Yes but you don't act like you're going to die of cancer within the next few weeks until a doctor actually diagnoses you with cancer and tells you you will die soon. There's a difference
I hate my bpd tranny life
I got in a relationship with one of the most despicable demographics
it went to shit
im freaking the fuck out because my ex said they wont see me again without treatment so i want treatment as fast as possible because if i do have bpd i know that takes a long time and every day without them feels like needles in my eyes
Or maybe you got abused by a poly amab enby (which is more likely than having BPD) and got brainwashed into believing you're the problem for wanting to be treated like a human being
no I abused THEM. its not even close. its not even in question
i would literally once a week or more explode at them over nothing. it could be something like they didnt call me when they were out. or they didnt want to fuck me when i was drunk. or they didnt want me to start crying and apologizing for my last freakout in front of our friends when we were hanging out when they had already forgiven me and nobody even brought it up. or they went out with their other gf while i was at work which we all agreed on so that we would have as much time together as possible.
none of that shit is a normal reaction. its definitely not a normal reaction for me to be berating them for hours on end about it and then to break down in guilt and get suicidal after it ends and i realize what i was just doing when my senses come back
meet amazing amab enby
start dating
stopped reading here
sage
doctors are such complete shit
they never want to diagnose bpd when it seems so many of you have it.
otoh, I think the appropriate treatment for bpd is the woodchipper.
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I used to be like this and it only got better when I stepped back and stopped trying to feed it. No matter if you have bpd or not you're trying to complete yourself with other people which, if not overtly destructive, is still preventing you from being able to emotionally regulate which harms all aspects of your life. If you jump back into a relationship without figuring out how to feel secure in your own skin this pattern will repeat itself, guaranteed. Except this time it'll hurt more and you'll be more desperate because you've seen how it ends. What it took for me was taking a break from dating for a year so I could relearn how to enjoy my own presence. Is that excruciating? Absolutely. But being doomed to implode any relationship you enter is way more painful. It really doesn't matter how saintlike or abusive the other party is. Everyone wants time to themself, and if they don't you should run.
t. bpd diagnosed 22yo mtf
i've been abused by people with bpd, i feel like i have a good grasp on it. the DSM isn't a holy scripture and there's a lot more context in it besides just a list of symptoms.
to be honest, just going off of this thread, you don't really sound like you have bpd. you do sound like you have severe low self esteem and, yes, you probably also have depression. the fact that you're a 'complete shutin' doesn't help. did you socialise much throughout life?
turning your relationship """poly""" is practically setting yourself up for the worst time of your life when you have low self esteem. stick to monogamy. your ex armchair diagnosed you because he's a cunt and wanted to write off your feelings.
just so you know. there's no actual treatment for bpd, the therapy is bullshit and won't cure you of it. all seeking this specific diagnosis will do is put an ugly mark on your record for the rest of your life. exhaust your other options before you stop at bpd. a lot of things look like bpd on the surface.
what have your past relationships looked like op?
the therapy is bullshit and won't cure you of it
actually i don't like how i worded this, the therapy itself isn't bullshit but people act like it does more for bpd than it actual does. it's like ABA therapy for them, it corrects behaviors it doesnt get rid of the underlying issue. they still feel their feelings, they just learn to not put themselves into a cycle.
i've heard DBT can also be good for non-bpd people. do you actually need a diagnosis to access it wehre you live?