PsychoANALysis game

walked in on your parents doin it as a kid

i only grew up with one parent

Trans girl with an overwhelming desire to submit to women, especially fat girls

the reason you don't have it for men is because you don't like men. i stand by mommy issues

Passionate sex between me and a hot guy
t. Winkhon

Thats too normal to even be called a fetish

A slim, attractive korean woman with porcelain skin, a slinky black dress and stilleto heels gazes at me with a look of coy amusement. Her arrogant, high class attitude comes off her in waves. She draws on a cigarette incredibly slowly, staring at me as she exhales, the smoke wreathing her face like a divine dragon.

I am kneeling in front of her, wrists shackled to a bar that is affixed to a collar around my neck with a little dangling bell attached. My nipples and navel are pierced and connected to a chain that is threaded through my collar. The other end of the chain is held by a 240 lb 6'4 hairy muscular onyx black man, a wide smile revealing his pearlescent white teeth.

The woman cocks her chin at me: "it's time." She says. "Beg me to break your asshole!"

Immediately I lunch forward, kaon tao-ing on the cold floor and arching my back as I present my asshole to the black man behind me. "Please mistress, please break my ass!" I beg her over and over, my voice becoming an unintelligible stream of mewling whimpers as my pathetic shrunken, castrated cock strains ever so weakly against a steel chastity belt, cinched around my waist because I have no balls left to hold it.

As I beg, I feel the girth, thick black penis, as wide as a cucumber begin to penetrate my eager pink asshole. My butt spasms and contracts in a mixture of shock,fear and submissive arousal as the black man pauses birelfy to savor the moment before mercilessly driving his enormous 9 inch cock into my asshole, balls deep. He mashes my prostate with the head of his glans and the Korean woman let's out a triumphant laugh. I know I will never again sleep with women, I have become a plaything for dominant aggressive men.

cant tell you why but i can share my favourite artist
@mooncancer00

We're talking shit along the lines of "hyper" muscles. Stuff that's incredibly rare to come across irl and typically appears more in drawn smut as opposed to filmed.

Repressed homosexuality

Tickle torture

nta but is it smth like this?

doesn't count as a fetish imo. your brain just got conditioned to unrealistic body standards, possibly from too much porn
deep need for validation & release from responsibility. + mommy issues
way too long didn't read
u like having fun and you're based

Yeah but with a more masculine face.

You are just based

Giving or receiving?

Lol what? But I want to have the body of a woman.

repressed heterosexuality kek

You should read it.

woah...me too now

repressed bisexuality forcing you to want hyper-masculine traits in females

I'm gay, I've sought out men that look like that. Or did you miss the part about having a nice big dick?

Anon posted a female though

troon mtf firstly. Inflation/Weight gain/fat bitches, diapers, pee, plushies and inflatable (pooltoys). try to psychoanalyze THAT

nah
too much twitter porn

Asking if that was similar to my interests, which yes it is. She just needs a dick and the face of a guy who looks like he'd snap my neck with one hand if I ever annoyed him.

for me, it’s body horror, corruption, and identity death. I’d try to analyze others but it just seems like too much atp desu

Idk I guess to elaborate better, it's just sort of a dynamic where I get off to a fear based response. Someone who intimidates me also simultaneously turns me on immensely, and for me absolutely jacked people make me feel pretty intimidated.

brainrot
consider detoxing

too much twitter porn

well that was underwhelming

Inflation/Weight gain/fat bitches

can you atleast hyperanalyze this. i've had this since like 9 years old. i need to know where it came from

Inflation/Weight gain/fat bitches

loss of agency/becoming helpless to relieve the crushing weight of life

diapers, pee, plushies

infantilization once again loss of agency

inflatable (pooltoys)

Aren't most of them inflatable anyway?

guilt, self loathing. probably severe unresolved trauma, which you may not even remember due to cptsd or such
hmm, maybe a release from anxieties concerning weight? were you bullied as a kid for being too skinny/fat/weak? the pooltoy thing I would think is more of a dehumanization thing imo, perhaps so that you feel less vulnerable in the "i can be hurt" way but also a release of responsibility by being inanimate
kinda right imo

