Be me 24 hrt femboy 3 years on hrt (probably just trans in denial but I don't have the emotional energy for that...

be me 24 hrt femboy 3 years on hrt (probably just trans in denial but I don't have the emotional energy for that discussion)

sex worker

regularly hookup with this one client who's a single father

reminds me of my dad alot

tall black hair and green eyes

he's 37 ish

he's always tired when he calls me over

usually in the middle of the day on his day off, or in the dead of night in his car in his garage while his kids are asleep

he's literally such a sweet man

always talking about his kids (like 7 and 9 respectively. Also they're totally adorable.)

always asks for the same role play

wants me to pretend I'm his wife who passed from cancer two years ago

on the days where he has a day off while his kids are at school, I cook, talk to him about work, watch a movie with him, and then we usually have slow, gentle sex in bed

he lies on his back and I ride him, while I tell him how proud I am of him for working so hard

he actually has pretty good stamina, takes usually around 45 mins of slow riding to make him cum

after he cums he usually feels really guilty, needing me to comfort him and tell him he's not a creep, or a pervert for this, that he's just a man with needs

he insists on doing aftercare, and he's very good at it

when it's in the car it usually means he's pent up so there's less role-playing

usually just leans the seat back, bends me over and goes berserk on my ass

he's pretty big, like a little over 7 inches

not the most insane I've taken but it's pretty absurd especially with how girthy it is

he's my favorite client by far

kind, respectful, and he always overpays by a little

yesterday we were talking and he asked me why I do this job I mentioned how I need the job to pay for hrt and rent

he gives me a sad look and offers to pay for both

only stipulation is that I don't hook up with other guys besides him anymore

Anons, should I do it? Tbh, if he asked me to date him I'd say yes. I just feel like I'm taking advantage of his kindness... :(

just be his wife this is how ur supposed to escape sex trade assuming he's safe ish anyway

If you want to get out of sex work sure. Maybe go back to school now that your bills are paid.
Try to get him to pay for some other surgeries too tho eventually

this has to be a larp i refuse to let this be real. in case it is i would recommend bringing this up with him. maybe not immediately if you’re worried he’d get skittish but take him up on the offer and bring it up later. tell him you don’t want to exploit his kindness and how you’re open to being with him if that’s what he wants

Okay. I'll tell him that. I just don't wanna feel like a gold digger or something, especially with a guy as nice as him

I don't wanna take advantage of him. He works really hard and I'd feel guilty just being a gold digger for him to support. :(

just be his wife

God I wish lol. I know he's not over his current wife. That's part of why I haven't asked him out. I feel like he'd think I'm trying to replace her or something. I just genuinely like this man. And I'd like to get out of sex work, but I really don't like taking advantage of people...

he's literally the one taking advantage of you

How lol? I'm not being forced into anything and I could stop at any time. He's totally respectful and chill. I don't see how he's taking advantage of me at all.

Op, if you genuinely want him, then go ahead and be with him.
obviously, voice whatever concerns you might have about the potential relationship with him and don't rush into things.
It seems like both of you want to be together, hopefully you're ready to be a step-mom.

Yeah I guess. It's true he holds power over me. But like, I'm a gender confused boygirlthing. Literally everybody holds power over me.

I hope it can be you some day anon! Hopefully minus the sex work lol this shit sucks hard.

it seems like you already know what you're gonna do, just remember to let him know about your concerns about feeling like you might be taking advantage of him and other things.
Seriously, stay safe. If you're gonna be with him, don't let him convince you to get rid of your bank account, try to get a more conventional part-time job and build a strong support network of good quality friends (either other lgbt ppl, lgbt activists or trustworthy cis-women) that aren't connect to him, just in case he does turn out to be a bad guy.
I honestly hope it works out for you two, but always have a plan for the worst possible outcome.
Prioritise building a strong support network pls.
T. grew up in an abusive household and had sisters and friends that were abused in their relationships

OP this is a talk you need. When it comes to important relationships in you're life, don't think about them in terms like "what does this person do FOR me." That's bad, it just makes you manipulative and makes all your relationships less meaningful. Instead think about people like "what does this person mean to me?"
A disgusting piece of shit could buy you a Ferrari but you still have to deal with a disgusting piece of shit. But if a person genuinely makes you happy and provides fulfillment then that's irreplaceable.

What if they think I'm trying to replace their real mom?

If this is something you think about then start leaning into it. This is a hard thing to do. You can't actually replace a mother but that shouldn't make them immediately hate you. I think you seem well adjusted and are at least aware of that.

But get some hobbies or talents other than sucking dick. If baking or fixing clothes or cleaning appeals to you then get busy. If you like shopping, you can shop for kids and justify it.

I do wanna be open to love. I just feel like he and his kids deserve somebody functional. Somebody better than me. I'm literally a whore off the street. How can I be a role model to his kids? :(

I'll remember to be safe!

i think a empathetic and carrying presence is most important imp

How can I be a role model to his kids?

