seeing all the girls here being able to start at 18 or 19 or 20 or 21 while i repressed into my early 30s is quite something
Seeing all the girls here being able to start at 18 or 19 or 20 or 21 while i repressed into my early 30s is quite...
i started at 19 and im still seething when i see someone telling how they started at 16
i started at a rough 25 i get it op
Yeah it is, it's also baffling when you see them saying shit about realizing at 16 and starting ASAP when I was repping for 26 years. It makes me feel like a big fat retard for sure.
i knew at 16 but repped till 20, i want to kill myself
times were very different a decade ago. our best representation was caitlyn jenner, their best representation is hunter schafer
Yeah, a lot of the people who didn't rep, or didn't do so for long, grew up in a supportive environment with liberal parents. Me, I grew up in the South with extremely conservative, Christian fundamentalist parents who did and still fucking do rant about how much they hate gays, let alone trannies. I pretty much had nowhere to look, and had the misfortune of internalizing all their rhetoric instead of rebelling.
Personally, I'm glad I waited till my 30s because I'm MUCH more sure of myself now and have a group of friends who are here to support me through it all. If I started at 19, I would have had to go in into this all alone and probably would have killed myself from the isolation.
I'm ALSO really glad that I started an intense skin care regimen and took on a diet that reduced my T in my early 20s because it helped me maintain my androgyny until I was ready to fully come out.
You may not think it right now, but you're gonna make it.
insane levels of cope but i respect it
I'm sorry OP. I knew for sure at 18 but repped until I was 22 for stupid reasons and still severely regret it.
well you do seem a little slow in the head, seeing that you're posting frogs and all
i started at 21y and i it was over for me anon its ok
i came out to my parents when i was a minor and they didnt let me start it :D
I definitely don't pass for female but I do pass for elvish, and I'm alright with that being my starting point.
I just came out about a week ago, to no one's surprise. I don't know when I'm gonna start HRT (hopefully soon) but I think it'll make a big difference over the next few years
Development between 18-22 isn't usually that much. I think waiting just fucked up your self perception
holy fuck youre ugly
You shaved your facial hair and applied some make-up, you do pass as a faggot at most
You shaved your facial hair and applied some make-up
Well she said she's not even on HRT yet, so that's literally what happened lol
girls
Delusional faggot lol
Eh, my boyfriend and most people I meet IRL would disagree with you. I get complimented on the way I look often. When in makeup I get ma'am'd by strangers who don't realize, and then look shocked after I let my deep voice out. I definitely didn't look great in the top photos, but the bottom photos show how over the past 9 years I got a lot prettier through much hard work and discipline.
If your goal was to affect my self-perception, it hasn't worked, my IRL experiences carry much more weight :)
I already said I don't pass as a woman. I've not even taken HRT yet, much less any surgeries or FFS. I was just saying that I have a pretty good baseline to start from as a 31 year old. That's it.
das cool man but at the end of the day youre just an ugly faggot and your own circlejerk doesnt change that.
Whatever you have to tell yourself sweetheart :)
i mean you have to tell yourself youre a woman every day, must be exhausting living a life like this!
I figured it out after 16 years of wishing I was a girl but not thinking it was possible. I repressed for four years until 20. i still wanna kms
Eh, my internal sense of self does not require validation from others, it only requires validation from myself and self-actualization. I don't have to tell myself anything at this point, I just am what I am. I've never told myself that I'm supposed to be a biological female, but I have affirmed that I am a trans woman. They're different things with different experiences. I may be biologically male, but the social role of manhood just doesn't apply to me. Never has
And I promise, no amount of your whinging will change that either UwU
You look good, especially with long hair.
'preciate it, anon! Hopefully HRT will help me achieve what I want aesthetically
Rare moment where somebody in this board says something profound
I've not even taken HRT yet
why
thats retarded at this point
How much of all of this is just sex. I cross dressed and fucked a shit load of guys in my teens early twenties and than it just left me. I swear to god I almost feel like I helped invent the chastity cage sissy look. Now I'm married and in my thirties and while occasionally i think about it I usually don't.
Went years desperate for the approval of my mother, who was fine with me being a gay man but not with me being trans. My dad always saw how depressed I was and wanted to just see me happy no matter what I did, so not an issue with him. Repressed so hard after the 4th failed attempt to come out as trans that I forgot about my actual self for a long time. Then the feelings came back HARD over this past year, and I knew that if I repressed again I would kms in the next 10 years, so I chose to not ignore it any longer.
I seek my mother's approval no more. She can like it or lump it.
Sure
But why aren't you on E2 yet? It's already been a year.
I cross dressed and fucked a shit load of guys in my teens early twenties and than it just left me
yeah congrats you faggot, youre not trans
That sounds like a you thing anon. I don't get some weird sexual kick from being trans. I'm just trying to self-actualize.
i started at 22 and i seethe at girls that started younger, bc i tried to come out at 14
E2
Do you just mean E or is E2 something I haven't heard of before?
It's already been a year
I needed the year to self-reflect, move, change jobs, begin a little bit of social transition, and prepare myself for the journey ahead. Now I am actively working on getting E.