Low self esteem and using those fetishes as a proxy for suicide

disposession anxiety
oedipus complex
pathological emotional underdevelopment
you are slovenly and undeveloped despite being anal retentive and seek an object delineated from yourself
homosexuality
masochistic retreat into the body to cope with overwhelming psychic trauma
masochistic emasculation fetish stemming from your mother failing to form a nurturing maternal bond

:3
Giving

being raised in a situation where love and support was conditional on your obedience and you have no way of conceptualizing relationships beyond this framework

anyways i'm a siscon (no irl siblings) what's up with that

sublimated death drive

siscon

SAME

I'm bisexual, I only like guys my age

love and support was conditional on your obedience

oh, yeah, i think this hits :(

you are slovenly and undeveloped

Got me there, lol. Always been a scrawny effeminate looking dude and I can be fairly reckless.

Maaahaaaaa
the WOMEN
i see in my futa

Cute feet.
Vore.
Feminization.

pregnancy
lactation
incest
tentacles
futa topping femboys
woman of the village
huge cocks
freeuse
other things

chastity
prejac
assworship
cbt

casebook repressed transsexuality

feet

prostrating and idealization of female beauty

vore

self-destruction of the male form

feminization

rebirth as female

TG TF everthing bagel with hypnosis, mental changes, bimbofication, split personality, slow burn forced feminization, mindbreak, futa domination, chastity
(its also worth noting that i am a literal virgin and my exposure to all of this has been through illustrated porn and literary erotica, not even live-action pornography)

Cum on food, also cum generally in or on me. Is there even a psychological explanation for this?

No irl siblings

My guess would be that since you haven't had a sibling connection it's hard for you to see the type of person you're attracted to in a purely platonic light.

Hot person is hot person if they aren't your sibling.

And I suspect for people with siblings that are sis/brocons it's something abnormal about either their openness or attachment that makes them see siblings as a target for sexual desire.

Another case of repressed transsexuality

raised religiously

Do my others help my case?
Futa on male
Femboys
Exhibitionism
Voyarism

need ambitious girlboss tof roce me to transitioon and then i bexo,me her housewife and make her tasyt meals ands keep house claen and let her tie me uyp and whip me and force me to eat her pusy

i apologise for spelling errols, johnny walker is my bf tonight

fucking every time

siscon since as long as i can remember

meet best friend (tranny) online

3 years later she turns out to be a massive siscon the whole time

meet wifey (tranny)

turns out they were also a siscon and we completely treat each other like sisters now

make first new friend (tranny) in a couple years

3 months later turns out to be a siscon

what is happening to our sisters :?

feet idk. vore you want to be wanted for your body. fem you long to transition but feel it's impossible for you.
too horny and watched too much porn
release of responsibility, internalized insecurity in your adequacy
you want to transition and your attraction to women is blending with your desires for your own body + it's magnified because you've never had sex to realize it's not that great
i think this has to do with pheremones, so less of a fetish, maybe some genetic thing that makes you more affected?
yes repressed as fuck
repper + bottom
longing for connection or something? idk it's a bit strange that it's so common, i'll give you that

your boyfriend died

trannies are just meant to be siscons, what can i say

Fat fetish
Being called a tranny and a faggot
Having my body worshipped
Making men tell me im always superior to them
Old men

repper + btottom

thats'like saying heroin od is casued by addiction like yah your right but that doesn't say what led up toi addiction

Fuck.
Everything keeps pointing me to being a tranny, but I feel fine as a guy. I mean, I used to wonder what if I was a girl, but I got over that later...
I've got no complaints about being a guy... why must I show all other signs of being an egg-tranny.

raised religiously

what should i do about it

Another case of repressed transsexuality

so i should transition fast

too horny and watched too much porn

how this explains anything

MEF, forced MTF

t. FTM

My partner controlling me, telling me what to do in the bedroom, maybe I resist at first but eventually give in.

ambitious girlboss

like 90% of repressed tranny fetishes you are looking for an exterior force that feminizes you, you do not want to accept the desire is innate to you

force me to eat her pusy

she is symbolically "forcing" her femininity inside of you

getting drugged and raped

may b e on to something with thi s but i am also just getting burned out in cocllege so that may just be me wanting to give up and being really subby also kinda coincides with that

