Been thinking about transitioning here, but have no idea if I should actually go through with it. Specifically because from what I can tell, my experience with transgender identity isn't the same as the majority. In my case I feel like I can't live up to the standards of a man, I feel like I barely even present like one in the first place. I have a myriad of different physical conditions that's resulted in me having a relatively small, unpronounced and andromorphic bone structure. I've worn my hair long for the past decade or so because I hate how I look with short hair, and that combined with my a fairly andromorphic body structure has resulted in me getting confused as a woman or ftm in a few different encounters I've had. It makes me really uncomfortable because I am a man, I have an X and a Y chromosome as well as a 7 and a half inch dick, but idk thinking about the amount of times it's actually happened in life has started making me insecure about how I present to people. Idk if I could go through with all the surgery stuff, I've already dealt with enough surgeries due to the physical problems I have. I just don't know if it's something worth it for me and I need genuine advice with the topic. I'm not necessarily uncomfortable at the thought of being a guy, but I'm extremely insecure about the fact that I don't look very masculine.
Idk, I just need to know if it would even be worth it for someone like me. I don't feel like I can properly fit the mold of a regular man, but I feel like I could for a regular woman. It's not necessarily something fueled by dysmorphia, but insecurity of being unable to live up to what I was born as. I'm afraid to try it because I'm almost 26 here. I don't even know if HRT would have much of an effect at this point.