Straight m*n forced to transition

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Straight m*n forced to transition

I'm wondering if I'm the only one this happened to:

be autistic straight male

can't approach women

cope with high sex drive by masturbating to pictures of women.

become completely starved for attention, touch, sex, and romance

finally break, decide to have sex with men to alleviate the crushing loneliness.

find out that having sex with men is ridiculously easy, begin to rack up body count.

begin taking estrogen to increase appeal to men.

get orchiectomy (castration)

body is so used to receiving male penetration that automatically think of men while aroused.

still attracted to women despite severe erectile dysfunction/castration.

have only had relationships with men.

mfw every time I see a hot woman I am reminded of the fact that I made myself into a bitch because I couldn't approach women.

feel like I've been totally dominated by women and forced to literally become one of them.

Am I the only one??

forced

u literally did it to yourself lol
pls kys

This is literally just the standard plot of a sissy caption

kys

Can you explain why this concept makes you so mad though?

I mean, I haven't really looked at many sissy captions but aren't most of those centered on the concept of like, the male reader is in like a BDSM themed heterosexual relationship with his wife or girlfriend? I was never even close to being in a relationship with a woman.

The worst part of it is, my sexuality has literally changed but my attraction to women still persists.

I see attractive women like picrel and I get aroused but I can no longer imagine having sex with women at all because I can't function sexually like a male. So I just feel a sense of frustration and submissive arousal. I feel like women literally destroyed, emasculated and enslaved me and demanded i offer up my masculinity to other men as a sacrifice.

I can't function sexually like a male

I think this describes me.
Had only one relationship with a woman my life and sex was a disaster. I am attracted to women so much but penetrating one as a man seems impossible.

You know you can be penetrated by women, right?

Maybe, but they don't want to.

In theory yes. In practice this isn't really as easy as it sounds. Often times trans woman will pretend they are dominant tops but they actually hate topping. They will disassociate and then soon be telling you they're "actually asexual now."

As for cis women topping, they might top a healthy cis male they're in an LTR with to get the faggy urges out of his system and as a "reward" for the man sticking in the relationship with them.

And then you theoretically have the extremely rare cis f chaser top who is willing to consistently top a trans f partner in the relationship.

But the fact is, women usually just aren't very inspiring in the dominant role. The fact is that for many male subs and would be trans lesbians, the dominant female is a fantasy. There aren't many women like this and temperamental and physically women aren't really suited for it. The fact is, most women will unconsciously see a partner as less worthy for needing to be dominated and this will slowly take a long term toll on the relationship. Even the most progressive woman will slowly become frustrated and lose respect for a partner who she is always expected to dominate. I have seen many of these couples succumb to polyamory and have seen trans women struggle with bottom dysphoria In a relationship with a cis womab where they want to get SRS but their cis F partner continues to insist on a quota of reciprocal topping from the partner who doesn't want to. It's just an inherently unstable arrangement.

So yes you CAN keep looking for your lesbian needle in a haystack. But the safer and more practical option is to find a husband.

That is so fucked up and sick i don't even

gay men pressured, but not outright forced to transition

I get this response a lot. And I'm not even going into actual details here, just giving a summary. The actual details of how I altered my sexuality and what lead me down that road would melt the brains of most dwellers of this board and I struggle with how much I should reveal. I come here because this anonymous board is literally the only place in the universe I can reveal these truths.

I am fairly happy now and my life is going well, but the road to get here was hellish. I was mercilessly fag bullied as a child. Only girls would befriend me, and little by little I got psychologically forcefemmed by peer group pressure. I tried to recover from this in college and become a gym elementary, but I was already so behaviorally homosexual by then that it was useless. Only men would be interested in me or ask me out. After years of being KHHV I just gave in. Once I realized how awful it was to actually be a gay bottom who was secretly still attracted to women I had to transition to stay sane.

who was secretly still attracted to women

Are you sure about that

Based and thank you for the tl,dr

I honestly don't know. It's been so long since I actually had sexual fantasies involving women.

When I was in my teens and early 20s women would arouse feelings that were 1/2 envy and jealousy and 1/2 just simmering desire to stick my dick in them.

Over time, as I hadn't zero luck with women and it eas clear I could throw in the towell and date men I began to have more and more fantasies about men.