Delta P

natural female desires

they're your position and gender identity, they aren't really fetishes

got over that

did you though, or did you just rep and lie to yourself? kinda seems like the latter to me anon

so i should transition fast

not a lot of times you want to wait to start desu
sorry, maybe someone else has a better answer. i just get that vibe because they're all very common and the kind of things you could develop by seeing in media.
maybe you have some level of non-binary identity you haven't figured out yet, and you're subconsciously trying to find a balance
lack of self esteem, want to be free from responsibility, see above
correct
possible trauma from past SA that you can resolve by reenacting it in a safer situation (or it could be more of self harm)

delta p

i don't even wanna, that video makes me squeamish

Hot

how is some wierd math efquaiton a fetish you gigantic fuckann nerd

Maybe you have some level of non binary identity you haven't figured out yet

Incorrect, it's a cope for the fact that iwnbam

did you though

I think so? I mean I honestly don't mind being a guy buuuut I always wondered.

As I said in a previous thread, where I was diagnosed as a fem fag:

See the issue is, it's always been in my mind though. I remember back when I was like 9 or 10 thinking that I wished I was a girl, now it's less that but I don't mind being a guy and wouldn't mind being a girl... just some in-between point of confusion.

Could be porn conditioning, could be trans, could be a fetish, could be years of hypno porn (back when it wasn't shit) finally biting me in the ass (probably that's what's causing the confusion, I'd have a solid answer if not for it)

Cuckoldry, and cuckson stuff. I want a bisexual womanizer friend/bully who fucks all of the women in my life and gets off on telling me and maybe let's me service him sometimes

Ever get your dick sucked? Imagine your whole body sucked into a pipe instead

Cuckold

repressed tranny or closet homo every time

insecurity then ig? interesting that it manifests that way, i wouldn't expect that

back when i was 9 or 10 wishing i was a girl

don't mind being a guy

if you didn't mind it you probably wouldn't be rep posting and transvestigating yourself on /tttt/ now would you
tbqh i don't understand the cuck stuff much at all, can't really relate.

pretty tired, prog is hitting, likely not many more analysis from me tn

being a sex slave/slave/concubine
being raped
forced creampie
forced marriage
being beaten
being kidnapped
being drugged
(possibly) being killed
(guns knives strangulation)
t. no womb girl

being bitten/gentle bloodplay

that woulds either be the best feeling in the wolrd or te most paifgul, maybe both if yoyu freaky like that......

if you didn't mind it you probably wouldn't be rep posting and transvestigating yourself on /tttt/ now would you

Fuck you I do what I want... and my boyfriend keeps telling me I should get on E... I get concerned for my own sanity.

I am bisexual but not really wanting to have sex with women either. I have always been into cuckson stuff though which is weird and even nofap changed nothing. If anyone found out I would have to kill myself I don't think it can be explained as being weird like a fart fetish or something

Feminized trans wife with cute pathetic little cock that I can bully. Fully obedient to me and derives pleasure from devoting themselves to me no matter how embarrassing or silly it may be. Would also like to do some religious play some day, but haven’t found anyone with enough guts to follow thru.

Impregnation, orcs, furry on human, Chem play, especially with psychedelics and everything mentioned

How serious are you about these things tho.

Religious play like what? Like you’re an ancient god and she’s a trans priestess and thus your concubine? Your sacrifice?

e is really fucking with my sexuality rn. i'm hard and horny all the time. i think i like smut now? reading all this dirty stuff turns me on, it doesn't really matter what it is. but the visual doesn't do so much for me anymore

Being made to feel small. This ranges from like slight height difference that I have with most hot guys (i'm sort of short) to being so small that the entire sky gets blotted out when some girl accidentally throws a normal used tissue over my unperceivable form

devoting themselves to me

i'll only be mommy if you can make me say "daddy"

guilt, self loathing. probably severe unresolved trauma, which you may not even remember due to cptsd or such

Low self esteem and using those fetishes as a proxy for suicide

sublimated death drive

shoot… yeah I do feel immense guilt pretty much daily and have ideations about suicide every now and again

BPD, but otherwise standard bottom/female desires

I am bisexual but not really wanting to have sex with women either

You said you want to have sex with your male bully, which makes you tilt more to the homo or tranny side.

Insecurity then ig?