I hope your kids end up finding your pics/videos once they grow up lmao
Do you just mean E or is E2 something I haven't heard of before?
I mean E2
Now I am actively working on getting E.
Wym "actively working"? It's literally a single order of 50 euro away + 1 week of wait time (or going to your local community and asking for it)
E was so good they made a sequel
To be serious, E1 is estrone and E2 is estradiol.
attractive people who look like twinks get to be who they are in their teens and early 20s which allows them to understand what the fuck is going on with them so they can transition at that time.
meanwhile ugly or mannish people feel horrible about themselves for wanting to be feminine, become ashamed and repress and end up trooning later.
basically yngshits are more self fulfilling prophecies. i like it and its easy to lets take it further and oldshits are more. i hate myself and ive wasted my life and the only option is to try and be the total opposite of what i am or im going to rope
Okay, I can understand that.
Its possible, but not likely. Theres so many millions of terabytes of porn around.
Okay so what is E2, is that like a brand of Estrogen?
Wym "actively working"?
I have an Endo appointment set up next week to have my baseline levels checked and to see if there is anything I should know about before I start taking anything. I'm very cautious when it comes to my health so rather than diving straight in I'd like to get a baseline established. I'll be going through an informed consent clinic to get my hormones, but I'm between jobs right now so my funds are low. I need to find my next job before anything else. Luckily my insurance covered the Endo visit tho.
Estradiol
I'm very cautious when it comes to my health
Clearly not given that you have already mutilated your body
I'll be going through an informed consent clinic to get my hormones
That's like hundred of dollars per months, right? You should help your local community with that instead.
yeah
Clearly not given that you have already mutilated your body
How have I mutilated my body? I've not done anything yet lol
That's like hundred of dollars per months, right? You should help your local community with that instead.
Nothing you're saying is making sense lol
How have I mutilated my body? I've not done anything yet lol
Exactly
Nothing you're saying is making sense lol
Are you retarded?
Ah, I see it now, you're one of those reppers who wants everyone else to be as miserable as you. Got it.
Your opinion has been discarded :)
3 years hrt actually, hon :3
Never thought I needed HRT desu, it was different
i started at 16 and seethe when someone tells me about starting at 14, i knew at 12 and ordered diy at 14 but the diy source fucked me over and i wasnt able to get a chance to transition then it makes me seethe beyond my ability to describe. i could have been an actual youngshit or maybe had a possibility of passing but those 2 years ruined me.
Anon is telling you that aging as a man is self-mutilation for a repper, and wants you to take DIY.
Every time you seethe, imagine knowing at 7 and not starting until 34. Just think "Wow at least I'm not that retard."
I noticed something, but I'm going to keep it to myself, kinda sad tho ngl tbdesu
Happy for you then, and I hope everything goes well for you, but your opinion that it's too late for me to do anything is still discarded. Besides, I get ma'am'd far too often for me to recognize your opinion as valid lmao.
My goal is to live authentically, not to keep living in despair.
but your opinion that it's too late for me to do anything
That's... not what I said??
Ok listen girl, you are clearly retarded so I will be plain with you. If you wanted to start hrt you would have done so yesterday. You are delaying it for the shake of delaying it at this point, all while T is still ruining your body irreversibly.
I mean DIY is basically the route I will be going through. It's just going to be like a month before I can get my hands on anything. One month is not going to make the difference.
Eh, you know what you implied.
And I am literally in the process of doing it, I am fresh out of coming out. One month is not going to make the difference. It's not wrong for me to want to be safe with my levels.
yeah im glad i lived at this time and in america, wokeness saved me
Eh, you know what you implied.
You are actually delusional
And I am literally in the process of doing it, I am fresh out of coming out. One month is not going to make the difference. It's not wrong for me to want to be safe with my levels.
There is no process, you are just delaying it for no reason. You have been waiting for a year. You aren't playing anything safe, you are just delaying it for no reason. Sure 1 month is nothing but you aren't going to start in a month, are you? Did you even order your vial?
Fine you got me, I'm in a long term relationship with a man who doesn't want me to transition and I'm still trying to figure out how to break the news to him. I've only come out to myself so far. I am deeply indebted to this person because of my lack of job and the fact that he's covered everything for me for the past 4 months that I've been looking for work. I love him so much and I'm scared of breaking his heart, especially after living on his dime this long.
I have no money, no job, and no autonomy right now.
Any filters or makeup on the left pic? Ur cute I'd hit. Your makeup in the middle pick just looks like drag though, not a good look I'd leave that one behind.
Paying for you for 4 months doesn't make him own you. I know it's not easy but for your own good you should try to understand that it's unlikely that there is any future in this relationship. He is probably a gay man, you shouldn't let anyone decide for your life nor you should let them ruin it. Do your best to find a way out and a job, if you feel indebted you can repay him in due time, good luck girl
No filters on any of the photos, just good lighting and lots of skincare!
And yeah that particular look in the middle was specifically a drag look lol
Appreciate it anon, I'll be working it out as fast as I can, the whole situation is just messy right now, but that's also why I'm working so hard to find a job
top middle is really hot to me. I like bottom left too