Why am i alone no matter what i do...

how old are u anon?

Feeling = / = validated experience. You can't say something like 'I feel like 9-11 was caused by jews' and then say 'My experience is completely real' just justify your conspiracy theory. The conspiracy theory is based on feelings not fact. Just because the matter has to do with your emotions doesn't mean everything you feel about the matter is correct. You can't see that when you crash out. So no crying doesn't make you correct. Again you cant vent though. It's not a longterm solution and you will find yourself where you are rn, again. And you will not know why, you will only feel why. And that isn't good enough to save you longterm.

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'I feel like 9-11 was caused by jews'

thats an opinion, you feel its true. i described what has happened to me, you cant change what happened to me. it may not happen to others but it happened to me, so obviously thats my reality, its specific to me.
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There is no your reality and my reality anon there's just reality and not reality. Even your brain is just chemistry that can be broken down and understood. So when someone gives you some advice if you actually want to fix a problem you should stop fishing for advice that agrees with you and just be open minded, because there are things people can point out about your experience that you don't understand. Especially at 19 years old.

when did u transition? 19 is much too early to be dooming like this. do u live in a place where it's hard 2 make friends?

same I’ve spent so much of my life alone it’s basically become a core part of my psyche and I don’t think its fixable now

you think i havent tried to be open minded before? im not a bad person, i try to be a good person and i just get mistreated, abused, stalked, and anything else along those lines. i dont want to hurt anybody.

Especially at 19 years old

this immediately falls apart when you realize there are people much older than me that are just like me and are also completely correct, you cant put an age on experiences and pain
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19 is much too early to be dooming like this

read what i said to the other anon

do u live in a place where it's hard 2 make friends

friends that just abuse me for being trans? no thats very easy. friends that are actually meaningful and understand and connect me? fucking impossible

im sorry anon. did something happen recently to make you feel this bad or have you been feeling like this for a long time? i can relate to a lot of the things you're saying but i also know that it gets better. it really does.

Hi OP, want to go on a date?

my whole life ive been abused my staff members and peers in school for being autistic, my own race especially hates people like me and even more so lgbt people. and especially trans people. i dont fit in here

you know i really want to bleach my skin right? its fucking awful here, i gets strange looks all the time. i cant find anybody hahahahaha

my own race especially hates people like me

do u mean ur ethnicity? are they transphobic?

youll trigger me and ill abuse you. you also cant handle me because im too autistic and mental. you dont know what youre getting into. go find a white tranny instead theyre much better than a shitskin like me too.

yes, mexicans

Sorry I'm not racist so your self hate gimmick isn't gonna work on me

all white people are racist, even if you claim not to be you are filled with a deep sense of disgust that you swallow to not come off as insensitive, i know how you work

also funny how you disregarded everything else i said but respond to the racism directly, you just proved my point. you also cannot handle me

I'm not saying older people are necessary wiser than you. But there are some lessons that can only be learned through years of experience. So it is very unlikely for you to have learned all of the experience based lessons you will come across over the course of 19 years. Some of these lessons even the dumbest of our population can learn, just due to sheer time. So you should not be trying so hard to predict the future. You should focus on making wise decisions. You cannot do that when you are biased. ->

you think i havent tried to be open minded before

I don't know, and don't care (no offense) you just weren't being open minded when you first replied to me. Although perhaps I shouldn't call it that. More like being way too emotional and biased in your response to solve any problem. You sort of have a fundamental misunderstanding of when it is and isn't appropriate to refer to how you feel when it comes to solving a problem. Your feelings aren't always relevant. Phrases like "your reality" and "my reality" makes it clear you don't care about bias and you're not open minded.

You sort of have a fundamental misunderstanding of when it is and isn't appropriate to refer to how you feel when it comes to solving a problem. Your feelings aren't always relevant. Phrases like "your reality" and "my reality" makes it clear you don't care about bias and you're not open minded.

so if i was raped you would say this if i were to react negatively to sex or relationships? i havent been raped, but i have a reaction to things because of things that previously happened and youre downplaying and trivializing them by what youre saying

im open to everything but good luck trying to change my mind, ill always be open to changing my mind if it benefits me but you have to be correct.

I wouldn't say it if you were raped because it is too mean not because it isn't correct.

Do you remember what I said about 9/11? I said that if someone calls their emptional reaction their "EXPERIENCE" that is a word game. The word game is that by calling it something general like an EXPERIENCE, their emotional reaction seems warranted and accurate. Ecen though their conspiracies theory is just based on their FEELINGS and not anything factual. (Sorry for caps btw)

When you say I'm downplaying your REACTION, you are doing the same thing as the conspiracy theorist. I am not here to tell you to FEEL LESS. I am here to tell you to acknowledge the FACTS OF YOUR SITUATION. These are two different things. Using the word REACTION which is more general and sounds less biased than FEELINGS doesn't make you less biased.

all the normies get in relationships without doing that, and when you finally get there you feel like surrounded by a different species

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Getting a relationship that will break or keep you trapped because you're unhealthy

I'm not setting OP up for that.