I guess yeah. In my mind since I don't have a dick I can't take the role of a normal man. So I have to take the role of an extremely feminized man because that's what I am. Emasculated guys are relatable to me because I feel like I'm emasculated to the extreme

Nah. I’m talking about turning her into my Islamic wife. Full on Muslim garb when she’s outside but wearing slutty lingerie underneath. Only I’m allowed to see her body in its pure naked form. At home she’d have to wear something arousing or lewd, but maybe still keep a hijab on just to keep it kinky. I’d like to use some twisted justification to explain why Allah wants me to breed her bussy every single day with the intention of impregnating her. I’d love to have her pray to god while she rides me dick, or attempts to recite religious scriptures while I stuff her face with my cock.

Nobody guessed mine:(

serious unresolved trauma
based. possible unusually large exposure to blood as a child. attraction to people with low impulse control, perhaps as a foil to you being the opposite, masochism (obviously)
i don't really care what you do with your life, im just pointing out contradictions in your logic. lashing out doesn't exactly make me feel wrong tho lol

no more, im too tired. hope y'all keep the thread alive, it's good reading

If u saw my body and knew what I’m capable of doing to you, you’d call me daddy pretty damn fast

Lack of father figure, desire to find father figure in life. Desire to find validation from others. Lack of self esteem.

analyze others first you lazy fuck

Nobody else did rolls eyes

being bitten

Just thought about this for a second and yeah, this does seem pretty hot desu. Thanks for introducing me to a kink I didn't even know I had.

well they're fetishes? of course the idea of all of them turns me on and some I would definitely want to happen. i mean ive asked every partner ive been with to hit me, i get nervous/excited/butterflies when im alone with someone who could easily overpower me, i get nervous/excited/butterflies when someone around me is holding a knife, i like when people who are stronger than me choke me, i like being tied up, being drugged is something i fantasize about a lot, ive also looked into total power exchange d/s relationships for the sex slave cnc stuff but it wouldnt work with my life getting in the way. any other questions?

ikr lets make out now:3

Sounds similar to me, idk but there's just something hot about someone who scares me.

Repressed homo (top) idealizing a situation where gay sex is based and not sinful

Repressed homo or tranny who played too many MMORPGS probably WoW

it's extra kinky to do this with islam

timestamped abs, now

Woops I meant that last one for

Being beaten, strangled, cut/cutting others, putting cigarettes out on someone's skin

noto op but i playu tank in wow because id esrve to geth e asbsolute shit beaten outj of me

Drop ur disc and I’ll share. Last time I posted my bod on this board it didn’t go away for a loooong time.

And yes it’s kinky as fuck. Too bad all the fags I’ve met shy away from ir.

I had an ex who didn’t realize how strong I really was. I train for strength and not for size, so when she tried wriggling around and I held her in place with a single hand she got real silent real quick. I studied physical therapy for quite some time so I know all about how to toy with the human body and push it to the extreme. I’d make you squeal.

It’s not sinful :)

Wow this is hot. Would you pin me down and tickle me until I can’t take it, until I’m wriggling and begging senselessly, breathless, exhausted

why does everyone always tell me this i dont have bpd or unresolved trauma :(
i fucking love religious play its such an unexplored fetish, but i can see why because it seems the three of us all have different ideas of what it would be.
for me its tons of things to do with the ever fetish inspiring catholic church. like in a denial and repression and submissive servitude kind of way. but also i want to be punished by a religious man for being a tranny. like cropped or whipped by a religious figure would be nice but fists of divine judgment from just a middle age catholic man is really what i need, bonus if its because he found me attractive and especially if its because he fell in love with me. i want to see tears in his eyes as his hands are wrapped around my throat. fuck that gets me horny.

god why do i have this horrible sneaking suspicion that i'm talking to snake?

brother/brother incest
dubcon or softer noncon (gentle coercion, blackmail, under the influence, etc.)
sph
ageplay
anal gaping/large insertion
frotting
degradation/humiliation

watching a man be weak and pathetic and humiliated and helpless. like in the machinist.
but not like fucking him or anything lmao.

lol. Sure but I wouldn’t be aroused, I’d just find you very pathetic

I remember seeing this video of a woman masturbating in an actual church and I thought wow that’s hot. I’d love to engage in religious play regardless of the religion. Especially that last bit. I’d love to see my strong hands wrap around your frail, weak neck. I hope I don’t accidentally press too hard.

