Confessions of a Twink Top

be me

have the mind and desires of a dominant top

have the body of a slender hairless twink

have a very cute bottom bf who I love very much, who loves me very much, who loves getting dominated and fucked and has a head full of hot slutty submissive fantasies

wish I was a big strong Chad who could toss him around like he weighs nothing and stretch him out and fuck his brains out

develop secret fantasy of being utterly cuckolded and watching him get ruthlessly dominated by men with the type of body I wish I had

love him way way too much to risk the relationship or lose his respect just for a coom

keep fantasies to myself

besides, he really loves me too

we fuck like rabbits, he's very thirsty for sex with me, moans and cums for me, and lavishes me with praise, so I'm probably just being stupid and pornbrained with the cuck shit

...right?

to be continued

cont'd

get really into working out

achieve twunkmode, actually manage to get pretty buff and strong

libido and energy increase

I can pick him up really easily now

if I pin him or put him in a headlock it's literally impossible for him to escape my hold, no matter how hard he fights (we've gotten really into CNC play, so we've tested that theory thoroughly)

I thought he was horny for me before, but holy shit it's so different now

he goes absolutely FERAL for me when I dominate him in a way I'd never seen when I was in twinkmode

he leaks precum like a faucet and moans like he's gonna cum in his fucking pants when I make him sniff and lick my sweaty armpits, feet and crotch

he WORSHIPS my body

I can plap him so much harder, I have so much more stamina, I can toss him around like a ragdoll and pretzel him up in one position after another

I can pick him up and drop him on my cock like a human fleshlight

he's an orgasmic mess of brainless goo on my cock

handsfree orgasms are practically guaranteed

dominant dirty talk feels legit and natural now, I was always "good at it" but it sorta felt like an act before

I have become the guy he used to tell me not to worry about

I was right to worry

Every time I fuck him now, I feel like I'm cuckolding my past self

fulfill my most secret shameful kink without ever letting another man touch him, without embarrassing myself by revealing the kink

he's none the wiser, he's just thrilled to feel up my muscles and get dominated harder

I am the bull, the cuck and the loving boyfriend all at once

I experience the pleasure of all three: the power, the humiliation, the loving intimacy, all at once

Every orgasm is three orgasms melded and multiplied

I've cracked the code

This is the pinnacle of top-pleasure, I don't know what else you could add to the equation

I love him so much and he's happier than ever with me

Don't tell me to get therapy. I'm enjoying my mental illness way too much to fix it

didn't know you could be both gay and a cuck

This is a place of learning

You like ass. Lol

...and I cannot lie

I wanna be the bottom in both scenarios bwah!!

have the mind and desires of a dominant top

develop secret fantasy of being utterly cuckolded

Twinks.

genuinely curious as a twink boymoder who wants a bf who is also a twink, hwo the fuck do folks find tops who arent either bears or fitness dudes, like im FINE with the latter i just, would really like another twink i can cuddle who doesnt expect me to fuck them, every time i see a cute femboy im like "oh! im also a femboy maybe we can like, talk" and then they just wanna get topped, is t4t ( boy twink) that common?

ive been to gay bars but all the gay dudes there just act like stereotypical drag queen gay dudes and its agonizing and again they mostly want fit dudes anyway/dont top

Based indiscriminately thirsty bottom
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I dunno. Are twink tops really that rare, or is it just tough for us to get taken seriously as tops? I was more of a twink by birth than a twink by aesthetic intent, it feels better to be stronger and more outright masculine. But I'm thankful for the existence of people like you or my bf

i love everything about this

you sound like you have a beautiful relationship and i hope you and your bf stay together and continue making eachother happy<3 ill keep looking for my dream top twink

Weird but interesting post, I was in a somewhat similar position, been experimenting and testing more sexual things with my MtF girlfriend and I had similar urges regarding the cuck shit etc having her absolutely pounded by some other big dick guy, but after doing caging and talking about it during sex it made me feel gross and pushed me more into wanting to dominate and demolish her in ways I'd never had thought of by getting stronger and better cardio, sounds like you're having fun at least don't let any of the retards here tell you to stop or be "normal"

