be 12 year old female autist
not really dysphoric, but realize that I would prefer to be a man because I find them more aesthetically pleasing and find their voices to sound better than to that of women
come out as a pooner at 14
family accepts me
start testosterone at 16
start completely passing in three months because I'm 5'11 and naturally masculine
move schools and start fully stealthing at 17
completely fine with this, happy about being perceived as male
be me now, 19 years old
no longer want to have to take time out of my day to inject myself with testosterone every week
no longer want to continue the long legal process to get my name and sex legally changed
no longer want to eventually pay for a painful surgery to get my tits cut off
generally just no longer want to be a pooner because it's too much effort to never even be actually male anyways
It wouldn't be absolutely terrible if I had to keep being a pooner. I'm not bothered by any of the effects of testosterone. I don't have le reverse dysphoria. But I wish I could go back and keep myself from pooning out because I didn't realize how inconvenient that process would be.
Would it be a good idea to depoon? If not socially, at least medically. Or is it too late?