But after I lost my virginity to a man it definitely changed things, I didn't expect to like it as much as I did. The idea of having sex with a woman just seemed foreign and remote. I thought about it less and less until one day I realized that I couldn't really have sexual thoughts about women at all. I didn't think about women at all, only analyzing makeup, shoes, clothes, hair, outfits, and how she employed her natural charm. When I became aroused I automatically thought of men. Like, "boobs" just weren't a sexual object for my brain anymore, they were at most an ornament or a thing to fill out clothes and costumes over.

But I feel I still have a straight man's visual attraction to women. I notice hot women, my eyes automatically run over them, I get excited about the presence of a hot woman. I feel like a truly straight woman would be totally neutral and placid around other females. I still feel in some sense like a teen boy face to face with his crush. It kind of hurts a bit because I will never have that future in which the teen boy hero gets the girl. I will only be the wife to my future husband

Why do so many people respond with anger and dimissiveness. Why are atypical experiences thoughts and feelings always swept under the rug? If you keep doing this it just leads to these cycles repeating themselves.

LOL faggot

Insecure much? Seems you're afraid of experiences that upset some narrative you want to maintain.

I wonder if I am like you: If I can't be with women as a man, maybe it's because I am supposed to be with men as a woman. I do have some meta-attraction to them, but I am confused.

I think some of the signs (based in what others have told me) are:

(1) Not communicating well with female. Partner, constantly wanting "alone time" not really enjoying being with her.

(2) visceral disgust about prnetrating as a male, difficulty maintaining arousal.

For me there was a decisive moment where resistance and depression turned into resignation, acceptance, and determination to embrace my new role.

I had to accept that living my life to do what was expected of me just wasn't working for me, and I had to accept that I just wasn't going to fit into the traditional LGBT narrative of a trans woman or a gay male. I used to view my brain as diseased, but when it didn't change or recover i eventually had to seen it as unique instead.

Fuck, both of your points describe my relationship. I can still remember how going to meet her felt like commuting to a job you hate. And when we tried to have sex, I couldn't get hard and didn't really want to put it in her. Like I was very excited when we were doing foreplay, but the moment it started progressing further, I kept failing to perform. I always thought it was just nerves of being a virgin, but I am afraid it's deeper now. This is bad.

Well it's up to you how you interpret this. It could be normal straight dude performance anxiety, or it could be something deeper. My advice here would be to follow what your heart and what you "want" to be true, what you truly want, not what society wants or what is most convenient.

For me, I had known in the back of my mind that I was going to troon out and be with men. It was always a barely suppressed fantasy, i was always "battling" against it. I would have crushes on women in my friend group. But usually when I would get aroused I would fantasize about bottoming for men. A a "split" developed where i felt like a straight boyfriend by day, but a trans girl by night. When I was young, I had an overwhelming desire to repress the gay shit because I was taught it was wrong. I regret that now, I wishing had better education and role models. I wish that health class taught about LGBT topics.

*boy not boyfriend.

It's even worse, because if I imagine looking like a woman, having nice long hair, breasts and being on HRT, and being fucked instead of having to fuck, I get so intensely aroused, I can't even think straight. I feel like I have to repress this but at the same time I crave it.

well if you have those feelings that strongly that definitely sounds like repression isn't going to go anywhere. You're describing what sounds like a strong desire to experience sex in a feminine and submissive role.

If it makes you feel better, if you transition and switch to dating men you won't feel weird and perverted about things like female clothes or behaviors, you wont be randomly getting boners from things like leg shaving, you'll get used to everything and get to enjoy a very normal life. You also won't have those weird internal fantasies about being a woman that you have to repress. It's a very blessed relief to get to have the life of a normal woman post transition, what i feel on the inside is reflected on the outside.

Of course I always feel a bit strange when I see pretty women and feel a little bit of attraction to them. I don't regret anything but it is interesting to me that I get some weird thrill out of seeing a pretty woman and knowing that I will never be able to have that.

