this film made me so incredibly sad. even if i manage to stealth and girlmode after years of struggling, i will essentially mentally be a man forever because my most formative years were all spent as a miserable mentally unstable teenage boy. i will never have a childhood remotely similar to any cis woman.
i'm pretty sure this is what so called "agps" really mean when they talk about they experiences. of course going through male puberty is going to cause irreversable mental changes to us. if we were given the information and help needed to transition at 10, we might have mentally been very similar to cis women, but now there is no saving us from the mentality we're trapped in.
i just can't remotely relate to or understand womanhood. i'm a transbian and my taste in women is malebrained and gross. i literally undress attractive women in my mind and imagine myself cuddling with them.