You don't have to worry about this really since they're both boys. If you imprint on them as a good mother figure then it will affect what they expect from a good wife of their own.
Just never tell them what you did before you met whoever. Like I said, get another skill lol

This is all so complicated and nerve wracking lol. Before I was a sex worker I was in college studying for computer science. Part of me wants to accept the offer ask him to help me make it through college, that way I can pay him back for all the help. But there's another part that's like "he's offering to make you not a whore anymore why the fuck are you asking for more you selfish cunt" you know?

I try :( I just worry I'm doing the wrong thing all the time.

Oh for sure. If this actually happens then I'm taking the sex work stuff to my fucking grave ×_×

i think that’s the most normal feeling in the world, it’s about trying your best and being understanding and letting love show

Paying for college is a big financial burden.
People on here giving good advice for shitters like "be up front with your expectations and demands" but actual men are kind of deep and complicated. Like he might gladly be willing to help you out, and he might feel obliged to do that if he's taking your income away from you.
If you need to broach the topic because you know DEBT than do that.

"hey uhh if I'm romantic with you... which I want to be... how can I pay for school???!!"

You might be surprised. Just be modest in what you need and expect...

How is your school going? If you have connections, like have interned already, have letters of recommendation lined up, connections? then definitely stay in school. If you're bottom of the pack then sex work might be more fun and profitable than really low-level outsourceable programming. If you're on some scholarship thing that's another story, but you can always keep the credits for later.
Of course there's more strategies. If you don't have to work, you could pick up x/y/z internships or study harder. He might see you as a great investment if he sees the both of you working jobs.
Men are complicated, they'll think and think and hide it all.

Part of me wants to accept the offer ask him to help me make it through college, that way I can pay him back for all the help.

if you seriously intend on being with him and supporting him just as much as he's supposedly willing to support you, then the only way to figure out the answers to all these questions and concerns is to write them down and discuss them with him.
Obviously, don't just ambush him with that shit and be willing to listen and discuss whatever questions and concerns he might have as well.
If you two can't come to a healthy compromise after a few of those discussions, then it just isn't meant to be, but hopefully you two can figure it out.
Remember, real relationships are about supporting each-other. You can't support each-other if you both haven't properly discussed what you both want and need (including boundaries).

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Like my family has money (but they're all retired really so I can't just work for them, and they expect me to either study or work). So I don't have to work through school. Now that I'm more mature I understand I have a golden opportunity to do something I want to do, so I'm putting in serious effort, making a 4.0, I have a research grant actually, have a school-funded internship actually, you know the things... still undergraduate.
If you have nothing going for you other than A DEGREE then talk to the university office and see if you can take a break if you need to, to feel things out, if it won't hurt you.
Look at this! beautiful.

If you're bottom of the pack then sex work might be more fun and profitable than really low-level outsourceable programming

I'm not the anon you replied to, but I really need to address that point.
sex work isn't anywhere near as easily scalable when it comes to increasing one's income, especially in comparison to programming.
Unless OP wants to go into online stuff like OnlyFans?? But that runs the risk of becoming too popular to have a normal life.

Yeah programming can be a great job and it's also LEGAL but personally if STDs didn't exist then I would 100% prefer to suck dick/get pounded than fucking code. Also the programming market is saturated and the whole industry kind of looks like it's ready to cannibalize itself with the whole programming robot thing. Not that it will, but they're trying to.

personally if STDs didn't exist then I would 100% prefer to suck dick/get pounded than fucking code

welp, STDs do exist and knowing how to program opens more doors that just opening your mouth/legs.
having a good understanding of computer science is a lot easier to market to future employers than sex work. Even if you eventually need to switch industry, you having a concrete qualification in programming shows a willingness to learn or some other positive business bullshit characteristics.

You're absolutely right. I'm just so pessimistic about the meme degree where people pay a fuck ton of money for the opportunity to get a good job, and then everyone else had that idea, and they didn't really stand out, then you don't really get the opportunity you thought you would AND you have some retarded amount of debt. Too many people graduate to retail, but hey at least the school is making money.
Whoring isn't career that's meant to last but at least there's no real up-front investment at the door other than your dignity.

have no real advice but this sounds so precious. he sounds like a really sweet and amazing guy nona. i would set aside time to talk to him about literally everything you mentioned in this thread, all your fears, your wants, your doubts; lay it on him and listen to how he feels about everything. tell him you feel like you're taking advantage of him, of how you might not feel like you're enough for his kids, how you feel like you might just be a replacement for his wife, where you might want to take your future, etc etc etc. if you really like him, like LOVE him, you need to be able to bear it all to him and try to understand each other before making any commitments. let him sit on everything and let him talk and then come to a decision later, but it is so so important to communicate everything you're feeling about the situation and learn how he feels as well. imagine how happy you would be with him if everything worked out....

please don't be a larp please let one of us make it please find your happiness nona..... rooting for you so hard <3

kind of unrelated but i don't know how people end up getting into sex work despite previously having been in something normal like college. it's not something i would actually do, but i think about it sometimes because of how much i hate my current wagie job i had to get after the software industry imploded

hey, did you know that there's this company called "data annotation" and they're looking for coders to give feedback on the output from their AI/machine learning stuff?
it's probably shit, but it can't be worse than wagie work.