nta, but she's actually pretty smart to realise all reality is mental

I am not white and all the other stuff you said just stems from the self hate

I said that if someone calls their emptional reaction their "EXPERIENCE" that is a word game

i have emotional reactions to things that happened TO ME. TRAUMA THAT HAS OCCURED, and you are DOWNPLAYING THAT

even if youre not white or the same race as me or whatever, youll still hate me because of everything else about me

Not all of reality is mental. I don't know what philosophy youtuber you got that from but it isn't helping OP and it doesn't help anyone facing problems they cannot simply cope about. OP is experiencing a real contradiction between her expectations and reality. You by saying this, are feeding her poison. That's the opposite of the realization she needs. And she is currently using your message as a cruch to avoid personal accountability out of the somewhat understandable gut reaction of not wanting to be blamed for being hurt in part by others. Will you please be quite lol.

it doesn't help anyone facing problems they cannot simply cope about

so youre saying the problems i face are real and i cant cope with them? example: being unable to make friends because im a loser, that is a problem i have. youre saying i cant cope with the fact that is true

fair enough

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Here's an example of what I mean since I haven't actually told you why you're contradicting yourself yet.

i dont care about a relationship everyone else does and they make me care about it too.

This is avoiding personal accountability. While it may or may not be true that they made it so you've had no choice but to care up until now, you do care. You cannot simply cope and say you don't care, you can't address the problem if you do not accept that it is apart of you. Exactly like I said in my first message here ->. whose fault it is doesn't matter. It won't get fixed any other way.

ive done nothing wrong and people decide to hate and drop me for not doing anything.

Weakness is wrong, edgy I know, but true. Again if you can't acknowledge you are weak and that you are the one that needs to change, since the enviornment will not change, you will not grow. It's that simple, you cannot keep blaming your environment; the fact is people worse off and better off than you have what you want, a relationship. It is possible no matter how you look at it, so the enviornment is clearly not the issue. It is you.

There are cases where the enviornment really can hold you back completely but this isn't one of those cases. Because there are steps that you are not taking and there are things that you are doing that are holding you back. Like blameshifting pointlessly.

It is not true, I'm saying if you keep coping you will continue to fail. So you cannot simply cope.

as a female

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so you want me to take accountability? should i fucking scream at people and murder them? i dont do anything wrong and people remain shit, i get stepped on and im fucking tired of it

It is not true

it is quite literally true and i face it every time i try to make a friend, im always dropped and ghosted then im sent deeper than i was before. you dont seem to understand that though

Not all of reality is mental.

Except that it is, as a basic principle of existence. And fundamental incompatibility issues are not solved by personal accountability or whatever it is you're talking about. Fitting in a self harming configuration is not growth.

You need two things. You need a consistent source of happiness. And you need to stop blaming anything other than yourself. That ensures growth.

People are generally shit yes. That is not a problem though it is your dependence on them: You enjoy blaming them, using them to vent, throwing your energy at them, etc. Stop it.

You should only have energy for two things.

Your consistent source of happiness, and yourself. That ENSURES growth.

I would get a real friend. Or alternatively. Get on medication, and get a hobby you really love.

^That is all you can do for a consistent source of happiness. Ideally it should be your family that provides this. But many families are broken. That is why you are not a normie, who seemingly has endless energy and friends and relationship doesnt needs drugs to make up for childhood induced chemical imbalance etc.

Instead your family probably gave you shitty genes and they gave you abuse. That is why many turn out like us.

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And you need to stop blaming anything other than yourself.

They need to stop the blaming period. And look for people that are different, or more intelligent. And forget about the normies entirely.

goodbye my friend

You need two things. You need a consistent source of happiness. And you need to stop blaming anything other than yourself. That ensures growth.

People are generally shit yes. That is not a problem though it is your dependence on them: You enjoy blaming them, using them to vent, throwing your energy at them, etc. Stop it.

just wait and ill give you a thread where i blame everything on myself, this isnt that thread though, so deal with it

I would get a real friend

real friends dont exist here, theyre all fake, talk bad about me behind closed doors, abuse me, and everything else in between.

Get on medication

i am on medication, it doesnt do anything. its all placebo

You, a human, would be so arrogant as to presume value in the human race?
Funny.

Extremely biased. You can't be helped. That's fine, continue your behavior.

Basic principle of existence

What is this fundamentalist crap lol. No offense but I'm not engaging with this. If you wont offer the mechanical explanatiom behind what you think is basic you probably shouldn't have philosophical discussions. No one who has these discussions with regularity or reads philosophy takes the word basic for granted like that, it would immediately come off as ill-informed because philosphy is the study of fundamental truths not just the assertion of them for the sake of internet arguments. There are epistemological, ontological, teleological etc. flavors of the word basic.

I've seen enough of these academics with one part of their brain jacked to cosmos and another barely functioning, circling wagons over the most obvious faults in their "reasoning". And if i want a discussion i'm definitely not begging for a permit.

sit down ur not that guy pal. ur just not that guy.

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Not how greentext works.

should i explain mechanically?

Nah you should use asterisks when you RP.

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See that? Those were made just for you buddy.

This is why you never get it. I'm off to sleep, bye.