Did i get raped??

trannies can be very trusting and gullible if given even a shred of attention/affection and even if they're actively fighting back, can be very weak from the estrogen

Sleeping in the same bed is basically an invitation. Why did you do that?
t. ftm rapist

well other than the dream, hes normally super nice to me. plus, i have a crush on him. which is why im kind of reluctant to cut him loose.
but if he did actually do something like that to me then i can never fucking forgive him. i just cant. no feelings make up for that.

should i ask him if he did anything to me? or ask my friends if they think he would do that? i dont know if i should feel ashamed of my dirty dream or angry that something happened because i dont fucking know if it happened at all.
its not that i drink it too fast, my liver is just weak because of my spiro so it hits me absurdly hard. i think i had, like, 5 white claws? and i was stumbling drunk off of one. he was bridal carrying me around.
i wasnt really fighting back, i didnt really move. i dont remember if i tried to or not, but i didnt really struggle.
ive slept in his bed with him like 5 times and this is the only time something weird has happened.

should i ask him if he did anything to me?

"Haha anon, of course I would have never done that!" What next?

Alcohol loosens inhibitions. You were both drunk. His brain-to-hands filter was likely malfunctioning.
Talk to him. But I'm telling you: once you lose trust in a person, it can't be repaired. It's already over.

yesterday i found out that his trans ex gf woke up to him fucking her before

This detail stands out to me enough to say that yes, there is a real and highly likely chance you weren't "dreaming". Cut him out without a trace.

Anon here. I hadn't noticed the detail they pointed out. Cut him out.

Lots of seemingly nice people do scummy things. You could fill an encyclopedia with serial offenders who most people thought were charming and sweet. I seriously recommend against asking him about the situation. The best case scenario is that he just denies it in a passive way, because he's almost definitely not going to own up to it. Worst case, he might actually become violent or otherwise retaliate against you by spreading bad rumors about you or something like that. Don't let love blind you to what he's done.
Seconding this. He has a history of similar behavior.

if his ex said something similar happened then it probably happened to you too. i'm sorry for you, but you need to stay away from this guy

He already raped his gf and used his female privilege to avoid consequences for it, either kill him or cut him off

You can't rape without a dick. So at worst you were molested.

well i dunno, it just seems weird to jump to the conclusion that i got raped, i dont know. what if im wrong? i dont want to ruin his reputation if its not true.
i know that. if something happened, i dont think i could ever forgive him.
yeah, i wasnt gonna make this post until i was in the shower earlier today and i was like, “wait a second. thats weird. thats a strange coincidence.” cue intense panic and frantic typing.
i can feel myself getting more anxious by the minute.
i guess youre right. i really dont want this to happen again.
hes taller, stronger, and more in shape than i am. im 5’3. i absolutely could not win in a fight.
i guess. id still feel violated either way though.

hes taller, stronger, and more in shape than i am. im 5’3. i absolutely could not win in a fight.

You never heard of guns? Or get a real man to do it

I'm sorry that it happened to you. Self denial based on someone else's reputation isn't great. The least you should do is cut him out of your life and seek out people who will support you instead of being dismissive of what happened to you. I want to add that I had a similar "dream" to you with my dad and it turned out to be true. The dream was phenomenally vivid, more than an actual dream, similarly to yours. It sucks but that's how it is. You can make it through this.
Don't listen to these tards

It can't be a coincidence. Especially if he is a repeat offender, he won't change.

im in california, and im a 20 year old tranny. theres no way. plus im broke as hell.

Or get a real man to do it

who?? fucking batman??
youre right. its just horrible. considering the possibility its real is horrible enough to make me feel nauseous. i want to throw up.
i guess so. maybe i trust too easy. i always try to see the best in people.

I know that feeling, I've been through it before. Honestly, the best thing you can do for it is to talk with someone you trust. If you don't jave someone like that, the next best thing is to just sit with it for now and let it wash over you. Don't think about right and wrong or anything like that, just let the feelings come and go. I'm really sorry that this happened to you. Nobody deserves anything like this. If you need somebody to lend an ear, I can drop my contact info.

Its not worth seeing the best in someone who invades your body. Its okay to have the benefit of the doubt, but you can't be a doormat either. You need to know when to say "no" and walk away. Even if you lack physical strength or a support system, that will be your strength. This is one of these situations where you need to stand your ground and find the strength to affirm a boundary.
And remember. There are plenty of men in the sea. You should find one whose strength makes you feel safe and protected, not on guard. I hope you find that too. You seem like a good person.

wake up in an incoherent daze

unable to string memories together or even be sure if it happened

didn't feel like a dream and felt it when you pinched yourself

he had access to your drinks

nona i'm really sorry but he probably roofied you. whatever else you do stay the hell away from this guy

i have a few, but most of the people i would talk to either dont know enough/wouldnt believe it was real, or would take gossip like that and run. thats what happens when youre in california, i guess. please do, id love to have someone who understands exactly what happened to talk to.
the more i think about it the more it freaks me out, yeah. my hands went numb and shaky about 5 mins ago. hes the first guy ive found pretty thats shown any interest in talking to me in years. we arent dating, but i can kind of tell by his actions he at least likes me as a person. i want someone else i can like.
is that what being roofied feels like?? i wouldnt know, ive never been fucking drugged before… this is horrible

My discord is protoandeansupercomputer
I can arrange something else if need be.

Pooners are rapists, what a shocking revelation.

thanks, ill add you on my alt when i get home.
ive never had something this extreme happen to me, which is partially why im really reluctant to say it happened at all.

Shocked it took so long for somebody to point it out. If that isn't a normal dream for you, it's drugs. You don't sound very traumatized right now, so hopefully you'll heal. You deserve to be happy, op

hey, gimme some credit, i said it was date-rape in the first post

i wish an ftm would drug me and grope me without consent. just not my dick though, bottom dysphoria D:

i mean, ive had dirty dreams before, theyre just normally really really rare for me. i guess its somewhat possible that since i was cuddling with my crush i just got leaky and my imagination got overactive. at the same time that moan felt incredibly fucking real.
technically we arent dating, we're just friends. granted, he called me a good girl and bridal carried me around the house like an hour beforehand, so theres probably at least a little more going on there.
if it was my tits and ass instead of my dick id feel a lot better about myself rn, believe me.

kill his ass. im so sorry that happened

did i get raped

Gotta figure to avoid these baits.

tgirls are so vulnerable and trusting this is why i love them they're precious souls arent made for this world

they are. it was only a cnc thing but was still a concerning and mildly horrifying discovery to make that it would be that easy to actually drug and rape her if I did have bad intentions. if anything, it's made me more protective of her

pooners are rapey what did you expect

moan when you get groped

Fucking hot and rare, usually trannies are broken.

i knew of a pooner that manipulated a bottom dysphoric trans girl into sex so OP's story is believable to me