybe she has my attention in part due to how much I hate brain worms. She's pushing me past my daily limits of worms. I'm chock full of em. Chock fulla werms.

Alright how about something nice. What's your favorite part of a woman? Besides the attractive smell (holy shit testosterone smells awful like rotten animal) I think I'm currently into the soft upper arms and that inner area at the top of the thigh. Both highly sensitive, but a lot of women don't recognize them as erogenous zones. So you gently kiss and lick them there and it'll blow their minds. Or they'll knock your teeth out while squeal-laughing. I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY DATE ON SATURDAY AAAA

I'm not aware of your past at all. I only come here for a few weeks at a time since like 2006. Sometimes I'll stay for months. My opinion on you is only from reading what you've written. I've told you that your blogging is obnoxious through multiple threads, but since I'm not a namefag you don't notice.

Ah well I'm sorry for hurting your feelings or upsetting u, I am not mad yeh. Just rather sad. I don't have a fav part of women really but I suppose I'd say for humans it's aesthetic to have narrow waist and so forth. Longer proportionate legs r also a positive for humans. Dachshunds seem happy ish with their short ones tho. In general I suppose for human beings a low width to height ratio is good. But I am not prejudiced against people with different aesthetic goals

Yes I know u don't know me. I meant other people did and every thread had a lot of anons who knew I'm "Laf" saying that I'm bad. Like I said tho I don't wanna argue and I don't like conflict so I don't wanna discuss further. I'm having diet dew rn.

youtu.be/Jdy7xmmzPpE?si=8Ar2sjGsZ9B336Uj

You know what. You're so clearly not a lesbian it's just silly. You don't love women. What the fuck, girl?

I.domt know how to answer this. I told u I think I'm ace or gynephelic or somewhere in between. I used to be ace with meta attraction but that went away. After srs I can go on and such and do and is gynephelicish. I don't want to be more explicit than that. I also don't want any more negativity

im high and i ccant understand this

The negativity comes from a non-lesbian dominating a lesbian space.

How am I different than any of the other MTF posters here who haven't dated anyone before?

They at least love women and don't blog post constantly about things entirely unrelated to loving women.

Have you practiced self awareness? I know I'm being an asshole right now. I know I'm pouring way too much energy into this conversation because of a mix of caffeine, a little booze from dinner, and just finishing compiling a big project. It's got me all kinds of spicy. How could you not pick up on your own behavior? Despite multiple people breaking it down for you? Through multiple threads? You just keep ignoring it and then it repeats over and over. Please just go start a blog. Link it once per thread if you must.

its really insane how you are like the personification of brainworms. you view every aspect of your life through some Anon Babble buzzword. you are a warning of what can happen when you let things from this board get to you to the point that it rules your life.

:((( sorry

Ah yeh I'm aware that blogging here is a bad habbit. Sorry. I didn't mean to get anyone so mad Abt it

its so funny laf is such a retard she just doesnt get it

So what's your biggest lesbian fantasy? Sexual or platonic. What do we dream of?

I want to marry a woman who wants me to show them the world. I love planning trips and doing research. I'll get into USGS files on arcgis to figure out exactly where I want to go. Find specific things to travel for. And then give yourself plenty of time to explore! Nothing would make me more happy than sharing that passion with the woman I love.

I also dream of having such a strong relationship that we can do kink stuff together without there being issues. It's a very, very deep kind of trust. I'm not into poly, but I do like the idea of being able to have kinky fun with my wife. Dungeons and the like. No worries about anyone else taking her from me, because she is secure in her love for me. I think that's ideal. I'm a romantic but marriage is for life! That's a long time! There's so many things I want to experience and it would be even better to do it with the love of my life.

I get it in a sense. I dunno. Just sad. Have nowhere else to turn. Desperate. So I do it anyways.

I understand being lonely but this behavior, is it really helping? Do you just want an audience for your every thought? There must be a better outlet for you. You're clearly lonely, and you've built up layer upon layer of strong, anxiety driven beliefs. No one can tackle all of that for you. It's exhausting. There has to be some internal locus of control in you. Do you want to change? Do you actually want to figure out your sexuality or was that just a mask for all this?

You really would be helped by figuring out how to tackle your demons. But you've got a fucking big ass tome full of demons. Going through it page by lizard people page is going to be a lot. Like girl, are you aware that life exists outside of your dark thoughts? I'm going on a date with a successful, beautiful trans woman soon. Trans women are out there living their best life and you're calling em lizard people. This is the kind of thing a GOOD, like actually GOOD therapist lives for. Bad therapists ruin patients for the good ones.

There. A boat load of individualized attention. Eat up! Yum yummy yum. Sorry I'm just being silly at this point.

This is the kind of thing a GOOD, like actually GOOD therapist lives for

100%, being able to yap about your problems + having self reflection which they just showed by saying they are desperate, and open to new ideas new perspectives evidence of being here. Ideal patients are made of this.

Those r very good points. I think is true Abt thoughts and bloglositng being a bad habit yet.
I understand your point. I guess I'll just leave nowish or stop posting tonight or whatever. I don't really have anything to say. It's all pretty pointless
But just as an FYI the lizard people thing is a metaphor Abt people hating transgendies even if they're blended in.