I heard that name before, is it true he raped that arabianilliad person? Pretty shit tier person. But nah, that ain’t me. I ain’t even white.

getting raped
getting collared and leashed
misogyny
big bro (i have an irl brother who i find repulsive.)
getting hatefucked
getting tied up
getting kidnapped
being pet and taken care of
praise. HUGE fucking praise kink.
degradation, only sometimes
gettin my hair pulled
gags and blindfolds
hypnosis
being a brat
getting treated like a puppy
i love dominant twinks
or just guys on the leaner side being dominant
getting drugged and fucked
i call women mommy and men daddy

futa amazon goddess surrounded with endless harem of femboys
futa amazon or curvy goddess who is dating and worshipped by someone like tomoko from watamote perverted sexually aggressive not super feminine but still a girl but she is a little gremlin

Unloved and previously abused by older male figure

Abused by father, now you enjoy watching the tables turned

abuse again

raised religiously

explain how this is related to these fetishes and should i do something about them

I’d love to see my strong hands wrap around your frail, weak neck. I hope I don’t accidentally press too hard.

your words hold so much power i almost passed out reading them. my anemia could not take how flustered this made me

hah fuck now im blushing too i forgot to mention choking oops

was actually not abused as a kid unless you count having to do my family's bureaucratic paperwork when I was younger and my mom being histrionic

futa kemonomimi who is pet like in a relationship with a man and sometimes top him and love him alot
futa demoness who is actually a healer
being a cis girl who is a kemonomimi

Bloodplay
Knifeplay
CNC
Abuse(slapping, hitting, choking. berating, burns, etc)
Hot wax
Rope/bindings

I think you get the idea

T. Boymoder

kemonomimi futa who is so reliant on a her bf/ husband

jacking off into a glass of water and then drinking it

used to do that because i believed i was drinking my life essence or chi

i have the exact same fetish but for a repressor cis catholic lesbian. her being so disgusted that she's attracted to anything less of a proper man and realizing how sinful it is that she'll never be truly happy as a wife in a straight marriage. she'll either have to leave her whole life behind and confront her actual desires or secretly lust after other women and trannies forever while stuck with a man she'll never love. and so she beats me as hard as she can with her rosary swinging above me and cries and leaves.

this will never happen because cis lesbians are not attracted to trans women

Give in to them you faggot.

I love anemic frail little girls. It’s so adorable. I want to feel my strong hands wrap around your throat. I want to feel your pathetic weak pale fingers desperately try to loosen my grip to no avail. I want to see the pure fear in your eyes when you realize that your body is no longer under your own control. I could do any. Thing. To you. And there’s nothing you can do to stop it.

I know how it is. My ex loved my strong veiny hands. I loved to bully her. It worked out.

being a femboy who is abused in femdom style and wants to free other femboys from tyrannical domme women

loved my strong veiny hands.

OH MY GOD I LOVE MASCULINE HANDS

i like really fat guys, like over 300 pounds. i want them in me and on top of me. i also like being bound

how i am not a female

that would make sense, but my dad is not abusive and i actually get on with him better than my mom.
Best explanation i can come up with is that i had to cope with a totally repressed sexuality and i couldn't really see myself as a woman with a woman so i self insert as a man with a woman. you can see from all the art i consumed and created, it was very male pov. Anyway my sense of self was dragged through the mud so i project it either onto my masculine persona or onto straight men who had what i couldn't.

jesus christ i just read the message you gave to the other anon holy fuck i need a man like you

anyway i need a guy to abuse who won't want me sexually

why are you doing this to me anon, nobodys made me this flustered in months...i had to calm myself down.

All of the problems presented ITT could be fixed with industrial scale gas chambers. There’s no fixing this shit. Burn it to the ground and start over.

I'm into that too

shota. and no, i was not abused as a child

You want a brother who abuses yet simultaneously protects you from insane females bearing down on you.

how this is related to these fetishes

Your fetishes seem to share a theme of corruption either physical or moral, so I guess you get relief of imagining a debauched world free of your religious or moralistic upbringing.

should I do something about them

Repent

Auyogynephilia

Why does everyone tell me I have unresolved trauma?

