/repgen/ - repressor general, repper-ations edition

qott: did your life peak before puberty mutilated you?
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peaked before my penis was mutilated after birth

take your pills, retards

My life peaked at 16, so not exactly. Puberty was more like 13 for me. Although I didn't get much facial hair when I was 16. I'd like it if I didn't grow facial hair but I'm not willing to get laser hair removal unless it's an at home device, and all the at home devices suck.

Thinking about if I should transition or not has been consuming my entire life

qott

Yes my life peaked HARD at 9 or so, then at 12-14 I was uglier with less opportunities but had a truly amazing friendship with some classmates.
puberty hit me at 14 and it’s been a solid nosedive ever since

i think i was happy as a very young kid (i dont remember) but as soon as i got into school i was pretty unhappy and traumatised and have stayed that way ever since :))

I peaked at like 17 when my few friend groups in high school merged together and I had lots of friends and didnt worry about life and was a skinny young twink
Life quality dropped hard from there and hasnt recovered
I'm 32 now

For me before puberty, I had a very tiny desire to have some female attributes. Such as, the want to do gymnastics and have one of those girly leotards, or long hair and wearing girls clothes. I very rarely wore a skirt or dress privately but I very much enjoyed it. I was still happy to be a boy and didn’t think much of it though. At this point in my life, I wouldn’t look at other girls and my first thought is, I love their hair or the way they look, I wish I could be like that. Then I realise that’s not going to happen. (I didn’t have that feeling at all before puberty)

For me, puberty really did make these feelings go to a level that has caused me to contemplate transitioning. I’d say my changing voice has made me insecure. I have always been quiet, but I do think I have gotten more quiet and shy. Growing facial hair also sucks but it’s generally okay if I shave it. Same with body hair but it’s kinda awkward to shave it as a boy when it’s summer time.

I do miss the time when dysphoria didn’t affect me and I know this will always be the case until I transition (although, more realistically if I transition).

But for me, I am grateful that I have got a lot of things to live for and aim for still in my life that I care about. The desire to be a woman will always be there but I hope my having other goals in life and hopefully achieving them will satisfy me enough to not commit suicide.

So really has life got worse after puberty?

Yes, my life did peak before puberty, because before puberty I felt like myself.

But now, how I present myself is more of like an act.

me

34

tall, hair everywhere, had a relationship with a trans girl years ago, repress all thoughts since hrt could never save me

my irl friends

3 trans girls ages ranging from 30 to 24, all on hrt

two in exclusive relationship with each other, other part of some zoomer polycule

i'll never not be jealous, I'll never not hate myself for my gorilla genes

FTM repper pulls a gun on me

I stick my finger in the barrel

he fires and the barrel explodes giving him a face full of soot

Lmao

Did any of these trans girls ever know you were repressing? I would of thought it would be obvious to them if you were repressing?

why are ftm reppers loony toon maxxing?

my current friends all know(because I told them), my ex gf didn't but that's mostly because it was years ago and I didn't fully understand what I was feeling at the time.

imagine having friends LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Makes sense.

shoutout to my shoulders for being too wide and repfuel despite my ribcage being decently small

I am simply too powerful. The universe had to give me a negative trait to prevent me from causing the apocalypse.

I'm a loser I want to kill myself.

My life probably peaked in happiness when I was like 3

captcha:N8GAY

shoutout to my shoulders for being decently small despite my ribcage being too large

HRT won't bring back my youth. I don't even know how to live authentically.

im never going to wake up as a different human itll always be me and that makes me wanna die

have you tried having a female friend group

yeah but they excommunicated me for being a guy when I was 12 and then I had no friends until the last two years of high school

I've never had female friends, so I'm not sure why I think I can someday pretend to a woman

His (hers) and hers (his) matching skinsuits with my psychosismatched femrepper wife

I think I can someday pretend to a woman

lol imagine actually thinking that instead of just acting on your agp coomers impulses

same
I'm still holding out hope that one of the CYOAs I filled out will come true though

1pm. late enough to start drinking i guess

who up beating they meat to sissy captions

sodium nitrite or estradiol valerate, gotta pick one

isn't sn a pretty bad way to go?

I pick a third option, the sacrament.

how so
cope

how so

just painful and unpleasant

cope

i mean being an atheist is a much bigger cope.

i'm 6'2, masculine as hell and have a bad case of agp curls
should i get bangs the next time i go out of town?

reminder pinkpillers do this to make hons to laugh at

Any alternatives

Life is peaking as we speak. Terrified every moment it's all gonna fall apart and evaporate and leave me with nothing

this is how that specific pinkpiller looks like

why are pinkpillers always hons? I've noticed this

misery loves company

you don't know

ik, that is literally the autistic guy from mmg that keeps spamming "take your pills, retards" in every repgen

we love out chudette dont we folx? hes a beautiful ‘moder, maybe the only true ‘moder. some are calling him the last ‘moder, i dont know. the generals they showed me rooms full of ‘moders. im talking very big rooms, full of ‘moders. and they said to me, they said to me “mr. president they wont let us release these ‘moders. mr. president they want to keep your beautiful ‘moders away from you”

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

what do you think happens to reppers?

yfw they mean anti psychotics when they say take your pills