I think it's definitely my strongest desire. I am still on nofap currently, so it could be amplified, but I have felt it before, mostly tried to avoid. But it's very conflicting situation to be in. I could
- stay celibate as I am now, which makes me lonely and depressed
- try to force myself into straight man's role, have another shot at a relationship with a woman, whatever it takes, masturbate to only cishet stuff
- transition which is the most desirable yet so scary, even impossible

It's a very blessed relief to get to have the life of a normal woman post transition

How complicated it was to get there?

what age

And this what happens when AGP falls into the tranny groomers.

What else should happen? How should one live with AGP?

Why are males like this. I've always been a little gay. I like feminine men and twinkhons. I've been like thus as long as I can imagine. What's the point in pretending you were 100% het until you were sexually mindbroken? It's just a fetish, right?

Same but I didn't have sex with men.... You gay, nigga

As for cis women topping, they might top a healthy cis male they're in an LTR with to get the faggy urges out of his system and as a "reward" for the man sticking in the relationship with them.

Pretty sure this is the main reason, but women sexuality is very very flexible.
My wife started to peg me on her on.
For our anniversary she got pic related.
I'm glad and luck I struck gold with her.
I guess she realized sex and love can be two different things, and in return I most do her thing, which is really demanding cunnilingus.

Be in touch with feminine side.
Realize this is body dysphoria and not gender dysphoria.
Start improving yourself, don't feel guilty for liking pleasure that you somehow associated that only women should feel.

larp
cis male would be suicidal on hrt. you never was a man.

Realize this is body dysphoria and not gender dysphoria.

How is it not gender dysphoria?

Well, first stop listing to "their" agenda.
Second, ask yourself would being born a girl in the first place would magically fix your problems?
Third, Realize your current body and not gender is what make you unsatisfied.
Improve thy self

Realize your current body and not gender is what make you unsatisfied.

How do you explain bodybuilders with great bodies who still troon out?

Great bodies doesn't mean great psychological health.
It's the same as those that think lifting would help them getting out of depression.
And then there are those that repress their AGP with lifting.
Which just recipe for imploding later on.

Your posts always make me hard, thinking about ripping off your clothes, fucking you and cumming all over your face in front of a girl you like and letting her see you pop a pathetic little boner while I do it

Hot

i wonder if there would be less trannies if cis women liked submissive feminine men

Sure. It's the exact incompatibility that causes it.

just for the sake of knowledge, the curiosity that kills me, I HAVE to know at least a sketch of what you did on your individual time, or how you sought out social situations that psychologically feminized you, and if you did anything to physically feminize yourself in addition to the HRT and orchi... I NEED THIS KNOWLEDGE FOR MY DATABASES!! my conflicting desires require information

I don't really get your point with these posts. Why the hell would i or anyone else want to wear a female bodysuit? The idea of doing that and not just taking HRT sounds awful

The idea is separation of what you want from what you currently have

I truly believe that In an earlier age I would have been a warrior and a conqueror. Instead I was molded into a submissive plaything, a partner for men who are more fit for the current times. I just think this process is interesting and I can't stop marveling at it.

I'm very happy you found a woman who could satisfy you, but the fact is, bottoming for a woman would never truly satisfy me. I was told my whole life that I was gay and submissive, in the end I felt i needed to give in to the real thing.

how complicated was it to get to get to where you are now?

For me it took about five years after I accepted that I needed to change things. I started with a year of solo experimentation, acclimating my body to penetration before I hooked up with a guy. I hooked up with guys infrequently at first, I was still trying to live as a gay male. Then I started getting into online long distance dating and pretending to be a girl in text and voice chat. That's when I unlocked deeper emotions for the men I was e dating. I realized that I would need to change my gender. After I started HRT it took a bit over a year to start passing. I had to replace all my clothes, come put to family, learn makeup and develop new routines, get a hair transplant and eventually FFS.

To protect my identity I'd rather not say but this took place during my late 20s.

I don't want the life of the crossdressing Japanese salaryman or the submissive man whose wife pegs him with a strap on though. Perhaps some could be. But I am the kind of person who needs to go all the way with whatever I pursue.

I am in my late 20s. You give me a lot to think about. What is your endgame? Settling down, a relationship?

I feel a bit weird sharing my exact methods since I feel it was an unusual situational I don't want to ruffle too many feathers but if you drop a discord I'll talk to you and go into more detail.