Posts very specific fetish about the catholic church. Describes religious figures whipping her and religious men punishing her with beatings for her existence and their feelings

It’s like poetry.
I really love you girls sometimes you’re so retarded it’s endearing.

They all do.

Either you’re me or you’re my bitch. And since you clearly ain’t me, you can take a wild guess as to what you are.

I’m right here, but I’m a bit picky. Don’t wanna waste my time with stragglers who aren’t good enough.

I guess I can be a bit too much. If you can barely handle this imagine having to sleep in my bed each night. You’d be a drooling, moaning mess

jesus dominance is so fucking hot why is it so hot getting talked down to like this i dont get it

Prolly cause ur body knows ur a submissive little weak slut. I know that for a fact lol

Anyways I gotta go to sleep. If yall drop ur disc I might add it. Goodnight

Guys interchangeably referring to me as a pretty fag but still using she/her or using he/him but calling me a girl

i can get pretty overwhelmed fairly easily. ive always been more gentle and delicate making people get softer around me. i do wonder if my extreme fetishes are a coping mechanism for that. because it makes all those things im scared of or cant handle exciting and enjoyable. dont worry youre not too much...theres almost no such thing as too much with me. i have had problems with guys before where ill shut my eyes or make too much noise or start to hyperventilate or begin to pass out and it spoils the mood for them, because theyll get worried and start to coddle me, i guess i was the one who was too much for them. but im not that fragile... I wish i could find someone who can handle me. who can shut me properly or make me do what they want without just using their words, if im starting to hyperventilate stuff my head into a pillow, if i close my eyes or begin to pass out slap me until i open them or my consciousness comes back, and if i make too much noise theres always something my mouth could be filled with, but cutting off my air supply works even better.

oh yeah one time i was like that my skin is super sensitive so i always moan and whimper at the slightest touch anyway someone was touching my chest and i started fucking lactating and it was incredibly fucking embarassing?? I DIDNT EVEN KNOW WE COULD DO THAT?? i mean no milk came out it was basically just water but still

anyway youre a total bottom im a total bottom too but im a brat at least i fight back a little before giving in and realizing im way too weak and no wait please

i'll do you one better, i'll list them all

the main one is extreme masochism (most of them can just be classed under this desu)

but also cuckquean, rape, petplay, feet, armpits, specifically oral (oral is like so fucking peak), hypnosis/mind control (alot less than alot of other things desu its hotter to imagine being present and actively non consenting rather than being forced into it and have your perception altered but it can be based if youre forced to agree while not wanting to or like remembering it after its worn off (memory manipulation also goes hard), bondage, lots of other stuff lmao idk im just a big masochist

oh also like incest and men old enough to be my dad, forgot to include those (im kinda high rn oopsie)

Thought on it for a bit and I'm also pretty into extreme insertion and people having their assholes blown out by large dicks or dildos. Just felt a bit embarrassed to admit to.

also yeah extreme masochism includes being like just beaten the fuck out of with bones broken and also just being murdered

its both sexual and non sexual but only in certain ways/moods

when im horny i wanna be destroyed cus its hot

when im not i either wanna be used and abused just cus i deserve it and its the only way i can like benefit someone cus im useless and cant do anything to myself so having to not actively do anything and just let them use me without stopping them would be nice

but then sometimes i just want a hug lmao

I wanna fuck a dominant older bottom with a bigger cock while licking his feet as he teases me and goads me into fucking him harder to prove my masculinity to him.

i only grew up with one parent

wishing you could have walked in on your parents as a kid. feeling unloved and uncared for and internalizing this deeply, so in order to deal with the feelings of loneliness, your mind sexualized your feelings of unworthiness and unlovableness, thus watching your partner with another turns you on. it allows you to not only turn these feelings into something less painful, but also gives you a controlled space where you can feel them without them controlling you.

the thought of being a weaker, lesser male turns you on because it's humiliating, but also the idea of being a weak, submissive girl. you probably internally associate femininity with weakness and find it freeing to give up on trying to be masculine to embrace the submission of being feminine. this is probably as significant of a cause for your transition as dysphoria was, if you have any.

