/repgen/ - repressor general

QOTT: can you name at least one feature of yourself that you like?
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Why not just be a very, very feminine man?

thank you, i have decided to become a man so feminine that everyone sees him as a woman

You know, I came to this thread like a week ago out of curiosity/looking for repfuel, but for whatever reason hanging out with you people for a bit just made me want to transition more. What the fuck is wrong with you all? What the fuck is wrong with me?

because the reason to keep being a man is to be respectful and feminine men are not respectful

"It could be worse", I say to myself, as I wake up wishing that I hadn't, for the 100th day in a row.
"It could be worse"

hanging out here made me turn into a manmoder because i realized how miserable everyone that stays dry repping is. now i can be only mostly miserable instead

respectful of what/towards whom? you mean they don't bow down to females like other men do?

That's probably part of it. Like there's some inexhaustible spark of hope or defiance in my soul that refuses to be snuffed out. It just keeps screaming "don't be like them, don't submit" even though I'm probably older than most of you with worse chances of passing.

respectful to yourself
men are authority figures you know they are expected to take charge and provide guidance to everyone

I think I have a pretty good fashion sense +my hair is OK so I like those ig, I have a very defined jawline which would rule if it didn't make me feel like an ogre

QOTT

I have small, feminine hands. People comment on how girly they look in photos and sometimes assume I'm a woman, and when shaking hands people often mention how soft they are, even when it's a woman's hand I'm shaking.

women are clearly the ones who run society, if yo haven't figured that out by now
men just do the dirty work women don't want to do

My penis

take your pills, retards

all that does is let afabs win

how? that's fucking stupid, shut up

Can't, I get blood tests every three months for an unrelated issue and I'd be outed lightening fast.

they want men tamed like wild animals

sucks, do it anyway

until it isn't, and suddenly all your alternatives are harder too

Yes.
I literally can't.
I don't know what this means.

you are an animal, hrt changes your behavior, women want men to be less aggressive

yes, you can

I don't give a fuck what women want though?
Anon I have to spend a week hyping myself up to drive to the grocery store, you don't understand the level of avoidant anxiety you are dealing with here.

if you feel the need to take hrt, you do though
women don't want to risk impregnation or rape by an autistic man

you don't understand the level of avoidant anxiety you are dealing with here

I've lost people and jobs to my avoidance and shutting down from the outside world entirely, trust me I get it, but you're only making that problem and others worse too by keeping this up and not facing your shit

schizocel

there is nothing wrong with that, and there is nothing wrong with people who have gender dysphoria treating it by taking hormones either

I just think I'd get disgusted looks if I'm outed on 3 months of it and not getting the security of boymoding it for a while and getting ffs and such. So I either need to escape this other medical issue somehow or I'm doomed.

some people might notice, yeah, and some of those people might not be kind - you can't avoid that entirely

It's not really a 'might'. I'm talking about the doctor doing blood tests. Random strangers won't care to comment, for the most part. "That guy looks weird." Nobody cares. No, but the doctor is going to see my hormones change and as I said, that's a long talk that probably ends with being forced to do this through official channels which is a lot more judgement and exposure than I want.

why is that not viable? why not just do it "legit" if you can, anyway?

Because I can't handle having to talk to a psychiatrist and an endo about it and being exposed about it to them and my other doctor (and of course, any involved nurses and assistants.) Especially not early on when I'm just an awkward, skinny guy who only barely looks a little feminine, is still hairy, and all that other stuff. I'd only feel a little safe being exposed after I've been through a lot of it.

why not?

pretty sure blood tests don't show t and e levels unless you order that particular test

What alternatives?

full troonout, social transition and everything, or just medical transition with hormones, or something in between

just exchanging one set of problems for another.

nah, they're problems with dramatically different outcomes and ranges of possible ways to respond - transition isn't a cure and isn't perfect or easy but repression doesn't work

but repression doesn't work

says random person on the internet.

SLUT is an acronym which stands for Submissive, Loyal, Uninhibited, Treasured. I love every single one of you sluts.

I'm cripplingly shy and very susceptible to shame.
They must, because I saw my test numbers on my paperwork once when talking to the doctor.

you can still do it

Someone braver could, but someone braver wouldn't be in repgen.

nah, I lurked here for a while before I decided it didn't make any sense and I had to do something

Right now, I'm just coping with targeted exercises and voice training. Things I can do without anyone knowing. Much more comfortable to me that way.

it's good that you're doing something, but you can't put off taking hormones forever if you don't want it to keep getting worse

My wrists. Because I am thin.

TPD btw total pinkpiller death