be me, bpdemon

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be me, bpdemon

meet worst guy of my life, rapes me, tries to get me to kill myself during splits, admits to doing both

back and forth, forgive, attatch, split, block, forgive, attach, split, block, over and over

recently reattach cuz my life is shit and hes the only one that will talk to me

talk regularly for a week

he got a boyfriend during the last block

generally a better person than before

talk abt my bpd and how idk if I hate him or not

he says he doesn't think we should talk anymore because I he feels guilty for what he did to me, and that he wants to move on because its been effecting his relationship

mfw the worst dude I know just told me I make his life worse and hes right

do I just kill myself at this point like what's the play after this

> be me, bpdemon

stopped reading there

answer the question if ur already here loser

Why are you upset that the poisonous snake literally told you to stay away?

cuz it means I'm worse than the poisonous snake basically

I am also a bpdemon hi we should be friends I have no one else to talk to

Fucking deserved.

hi!!!! umnn what's ur discord or something I lowk don't wanna say mine

I wouldn't trust the words of a snake that has previously shown to enjoy making you suffer.

aware
so do i rope or what's the play can I come back from this

Shut the fuck up.

Add me on discord I will groom you.

yeah but hes getting better and im not so honestly he has a point im holding onto excuses to hate people so much and it ruins the relationship of everyone I talk to I basically have nobody anymore I literally fucked it all up and idk how to improve from this without going in the complete opposite direction like I always do

jamboreen !!!

oh.... it's you...

ok

is there something I should know

????

She's known for being a bit much even for a bpd in our circle

if you’re using she for me then I don’t know who this could possibly be

Oh you're not out? Well, we used to be in a small server together before the admin nuked it. Didn't you said you were a tranny? lol

Im pretty honest about who I am but I gotta admit I have no clue what you’re talking about lol, maybe add me or something and i’ll remember but idk

Well no I can't because I transitioned and you know my area. Fyi I feel bad for saying this but he was the one who told us to avoid you.

be you, a Borderline Personality Demon

you meet the, "WORST GUY EVER"

rational observer discards your claim due to your extremist thinking of people

waow
die
burn
scream
shriek
HELLFIRE
DARK FIRE
NOW, TRANNY
IT'S YOUR TURN

im being so serious I think you have the wrong person im sorry for the confusion

Sorry it was my attempt at gaslighting bpd people guess it's not working. Do you think it's good?

THATS CRAZYYYYYY

ruin him
do it for fun

on it

HELPPP NEW HOBBY COLLECTED

alr kinda did ngl, I sent all his friends the texts of him admitting that he did the things he did and they cut him off, ofc I didn't! cuz im a hypocrite and a bitter retard
hes right, we both need to move on, I just don't know what to do when even with this guy im still the one making things worse at the end of the day

if you kill yourself all you're doing is continuing to pleasure a sadistic rapist, you know?

Bpd people should just stay alone and spare us your machinations

You shouldn't kill yourself anon, you should kill him for raping you

Not enough
We need to ignite them and hear the demon leave their bodies
We need to hear them scream and crumple into ash

id be down to test this out where and when

be me

be diagnosed bpd when i was a kid, im still not sure what it is

meet a younger boy

there is nothing special about him, he isnt hot but at least isnt ugly

we keep meeting for no reason, we hang out and eat, then start kissing and eventually start having sex

he gives me attention and i fall in love to him but im afraid to tell because he's younger

now he is the most special, cute and hot so i CAN'T lose him

<a month later

he talks about going out with another girl, during sex. And talk to me as if i was his sugar mommy.

i get really sad and angry, am i really not good enough after all i have done for him? taking him to restaurants, buying him clothes and gifts

i realize there is nothing special about him, he never did anything for me other than give me attention, and now we had a fight he doesnt even do that

we keep fighting for over a month, over the same issues

i tell him he dont care about me, and he tells me that i dont value when he does and just blame him over and over

i really need to end this horrible cycle, i love him but he isnt into me, fighting just hurts us both, im not even sure whats the truth now. Deep inside I trust him but the voices tell me he's just manipulating me. What for? Im not sure, some lousy cheap clothes and free food? Makes no fucking sense.

Im constantly fighting over saying im sorry because all this fight its dumb, and blaming him for not doing enough, for not apologizing enough, for not being better, for not being as good as he was before we fight

i wish somebody reasonable told me he's is right, and that im wrong and should change.

be me, bpdemon

GO
TO
THERAPY
AND MEDICATE YOURSELF
FOR FUCKS SAKE

agreed, I really just want someone to tell me who I am and what to do

I am both in therapy and medicated, and was consistently hospitalized throughout my teens, I don't see much improvement, I think I convince myself they're lying because they're getting paid, idk, I've seen general improvement but shit hit the fan recently so it all went to shit

must suck being stupid as fuck then
good luck

it does bro retardation is horrible
ill fucking need it Jesus Christ