That is my goal. I'm with someone in an LTR currently and I love him but it's still fairly early i don't know if it will stand the test of time.

I'd like to talk on discord, if you want.
alex_xxxi

I remember you from my last thread. I won't deny that one of the things I love most is the arrogant smirk of men who claim me, having no choice but to submit completely to them. Since I've been snipped, I'm locked into this fate now.

Being humiliated in front of women i used to crush on and seeing them laugh, being turned on by watching me be humbled is also something I've fantasized about. But by now just wonder if those women would even recognize me. I've been told i look and sound completely different.

Bro you make this thread every day

No i don't. Only once or twice a month.

Once I have gathered all the information I can about myself i will stop.

Yeah, you're too far deep in "their" psyop
If you're so into it, then are you willing to get SRS?

weak men created by easy times, psyops, wokeism.

I was told my whole life that I was gay and submissive

Told?
and let people tell you what to do?
That's not submission, that's slavery.

kys luckshit

My SRS is scheduled to happen soon.

"their" psyop

Eh? Some dark political conspiracy that we're part of but can't see? It seems rather cliché. I prefer to just look at what's in front of me. If you are right then, I honestly have no issue being "selected" for this role. I always wanted something beyond the life that was laid out for me. This isoath I'm on is my fate and I won't fight it.

never interact with women

feel forced by women to transition

you could’ve just interacted with women at any time?

Peak MEF right here.
Get better women, I bet she was fatty.
This is obviously sexual dysphoria.
My ex gf described this how she felt when we tried to have sex.

I was going to troon out and be with men.

Doesn't this make HSTS?

you won't feel weird and perverted about things like female clothes or behaviors, you wont be randomly getting boners from things like leg shaving, you'll get used to everything and get to enjoy a very normal life

YMMV

nofap

dangerous game you play my friend.

get a hair transplant and eventually FFS

So many agp died that way.
I hope you all good anonette.
Why frame it like that?
You sound like you have deeply seated insecurities.
Get therapy.

avarantio50 , and I wouldn't feel at all weird hearing your exact methods

My SRS is scheduled to happen soon.

I hope it goes well for you.

It seems rather cliché

It's hard to make people believe they've been tricked.
After all no one wants to acknowledge they're tricked.
Back when Pokemon go launched, many people said it's a three letter agency hidden project for spying, later it turns out it was the truth.
Same here.

You sound like you've been groomed into it anon.

sexual dysphoria.

Can you elaborate?

nofap

dangerous game you play my friend

What do you mean? I needed a break.

Reading this as a trans man is infuriating. I feel for mtfs as fellow dysphoria sufferers, but you literally gave up being a man just because you’re a too much of a loser to talk to women.

died in surgery

Er, i don't think that's common for healthy people.

get therapy.

I have a therapist. I am too shy to tell her this shit lol. I have an image to maintain! That's why I come here.

Anon wrote this with one hand

slavery

Yes I view myself as a servant of "the goddess" or something. I have been shackled by women and forced to do their bidding. An elegant pet with a gilded collar :3

groomed into it

Yes, by women, and society at large. Autistic hypersexual males are perfect candidates for feminization.

... sorry bro -_- less competition for you though, amirite? ; )

In all seriousness, I personally think grooming and conspiracy theories are a bit smooth brain. The way I see it is we are all free agents entitled to come to our own conclusions and make our own choices.

It's easy to say "she was groomed!" But is such a thing really possible or is it just free choice at work?

This is the cost of ignoring your inner bisexuality

You either pound tranny butthole,
become a troon,
or do both

I tried to add you but it didn't work. Did you spell it correctly?

Girls literally keep ramping up the difficulty by a factor of 1.7 every 5 years

... Hot. I'm saving this to masturbate to later

You did it yourself. Stfu anon

I have a therapist. I am too shy to tell her this shit lol. I have an image to maintain! That's why I come here.

I don't know what to tell you.

reddit spacing

Why am I not surprised?

Because people like this (if it's even a real story) are constantly used to attack trans people. While in this story the dude did it to himself

Oh come on that's such a dumb criticism it's been years since I even went on reddit. I'm on mobile and I don't like looking at an whole screen of unbroken text.

Attack how? OP isn't blaming trans people for their fate.