Interested to hear if you felt grossed out or disgusted by any of the feelings at all

many such cases. this is why any top and dom should work out

Every time I fuck him now, I feel like I'm cuckolding my past self

fulfill my most secret shameful kink without ever letting another man touch him, without embarrassing myself by revealing the kink

kek

Thanks, and good luck to you! Hornyshitposts aside, I feel very lucky with him

Interested to hear if you felt grossed out or disgusted by any of the feelings at all

At first, yes I absolutely did. Initially, the fantasies definitely came from a place of insecurity and fear of losing him. That gave the kink a lot of "power" in an arousing way, but it also felt pretty unhealthy, it left me feeling bad after I'd cum to those thoughts. At this point though, I feel like it's in a pretty healthy place. I'm slightly exaggerating for entertainment value in the initial post, the kink isn't really a fixation anymore. When I do think about it now, it's honestly just hot, gives a little extra spice.

Part of it was a matter of actually just addressing the shit I was insecure about, and doing what I could to improve myself and be more of the type of man I wanted to be. And maybe a bigger part of it was just settling in more securely with my boyfriend, communicating on a deeper level, and realizing that most of the lingering doubts I was harboring about his own desires or intentions were bullshit. I think I honestly just lucked out with a good partner, and the aspects of the fantasies that made me feel gross or sad just didn't really apply to him or how he felt about me, even before I got fitter or upped my game in bed a little bit.

Ultimately I do think the cuckold kink is an objectively negative thing. Like any vice I think a moderate enjoyment can be OK, if you've got it in proper balance. But it's really more of a symptom of something wrong that should be worked on, rather than a kink that should actually be indulged and played out for real. It sounds like you're on a similar path of hearing the "warning bells" and let it drive you to be better, rather than succumbing to humiliation, so good luck to you!

the issue is that if you look femme even a little bit you instantly acquire attention from aggressive tops and its addicting. its rare for a twink to remain a strict top under such relentless assaults, and eventually they just become a foreverially bottomified wife (male).

I respect you a lot honestly, takes a lot to admit and figure out what is wrong with yourself and move on from it by bettering yourself, I have an amazing loving girlfriend who I love more than the world and never had any of the thoughts until I saw porn online and thought about trying more kinkier things, honestly I now view porn as bad and as gross at this point especially when in an relationship unless watching it together, I understand the insecurities they do cause a lot of mental issues but you're right working out and empowering yourself does help a fuck ton

Oh I'm moving on now doing the same as you by working out almost every day and working on my mental, thanks for the response it helps a lot when dealing with these sort of things, I don't think it's inherently bad either but everything should be done in moderation and at a good pace, hope you and your boyfriend do well together you sound like a great person

Same to you, anon, thanks! Yeah agreed on the porn. And - as hypocritical as it may be, since I'm talking to you here right now - I think this board, and online communities like this board, were even more toxic for me than porn. I've cut way back on this, too. I dunno if it's ever had a similar effect for you - but I think sometimes, I would read hornyposts or shitposts from total strangers, that they were probably only half-serious about to begin with, and I would sort of internalize them and wonder if they might've reflected my boyfriend's private thoughts that he kept secret from me. I think to some extent I thought I was learning things by being here, when I was younger, but once I actually had a partner I think it started doing more harm than good.

I dunno, I had some dumb shit going on in my head in earlier stages of the relationship. I think it's a good thing to limit some of those outside influences, and make sure you recognize your partner for who they really are rather than associating them with outside influences. If there's something you have a doubt about, address it with them, learn how she really thinks.