this is probably as significant of a cause for your transition as dysphoria was

SHHHH SHHH
shut the fuck up oh my god shut the fuck up. seriously. shut the fuck up.

would have to know more background details to come to a conclusion, but:

if you self insert as the shota

wanting to go back to simpler times, wishing you could have been cared for more as a kid, liking the idea of being youthful and getting attention. if you're ftm, def wanting to have had a boyhood + wanting to get harPOONed

if you self insert as the pedophile

I'm guessing something about the idea of being a mentor to a young boy appeals to you. I'm also guessing that the inexperience, naivety and immaturity of young boys is something you find appealing.

sticky traps
also cum baths

;) it seems like being degraded like this during sex helps you deal with the shame over it, as well, because it's 'just a sex thing' and also allows you to have some control over how you confront these feelings. it's probably even more of a turn on to be called a weak, submissive little fag by a stronger man because not only does it allow you to confront the exact kind of masculine man that made you feel insecure and inadequate when you lived as a boy, but the thrill of the humiliation of revealing this deep, dark secret of yours is freeing, in itself, and to that exact archetype that you were once compared to that made you feel so weak to begin with, too.

nta, but I think you're misunderstanding. masculinity is like a straight jacket to a transgirl and a common thing that occurs during oppression/repression is that a release is found through sexuality. this was my experience. I couldn't date the people I wanted (men), I couldn't be feminine without being bullied, and this came along with the body horror of masculinizing. it's like a leaky dam, you plug one hole and the pressure will cause a leak somewhere else.

sticky traps

giving up control is freeing to you because it relieves stress. maybe you can't give up your responsibilities irl because you feel too obligated to keep attending to them, so the idea of it being forcibly taken from you puts you in a similar state of excitement, anxiety and arousal, but also a state of relief because there's nothing you can do and won't be going back to having to be autonomous, no matter what, because you can't move.

cum baths

idk depends on the specifics. if you wanna get bukaked, perhaps it's the messiness, perhaps it's the idea of being marked or degraded.

my biggest (impossible) fetish is kind of embarrassing and retarded but its being immortal but getting tortured for hundreds or thousands of years
ideally not by a person, preferably by like machines or magic or something
the idea of somebody choosing to do that to me once for their own brief amusement and me suffering for it for years and years and years is so fucking hot

Wow that's really hot anon. I have fantasies like that but where I'm the dom, and subject people to things like bound naked unendurable relentless tickling, or hot fires, branding, etc. like maybe I'd become some kind of machine and do that. or a demon in hell..

the original psychoanalyzer here. i don't think she misunderstood me. at least, i interpreted her reply to me as not wanting to be confronted with an uncomfortable truth. i do agree that sexuality is often a route for humans to grapple with complexes and other difficult emotions and that there should be no shame in this because it's very common and we're all messy. that said, while i think it's definitely common for trans girls in particular to cope in the way you're talking about, i do think that it's about time that people stop pretending that the possible motivations for transitioning are either good and pure (i.e. 'i always knew', hsts, etc) or dirty and perverted (i.e. mef, agp, sissies, etc). the motivations are different, but they're all messy, just like all humans are, so there's no point in feeling shame over it. I just get a thrill out of teasing flustered, ashamed little playthings like that anon. ;)

you two should make the next 'person goes to jail for killing consenting partner with fetish that could kill them' headline

i was the girl who told you to shut up and well...i wont speak for the anon you were talking to before because i wasnt her, i'm sure this detailed message you left will get her going tho.
but anyways there was something in that line that resonated with me. however i feel like i was a never-man-enough failed mail *because* of my dysphoria. I was girly when i was really little, then i was forced into a masc role in a world that wasnt for me. i was always super uncomfortable with my body and how it changed as puberty progressed i became the peak male to compensate. i dont say it with pride but i mean multisport competitive athlete popular attractive and yet i always felt like i was faking it, and for some reason no matter how good my body looked it was always wrong, my proportions were always off. any time thoughts of being fem came into my head id cope by making it turn me on, through fetishes that made me feel disgusting, gay, weak, not a man enough, because i never really felt like i knew how to be a man, id watch videos and practice mannerisms trying to be something i wasnt, but because i grew up conservative it was what i had to be. i was the perfect son. and at the same time "the thought of being a weaker, lesser male turns you on because it's humiliating, but also the idea of being a weak, submissive girl. you probably internally associate femininity with weakness and find it freeing to give up on trying to be masculine to embrace the submission of being feminine" was the only way my brain could cope with being forced to be a masculine male. which really fucked me up until i learned what trans people were and that i had dysphoria the whole time.
so in a way when i transitioned because of the dysphoria, it was hard not to associate some of the reason to sex. which to this day makes me feel a deep shame

