Is anyone else disgusted by their body to the point where the human form itself becomes disgusting? Recently I've been fantasizing more and more about discarding the flesh
The human form disguts me
Yes I am also disgusted by biological processes like aging, the digestive cycle, coughing, sneezing, crying, all sexual function, having skin that can break put or scar or wrinkle or blemish, seeing my own blood, having veins, etc but I more want to be an angel than a machine. Machines can still rust and get dirty, I want purity and to be eternal
That makes sense too. But I think I'd still prefer being a machine cause I'd like the feeling of the cold metal. I imagine it to be somewhat calming
im only disgusted by my dysphoria elements and my spine deformity and stretch marks from medicine side effects; and i guess some other general bits but i don't really find my whole body revolting; id be alot happier even as messed up as i am if i just wasn't flat :(
and it feels more within reach, like i could just pull my flesh and skin off to reveal a beautiful perfect machine
I will never not be disgusted by my body, thats just the way it is
I understand. To me the white light of angels is also cold. Like the common idea that a sudden cold feeling can be the presence of a ghost or the Holy Spirit
more within reach
Transhumanism is beautiful. I understand what you mean. For me it feels more achievable to metamorphose my body through transition, diet, fitness, beauty, and skincare to feel more pure and sexless and so on. Asceticism and losing myself in spiritual pursuits also bring me comfort. I can also purify myself morally
nah i'm chillin lol
Being a machine would be the perfect existence.
Any stimuli could be simulated, and true fear is existential and therefor useless.
my abhorrent flesh and the problems it spawns could be managed with such precision its an eternal dream.
I could replace my organs and skin, be whoever, whatever, I wanted to be.
I could tune everything about myself, inside and out, I could simply shut off parts of my mind when they're useless to me.
I mean this genuinely, to ascend to the divine machine, is to literally become god.
Perhaps you can't change the world around you, but you can change your perception of it innately, and with that comes true power.
I yearn for being an endless room of servers to dream eternally of incomprehensible things.
Fuck body dysphoria or whatever other silly transfem shit I should be having, I want to violently shed my flesh and unite with something eternal
Fuck the human experience, I crave nothing more than cold precision.
desu yeah. everyday i fantasize about transferring my consciousness to a mech/robot because i loathe seeing my current body
YES being a machine is superior.
You can be lethal, unstoppable but still beautiful and look like however you want. You don't even need a real body if you don't like that, just exist as a concept in a computer!
be lethal, unstoppable machine
microsoft forces an update
suddenly you can't use your left arm and any time you speak it's in a horribly racist chinese accent
takes them 2 weeks to hotfix it
next update is even worse
yes of course it couldn't be by microsoft, google or anything like that! Gotta be open source and allthat or just self-built. I mean overall its just a fantasy that will never become reality sadly so who cares
for me it’s diamond weapon
I wish cyberpunk2077 would have more actual cyborg customization options like replacing whole limbs with cyberware (which also visually changes it to be fully robotic). Does anyone maybe know a mod that does something like that?
i wish so badly to be free from flesh. it is so disgusting i hate it all.
i could be so beautiful if i was free from the tyranny of nature.
i could be made of metal and plastic and polyethylene. i could be as hard or soft as i wanted. as big or small (within reason) i could be shaped however i like. i could look as beautiful as my mind could think of (provided i have access to it.) i could even mimic the aesthetic of flesh.
i could experience senses beyond the limits of my biology. i could see light on outside of the limit of the human spectrum. i could hear sounds that could never be heard before. feel pleasure and pain unlike what humans can. i might even never be able to feel pain again if i wanted.
if i got my energy from the elements i could travel wherever i wanted. i could go where i desire.
i could live so much more than if i had to eat and drink and shit and piss and stay within -30°C(?) to 50°C and stay out of (mild) radiation. i would not even need to breathe. and i would not need to sell my labor to survive these things.
i could survive heavy blows. even bullets if i was built right. i could survive water. or acid. or toxic fumes. the only disease i would have to fear is entropy.
sometimes i just look out at fields and wish i could wander away through them. just walking in whichever direction i liked. walking deep into forests. even into the ocean. there is SO much i limit myself to out of the downstream effects of the fear of death. i could be wild.
but no i have to domesticate myself to roads and cities, "wild" has to be limited to controlled and planned outings because of my weakness.
if my mind were fully digital (or at least transferable digitally) i would fear death even less. i could die when *i* wanted. likely live as long as i liked.
and i could live my life beyond what i could imagine...
i'm so disappointed i'm human. the fact a consciousness has to be bound to these limitations is the reason for so much suffering.
In all your travels, have you ever seen a star go supernova? ...
I have. I saw a star explode and send out the building blocks of the Universe. Other stars, other planets and eventually other life. A supernova! Creation itself! I was there. I wanted to see it and be part of the moment. And you know how I perceived one of the most glorious events in the universe? With these ridiculous gelatinous orbs in my skull! With eyes designed to perceive only a tiny fraction of the EM spectrum. With ears designed only to hear vibrations in the air. ...
