God I'm so fucking lonely

its not a competition but ive cut to fat more than once

okay but im gonna be real cutting deeper is not all its made out to be really it's easy to regret it down the line at least with baby cuts they almost always entirely go away eventually
i did many styros on my arm recently and will probably regret them :<

you should get alot of chickens and roosters and hangout with them, that way you get deeper cuts like that and free eggs.
also you will have bird friends and wont be lonely. win/win
and if they make more roosters you can just kill them and eat them.

...
yeah i think im gonna stick to cutting myself thnx lol

i stopped cutting years ago but recently have been rly rly wanting to again, instead ive been giving myself tattoos and going too deep till i cant take it anymore. Should i keep doing the tattoo thing or just start cutting again?

asking because this is a sh thread
my bpd ex made me cut her name into my thigh
it's probably going to scar
if I start cutting over it again and again will the scars be less visible?

it'll be harder to make out what it originally said. it might be better to give it some time and only recut if you have to to hide it

how deep was it? it may fade enough on its own

Hey. I'm pretty good at bargaining and candidly drunk. Is there anything at all that would make you stop cutting yourself? What do you really want?

What do you really want?

pleasure i guess? cant really masturbate anymore so my brain memed itself into associating pain with pleasure
no i dont get orgasms from cutting myself lol but i do feel good when i cut and since im on ssris i figured out i can overload my dopamine receptors and give myself a "high" if i cut shortly after the meds kick in

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

Great. Pleasure's good, who doesn't like that? So you cut into yourself to feel things. Why can't you masturbate ? It's not a meme, a lot of people love pain and pleasure, look up Ex Habit, his songs are all about that. I'm not saying don't give yourself pleasure, there's better and safer ways to give yourself pain and pleasure. Nobody's saying you climax from cutting yourself, I understand the analogy, I do, however. Would you be willing to explore overloading your dopamine receptors in a way that doesn't involve taking a knife to your skin? Is that reasonable?

Would you be willing to explore overloading your dopamine receptors in a way that doesn't involve taking a knife to your skin? Is that reasonable?

sure i guess?
but im pretty much asexual at this point
i said i cant really masturbate because like 5 months in on hrt i stopped being able to have orgasms and when i started taking antidepressants it completely killed my dick so touching myself doesnt do anything for me im like completely numb down there

because google are cowards and just give the "you can get help"
is there a good way to get cuts on your thigh to bleed more, just cut deeper? feel like I'm never able to get as much as I want

when bad stuff happens to me I feel bad
I use sh as a form of comfort
like something bad will happen and I'll think "wow i need a treat so I'll cut tonight"

I really want to cut deeper again, but I don't feel like getting stitches.

Slightly more superfiscial cuts don't hurt enough anymore, even when made with a dull blade...

Yeah, I hate when my scars fade. I really want to make bigger/deeper cuts on my arm maybe tomorrow, if I'm not too tired

Goals

I'm not sure how the tattoo things work, but if you need to sh, then that's your choice

have you thought about orgasming another way?
Yeah but then you end up with a bunch of scar tissue. I relied on that when I was a kid and I wish I never did. There's got to be other things that can bring you comfort without cutting into yourself.

the scars never go away so why shouldn’t i just add more

have you thought about orgasming another way?

ive tried alot of stuff and nothing really feels good
honestly last time i had a "real" orgasm was when i was like 17

who asked retard

that almost made me throw up but it was also the first time i felt something in a few weeks so thanks anon

what can i say? i like attention lol :3

Why do white people do this? I've never seen a black person with cuts.

alot of stuff

Have you thought about anal play/prostate orgasms instead?

tried it
nothing :/

Rude

Funny you should say that, I'm half black.

for me its spamming sniffies and scruff every 3 seconds to see if someone can spare a second of human connection with me I want a bf bad

this looks like.. infected lol.
like that big red splotch doesnt look healthy.

What about with a partner?

lol! i still live with my parents and im mentally ill
im never gonna get a bf its so over

the loneliness kills me

Wouldn't really get too hard on yourself over it. Lots of people live with their parents these days, the economy isn't exactly in great shape. Plus relatively minor mental issues aren't exactly rare, lots of people have them. Depression is just about one of the most common conditions in existence. You just gotta find a way to start being more confident in yourself, find a way to remind yourself that the people you want to ask are likely in a similar living and health situation to you.

maybe?
too bad im probably bpd so i would just ruin any relationship best to not even try i think
well theres that and the fact that im probably gonna off myself at 30 but who knows

when people say shit like this i struggle to imagine how theyve ever suffered in their lives

actually agree with you fuck that retard lol

just be confident bro!

die.

I hope everyone in here can find the strength to quit cutting. I know it feels good and I know it helps in the moment. Hell, I feel the urge to go back to it all the time, but it really does make your mental state worse and worse over time. There is happiness in this world, but you can't start recovering and feeling better if you continue. I know how hard it is to stop, but it's well worth doing. I'm happier now than I ever have been in my life, and I couldn't be like this if I was still hurting myself. You can find joy too. I know you can. If you've fought through this pain and survived this long, then you're strong enough to break out of this habit and find joy outside. I'm rooting for all of you.

I'm physically disabled, most debilitatingly in my shoulders. I've faced lots of discrimination in my life, particularly from employers due to the fact that I'm viewed as intrinsically weaker and less useful than my peers and I've struggled to find consistent work because of it over the course of the past 10 years. After a certain point, beating yourself up over the things out of your control really starts to take its toll on you, and you just eventually start trying to adopt a more optimistic outlook. At least, that's how it was in my case.

big ups. i'm happy you've found a way to mitigate the messiness of it all.

It was hard. Brutally so. When I chose to quit I kept falling back into it after a single bad day. But it was so worth doing. I started cutting at 18, and finally stopped at 26. You don't realize just how badly it affects your mental health until you quit for good.
The scars will never heal, but my mind is healing faster each day.

Not him
I'll be your boyfriend. I don't post here and it's my only time being here in 10 years and will not be here after tonight. it's up to you. The self-harming will have to stop, anything else I'm willing to stay with you through. No abuse though.

guy who wont let me cut myself

guy who wont punch and bruise me

ew no thanks

guy who wont punch and bruise me

I never said that. I said not to cut yourself.

ok but why? i like doing it and its not like im hurting anyone
like omg are YOU the one bleeding? no so literally why is it an issue lol
like omg you sound like my mom "you are hurting us!!!" literally no i am not lol

based

I'm not against pain I'm against loosing a boyfriend because they cut too deeply one day or had to be rushed to the ER. Can you not find something else to like? Besides, I think impact play is more exciting.

Can you not find something else to like?

no
tried to get into drinking (i like being tipsy!!) but im on so many meds consuming alcohol is probably a bad idea

That's cute. want to sit on my lap while I whisper degrading things in your ear? Let's not consume alcohol babe, that is good to know.

while I whisper degrading things in your ear?

i will cry