ntas but im really scared someones going to accidentally kill me one day through kinky sex and itll ruin their life

i gotcha, anon. for what it's worth, as much as i like to tease girls like yourself, i think that's a very understandable chain of events and way of feeling for a transgirl. you have my sympathies because it's a precarious type of situation to be in to have internalized that and still struggle with those feelings, amongst others, years later and the brainwormed insanity on this board, i'd imagine, doesn't make that any easier. nothing about sexuality when you're trans seems easy to navigate.

you're right. personally, I lost the shame, but your description of being bullied by a strong man gives me butterflies in my stomach still.

...what do you get up to on the reg that this is even a possibility, anon??

glad you got past the shame and hope you're in a good place with yourself now but also hehehe. idk why i enjoy teasing transgirls so much, i'm gay and not into chicks at all. i guess because the kinda things that get subby transgirls so hot and bothered are so easy for me to read. something about is titillating and vaguely arousing in a mischievous, but non-malicious kind of way.

well maybe it's because we were/are so closeted, lots of us passed as straight cis males before transition, but we are in fact obligate bottoms and it's fun and easy to make us squirm.

by biggest concerns for ruining someones life with a manslaughter charge are strangulations and beatings leading to an accident. but theres also the risk of ruining their life mentally by my body just giving out and dying during sex. im on the low end of healthy bmi but im anything but healthy. i only eat junk food, fast food, ramen and frozen food. ill pass out like once a week from just standing up too fast and if i dont lose consciousness i come close. i often just feel like im dying and ive already had a heart attack scare. at least im hot and can get laid even with this lifestyle...but still

RIGHT its so fucked up that i cant have someone consensually murder me
maid isnt enough i want somebody to stab me and have me bleed out in their arms

this is so hot
maybe in another world it would be possible....

cnc force femming a man really into the idea of them being alpha

at this point I just want a strong guy to hold me up against the wall and fuck me crosseyed.

The idea of eternal suffering is really scary and really exciting... being naked and tortured and not being able to do anything about it. You can't endure it - psychologically it's not possible for you to take any more of it - but you have no choice. It's going to keep happening. Whoever or whatever is doing this wants you to feel this sensation. For a long time. And they have complete control.

hot hot hot hot hot
why cant this happen to me

This girl in this webm (I think) wrote about doing a consensual non-consent tickle torture session with the guy who made the video and the crazy psychology of not being able to stop the tickling, and liking it at first, but then becoming annoyed, then enraged, then desperate, then screaming and begging and shit, then hopeless and submitting to it

oh my god that is so hot...i really need to have someone do this to me...

although...this did unlock a few memories of how my mother would tickle me...and id go through those stages, telling her to stop the whole time...until i got to the screaming and begging in desperation stage, and my dad had to stop her a few times because for some reason she couldnt sense my obvious and real distress...so now im thinking of my mom in relation to something i found arousing, and im kind of feeling a little sick...and now ykw, never mind i kinda dont want to do it anymore...

That's a good boy

I’m sorry to have reawakened that memory in you anon, that sucks. I’m sorry that happened to you as a kid. When I’m struggling with intrusive thoughts I just let myself experience the thought and the unpleasant emotion and let it sort of sit in my mind for a bit, and I analyse the physical sensations, and kind of break them down, until they don’t even feel like an intrusive thought any more. It’s really helped. I used to try and push them out of my mind but it just makes them more intense. Now I barely get intrusive thoughts like that anymore.

I want to get beaten up, mistreated and force-fed by a handsome man i would trust my life to.

no no dont apologize! thank you, really, but its not like a trauma or anything im fine. the sickness was just about think about a family member in relation to a fetish. im okay i dont need to cope with anything its not an intrusive thought, it doesnt even bother me im okay.