I can agree with you on pretty much all of that, I think if you spend too much time on here you'll become way too invested and addicted to talking the shit that people do, I rarely use the board these days and try to avoid any other board at all as they're a lot more of a danger mentally I'd say, sometimes I do check gif for porn but it's rare I'd say, I'd avoid the hornypost board at all if possible, most of the people posting are making up fake horny posts or posting things that they probably don't actually want and if you get those ideas in your head and think they're good you might hurt the one you love, on the other side plapping the fuck out of your bf should always be a priority, the more you invest and spend time with your partner the healthier you'll be imo, go on nice nature walks, do moderately kinky shit together etc, just make sure to never go over board

Oh we discuss things well, we're very open and try to always convey our worries or issues along with the good things, keeps your relationship happy and stops the cracks from appearing, try limit accessing the board and any Social media to be honest it'll make you feel a lot better, work out more or read etc instead

I refuse to believe this is true because it would make me feel like shit

Why?

I'd get lonely and jealous

as a fellow dominant twunk this was my life trajectory as well. All my friends think I work out because I'm some gym himbo who knows nothing else but in reality it's because I need to be this person for my sweet bottom bf, plus I'm completely addicted to the validation you get from cock hungry subs drooling over your body when you're fit. The gym is the best therapy, it sounds like a meme but at my lowest points, the saddest I've ever been, I would just pull my shirt up in the mirror and look at my abs and it would give me the boost I needed.

Oh yeah, I'd never actually hurt him, even when we play really rough now I keep it at a level where he's clearly having a great time. But you hit the nail on the head with the hornyposts, and with social media in general, it could sorta warp my view of what was wanted or expected of me if I took any of it seriously

what would you do if you failed to get stronger? are you gaining strength and size naturally? what would you do if you face an injury?
sorry if questions come off as rude, just curious about your thought process to overcome challenges, which is very inspiring!

It may sound shallow but I totally get you lol. And it's not completely shallow, really, even aside from the vanity benefits it's just a small reminder that you actually do have the power to improve things if you make a little effort every day

Yeah I'd never fuck around with steroids or anything, I just eat more when I work out. There's like a year elapsed between lines of greentext there, between when I really started taking it seriously and when the differences were really noticeable. I don't really have unrealistic goals of getting huge quickly. It would suck if I got injured, but I'm pretty careful and I don't push to where it starts feeling bad. There's sort of a "sweet spot" where you feel really fucking good after a workout, if you overdo it you feel like shit, so I listen to my body on that. Worst I got was a wrist strain from bicep curls and I just started wearing a brace, the wrist's all better now.

The physical benefits are nice, but I think it was almost more of a psychological thing of taking control and pushing in the right direction, made me feel a lot more confident

yea the psychological gains are immense. Being physically stronger is a party trick at best but loving your body means a whole fucking lot. I got fired from my job and walked out of the building with a smile on my face because I knew I still mogged my boss. I don't know, maybe I really am a retard himbo, I don't care desu it's a good way to live.

idk if it's all a joke but this is fucking hot

Based himbo, keep it up

THIS, why would twink tops ruin themselves by being just another gym bro, they're so rare and special...

because topping takes strength

i would ride them while they just lay there moaning

Based

this is what's known as AAP anon, congrats on living out your fantasy

male-to-manlier-male transition?

Is everyone on Anon Babble AAP?

The humblebragging is off the charts. Cute larp though.

no but op literally is
he felt like he was in the wrong body and felt anxious until he looked "right," and he conceptualizes his past self as a different person.

never seen it expressed so clearly by a cis male. interesting thread.

Yeah I'd never fuck around with steroids or anything, I just eat more when I work out. There's like a year elapsed between lines of greentext there, between when I really started taking it seriously and when the differences were really noticeable. I don't really have unrealistic goals of getting huge quickly.

based

It would suck if I got injured, but I'm pretty careful and I don't push to where it starts feeling bad. There's sort of a "sweet spot" where you feel really fucking good after a workout, if you overdo it you feel like shit, so I listen to my body on that.

real. this is my go to example for normies avoiding influencer scams. everyone who actually lifts always says what you said here, listen to your body and find your sweet spot and don't go too hard.