Oh come on that's such a dumb criticism

Muscle memory don't lie anon.
And dyslexia ain't an excuse, reddit groomer.

whole screen of unbroken text.

Lies, Anon Babble js insert <wbr> to posts when you're on phone to break text.

Isn't that what you're doing now? Like misgendering and stuff? I AM trans people i have to live life as a trans person and weather those attacks. My experience with sexuality is unconvetional but I have to discuss it. I don't have any problem with people trying to point out that i did it to myself, but I don't like the narrative policing and optics stuff. That stuff is just creating hons because people get it into their heads at a very young age that if they weren't wearing dresses at age 5 they should repress.

all those hysterical attacks are awful but self censoring in response to that seems counter productive.

post pic op. i don't believe u aren't just a delulu emily tier hon

If you drop a discord I'll talk to you and show pics and share whatever info you like if you're curious. I can't post face or unsee here. I'd get too exposed.

to who?

I can't answer that here but there's certain reaons reason I post here anonymously.

_throwaway11_

oh shoot, my tag is just avarantio, without the 50, whoops...

this is such a weird psyop.

It's real

based

what information about yourself are you looking to gather? how is it that personal contact in these threads helps you discover that information?

What do I do if I function very well with women and have a lot of attention from them and a very active sex life with them....and still like to put on panties and get fucked by men?

Nothing, you're just bisexual

Hi I would also like to know about your methods. Discord tag is desuarchive

ok phew...

It could be way worse, you're lucky

Isn't the whole point of a therapist to have a no-holds-bars confidante? To be able to tell someone the secrets you'd hold to the grave, and it's literally their job to listen to you? Do you feel that you get a minor benefit from telling the therapist a censored version of your life, but dont' want to "risk" the established reputation by telling her the whole story? Do you feel that you censorship up until now was "dishonest", and therefore would be awkward to bring up "just now"?

I think what you need at some point in your life is an irl person who you can voice all of this to. Not as an immediate priority, but it's something you should give some thought on how to achieve.

making little paragraph breaks for different replies or different ideas usually makes things easier to read

do you seriously think it's good writing practice to have every single idea in one unbroken and jumbled stream-of-consciousness flow of text?

especially when replies are slow on the site, it's best to remove added "commute" time just from people asking for clarification (or worse, replying based on a mis or incomplete understanding of) other people's posts

most self confident Anon Babble poster

misgendering

We don't do that

I AM trans

No you're not, you're leddit groomer.

I don't have any problem with people trying to point out that i did it to myself

No, they don't have problem, what they have problem with is making it your whole personality.

That stuff is just creating hons because people get it into their heads at a very young age that if they weren't wearing dresses at age 5 they should repress

cherry picking

I feel lucky. a chadlet with a pretty face and a nice cock girls love and a cute little babyfaced bitch in panties for worthy men. best of both worlds.

why does the effect of an individual on the average means you need to get mad at the individual for being honest? would you rather that individual's unique experiences and truth be censored by angry, one-liner replies? isn't the whole point of a board like this for secret knowledge you can't get in irl interactions?

unsee get you exposed? and discord is not?
Unsee embed the viewer actual IP, so if it leaked it can be tracked, assuming it can be leaked.
Since the image is encrypted blob, that's not even downloaded, it's random bit decoded by js on the browser side.

Psyop intensifies

Nothing?
I do that, and have the best of both worlds.

jew stars

Not even bothering to hide it I see.

Damn you humble braggers, I am so jelly. I failed as straight man and would likely fail as the opposite too.

replies are slow on the site

kek, you just confirmed what he said about you.

If you're a failure then running away to be a woman when make you a winner.

Ameno

This is wild, I transitioned because as soon as I hit puberty I became ungodly ridiculously attracted to dykes and every cis alt girl I dated thought they were dating a man who was just really girly looking

What is this, like on the left the every-bug raider stereotype while on the right the god that 14 year old discord raiders pray to?

Well I've been trying. I have thought about this stuff a lot. But I feel the crushing weight of expectations. It's hard being trans, i don't want to shock the therapist or put them in a situation where they don't know what to say. Part of me thinks they'd just say "there's nothing wrong with that, you are what you are." This is something I am mulling over. For now I like to talk to others in the community who may have had similar experiences.