Were you always trans?

I'm a 30 year old cis male with a thick, hairy cock.

Good for you

Thank you.

I don't believe you, post proof

17, tried corssdressing and felt dysphoric from how much of an agp gigahon i looked like in my agp femboy clothes

No I never had any "unexplained dysphoria" before that point, i was happy before i got rogd so it's been very bad. Doesn't help it's over for me passing wise in fact the only reason i got it was because it was over for me passing wise

Yes please can i be a normal moid again i miss it i still remember

I'm pretty sure either my aunts or my mom dressed me as a girl when they went shopping, my first memories are of me trying to take away a dress, but they said it was just me trying to take off some overalls with an Amelia Earhart patch which is bullshit because I have other memories of me, older, and helping my aunt with her clothes and then putting on a skirt while she was "looking away".
Also, when they talked about me, they kept making comments about how cute I was and how everyone confused me with a girl.

So, very young.

proably 12 or 13
no
no

Jesus Christ

my aunt also has pictures of me in dresses and makeup when i was a kid.

I realized when I was around 11-12 due to being on the internet a lot. I had dysphoria moments multiple times before that but I didn't know what it meant.
My life has improved, even though I'm not on hormones I pass half of the time. Also, my friends support me.
I would not want to go back to a time of ignorance. I love who I am

At what age did you realize?

wanted to be a girl at 12 but i didn't know about hrt

Has your life improved since?

since I was 12? No
since I started hrt? No

If you could go back to a time of ignorance, would you?

yes

At what age did you realize?

Since i was 10, at 11 i was suffering even more

Has your life improved since?

I'd say dramatically, i feel like i can truly feel a bit more comfortable with myself while also expressing myself in a more true manner ig

If you could go back to a time of ignorance, would you?

mmmmmmm nah lol

are you the psych who judges over my legal sex change? If so:
I was already wearing pink dresses in my mothers womb

At what age did you realize?

Realise desire to be born a woman? Then its 12.
Realise that trannysm is a thing? Ironically, it was only at 19 when transitioning was banned in my country.

Has your life improved since?

No.

If you could go back to a time of ignorance, would you?

I wish I have just kms after graduating high school instead of being agp lateshit.

At what age did you realize?

At 10 I started wishing I was a girl and at 14 I figured out I was trans. Before that it didn't matter whether I am boy or girl most of the time.

Has your life improved since?

yeah, being a child sucks

If you could go back to a time of ignorance, would you?

hell no

In the I really wish I was the opposite sex sense, since earliest memories of cross-gender socialization. I remember when I found out about trans people later I really admired them and dreamed of transitioning. I remember reading about srs and being really sad about complications. Conceptually I disagreed with dsm4 GID, I remember making jokes about XID, anything followed by identity disorder, the rhetoric of x trapped in y and conceptually that you could ever be meant to be/do anything was/is repulsive. I looked up the path to getting on hrt pretty much as soon as I knew about it, but parental consent being required for anything was always a sure way to rule out it happening, even if I wanted to diy options were limited at the time, I didn't really have access to the available payment options, parents would ransack my room frequently and I was isolated from friends that probably wouldn't want to help anyway. At that phase of my life I was pubescent, deathly sick, dealt with some typical school bullying, parents being abusive and I was just really on edge all the time. For a while I would barricade my room, kept a kitchen knife to stab my abdominal aorta, twist and maybe jump out the window if I couldn't deal with the added stress of my parents at home. Now as an adult I'm just really cynical about my prospects if I transition, even at youngshit ages I was really cynical about it and I can't really imagine passing. I stopped growing early, but some proportions always seemed like a bit much and my voice is doomed. I think my face is maybe not that bad, I have malefailed a lot just going through daily life, but I can't really bring myself to view it as proof of any passoid potential when behemoths with long hair will occasionally malefail.

Depends how you define it really.
I always felt like a girl but that doesn't mean youre trans perse.
I know when I learned about trans people, I thought, oh that's what I need!
But I also don't like to think about things like medical treatment being part of the fabric of nature. It's like we're trying to mix oil and water.

knew at 5 but didnt realize transitioning was an option until i was 12

its been shit from the start. only better bc im on my own far from my family

id probably try to force my parents to let me transition with suicide attempts

> At what age did you realize?

i don't really know what "realizing" means. i feel like i always knew, or at least was uncomfortable and yearned to be a girl. i didn't know trannies were a real thing and not a joke until i was about 12 or 13. i didn't get an opportunity to start transitioning myself until i was 25, though. until then i was bouncing from abusive household to abusive household and then to an abusive relationship, and then suffered with a drug addiction, AND THEN dissociated my early 20s away before i accepted i had to act fast.

