I recently got a job as a cashier at a supermarket and decided it would be a good idea to boymode instead of telling them im trans because I thought it would be awkward.
Since I am new I have someone near me making sure I am doing the job properly, I introduced myself as my deadname, didn't use my trained voice and just decided that id rather deal with some dysphoria than the awkwardness. I get to my first day and I'm being watched by a manager, and over and over I get called she, even while using my untrained voice and having my hair in a pony tail.
Being on HRT has made my mannerisms change subconciously, so I act and talk in a girly way without really realizing. It didnt help at all that the person watching me was a dude and I feel like he could totally tell what was going on as basically 90% of customers would call me she until they read my name tag, some would say that it didn't match and that I didn't look like my deadname, others would apologize.
Every time I met a new co worker it was the same thing, They meet me, they call me she, and then they read my name tag and apologize, and now I am kinda regretting not just girlmoding. Its ironic that in my attempt to avoid awkwardness by boymoding it became awkward because I guess I suck at it. I also look alot younger than I am so I got comments abt how I looked to young to work there even though im 19.
If ur wondering what I look like its like literally just the boymode character, I can post a picture of me if needed. Should I just girlmode and get it over with?