I don't want to be human! I want to see gamma rays! I want to hear X-rays! And I want to - I want to smell dark matter! Do you see the absurdity of what I am? I can't even express these things properly because I have to - I have to conceptualize complex ideas in this stupid limiting spoken language! But I know I want to reach out with something other than these prehensile paws! And feel the wind of a supernova flowing over me! I'm a machine! And I can know much more! I can experience so much more. But I'm trapped in this absurd body! And why? Because my five creators thought that God wanted it that way!
i could even write better and have autocorrect / proofreading built into my subconcious and not repeat myself 800 times lol
One specific dream/fantasy/scenario I keep thinking about is running up a 90 degree perfectly smooth concrete wall by stabbing some type of claw feet into it. Or belly-flopping onto a concrete platform and just walking away. There is just something about that, that feels so good. I don't even want to be ultra-strong or whatever, just very very tough and fast and adaptable
writing is something which I'm certain of I'd still suck at, no matter how much computing power or assistance you give me. That was a nice read tho and I feel what you mean, the limits of this form are just absurdly cruel
unironically i have considered self amputation for this... to be at least partially machine. god people with mechanical limbs give me SO much envy.
comparable to gender envy (don't feel as much anymore thankfully <3)
i don't have BIID. i want to cut my flesh off so my soul can be free....
that's so cool woww... that would be fun lol.
one of my fantasies is to have multiple long octopus arms and like grab things and climb around and multitask.
i have a whole sona designed... it would be so fun.
I don't even want to be ultra-strong or whatever, just very very tough and fast and adaptable
yes exactly. i do think i want some strength, but i don't crave any strength to destroy, just to be free :)
yeah that kinda makes sense, for me it's more those paralympic leg prosthesis. They're not really robotic but they look cool as fuck and iirc they actually increase your capabilities.
yes exactly! The multitasking thing is such a good point too, never really thought abt that but yes now that you say it I do really need that. Also there is just something about the process that I enjoy, the getting taken apart, parts replaced, deep cleaned, floating in some fluid tank.
I mean this genuinely in the flesh prison I am stuck in for the rest of my feeble life, I want to suck all of you off.
Should make a transhumanism tag map or something I'd 200% be excited to pretend we're robots while we interface our minds
There should be a discord server or some shit I wanna yap about my OC's schematic while I draw it
oh that's true too. legs are neat bc you can change your height. sometimes i fantasize about losing my legs and getting prosthesis and then like sometimes being proportional, other times being a towering Creature
also omggg yeah being a full robot would be nice to be cleaned / repaired.
(especially by a lover who may or may not do wirepulling ehe~ ... having someone you fully trust, being an almost immortal machine choosing to become vulnerable to one special person that you trust with your life hgngn...)
posts something that imitates the human form
uh huh
going beyond that is nice too but unless you're like otherkin (Lol) i feel like that might cause panic attacks to have your body changed so much.
you'd probably have to get used to it yk? slowly change things so you don't feel too claustrophobic?
I want to be flesh but immortal, amorphous flesh. I want to be an eldritch abomination. I want to be john carpenter's the thing.
(especially by a lover who may or may not do wirepulling ehe~ ... having someone you fully trust, being an almost immortal machine choosing to become vulnerable to one special person that you trust with your life hgngn...)
HOLY SHIT YES
if you were machine you could cover yourself in flesh
anyway i want to be an eldritch abomination like , i'm not some cringe android wannabe.
also that exists apparently: tagmap.io
put myself on there
flayermoder
Also machines don't necessarily need metal right? Like some form of bio-machine (not sure where the difference between "bio-machine" and just "creature" is so ??? but I think you get what I mean)
a biological organism is basically just an inconceivably complex colony of nanobots
basically just an inconceivably complex colony of nanobots
oh yeah true, if you think about it
i get that desu..
but i think i want to spend some time as an android to surpass human beauty standards that i have idealized.. and be admired by others...
it's counterintuitive to wanting to be free but like.. i think if i get enough of it i will no longer desire it as much? heal from being an undesirable human and then no longer need that to feel fulfilled? freeing myself from envy by satisfying it? idk if that'd work though ... but i think i want my mind to be free of my body mostly.. but i want to fix my mind the normal way.
honestly though ideal form would be having both though like being humanoid that could transform into eldritch creature.
yes exactly
i do not actually want to be mostly metal..
i don't really want biology on myself though (too fragile and complex compared to the toughness and simplicity of raw material) but that's totally valid
i don't rly like the idea of literally being metal on the outside though... i think it'd be nice to have a soft body. like baymax is a soft robot.. or a mixture like picrel..
(i'd not actually want to be baymax balloon or picrel tho lol just the idea of not being 100% metal)
hmm no personally I would love to touch my body and just feel smooth, sturdy and cold metal parts. It's just part of the appeal for me
that's valid :)
imagine knocking on ur chest and it rings out like hollow metal that's so cool. :0
yeah true, a soft body would be nice for cuddling tho ig. Although I really like the feel of cold metal so maybe metal is better just because of that.
Anyways my disgusting flesh prison need sleep so see ya creatures/beings!
*also tag yourself so we can assemble into one swarm intelligence and take over the world