hi its me again im back nothing interesting really apart from still really confused about stuff (like sometimes i randomly like stop caring about my besties as much and i cant explain it? i think its like tiredness or like after other stuff where my brain is distracted but then it makes me feel like my love for them isnt real and also the thought of permanently not liking them anymore is honestly scary? but like i still get jealous over that one girl (hope she fucking dies) so it isnt gone completely i dont think but idk i dont understand anything. idk how i can go from literally hurting myself over them/over missing them/over my time with them being disrupted to just kinda being apathetic? like i've gone to hating them before but not just pure apathy idk.)
also funny story about that girl i kinda instinctively blocked her on twitter then she posted in the server like "hey why did you block me?" so that was fucking awkward had to be like "uhhhh idk? your account mustve seemed fishy for some reason haha" and had to pretend i didnt take pleasure in imagining her getting gored by a bull or thrown into a spiky pit or anything :3
but yeah its been uneventful, i did take a trip to london which has kinda fucked my sleep schedule (or made it more normal) and i'm trying to fix it again but its an annoying process, and also like i didnt fully have the money for it it was a very impulsive trip and then i spent like 120 quid on anime figures lmao i'm not the best with money. i really wanna go back lmao i love it i love the tube (i have had a big hyperfixation on the underground recently)
but yeah basically boring, how about yall? any interesting events? any fun drama? any cool plans? any tragic tales?