> Has your life improved since?

since i started transitioning, yes.

> If you could go back to a time of ignorance, would you?

no

1.) 13, had very few signs from 6 but could never draw their dots that was because I was trans.

2.) Kinda stayed the same. No one knows but I get on okay.

3.) yeah and get on a waiting list so I don’t have to diy. (Not started yet)

knew at 9

it hasn’t, at all

no

i was happy before i got rogd

How does rodg happen? Can it happen to anyone? Ive never thought about it but can a formerly nondysphoric person suddenly just really hate their body that much? I feel like it has to coincide with some type of trauma or hormonal event, no just wake up one day and dislike the figure you used to enjoy seeing in the mirror

i've been wearing panties for sexual thrils since I was 9yrs old. still not trans.

repetitive exposure to body dysmorphia ideas, self hatred and trans ideas

someone may develop dysphoria cuz they interpret those things as dysphoria and not just body dysmorphia or general discomfort with their current situation

then why post

probably because the thread didn't say "trans only". I'm surprised there aren't more posts from cis people just saying "nah, never"

9-12

my life is better now in my 30s after decades of suffering, detransitioning, and other stuff.

no i wouldn't want to go back in time I would have just been an alcoholic or something.

At what age did you realize?

Late 30s

Has your life improved since?

Yes. Immensely.

If you could go back to a time of ignorance, would you?

I would rather die than go back.

late 30s

srry if this sounds rude but how did u realize that late? or did u have like rogd and didn’t even wanna troon before?

3 years old was when I first started wondering why I was being treated like a boy when I was supposed to be a girl. There was no time of ignorance for me.

Dysphoria induced depersonalization symptoms is how. Not having access to your subconscious makes it hard to figure out wtf is wrong with you. I'd known there was *something* wrong with me since I was 14 but it took me 20+ years to figure out what it was.

3 months on HRT and my depersonalization symptoms started to go away, and now I no longer have a sucking black void where my soul was supposed to be.

age

13

has life improved?

My gender dysphoria has improved. My life has had ups and downs, not all of my suffering comes from dysphoria. But, right now, I'm doing pretty well overall

would I go back to a time of ignorance?

nah, I'd just rather not be a guy

emily?

always was felt a lil strange about myself but it didn't click until like 11-12

in some aspects yes

no but I wish it went differently

I have no idea, wish i did so i could fix it. I mean unless i was traumatized from looking like a gigahon and not cute when i tried crossdressing that one time that gave me dysphoria i have no idea. It's very strange that I've fallen into this obsession
I mean i never really had any body dysmorphia beforehand at all and any dysmorphia is related to not looking female enough, given that it started with me being too masculine to be a femboy. I wouldn't say i hated myself much either back then i liked myself i mean maybe i hated myself for wanting to crossdress like a faggot but aside from that life was good. And idk about the trans issues thing either, i def knew about trans stuff and was like supportive ig but i never thought much of it.

I always disregard when people call transgender stuff “mind virus” but genuine cases of rogd make me wonder if maybe there’s something to it

feelings started before kindergarten but not really recognized til about 3rd grade; middle school it was constantly on my mind & i dreamed & wished every night that i could be a girl; by hs i finally had a pc & googled one day for "wanting to be a girl" & discovered the existence of trans people & what i was; i was happy & fully accepted it; came out about 6wks later; i was 15; abusive mother wasn't very accepting & eventually turned all discussions of transness into violent arguments

family collapsed in the next 2 years & i was thrown into horrible hopeless poverty at the edge of homelessness until about 2014 when things started to improve a bit for our situation; then i was diagnosed with severe ulcerative colitis; it took my life & hobbies away from me within 18 months & i couldn't even sit at my desk anymore; became bedridden; obamacare wouldn't cover the meds i needed that might have helped so drs kept giving me prednisone to stop my bleeding; several long hospitalizations & blood transfusions were needed; & in 2018 i fractured my spine because the prednisone had given me osteoporosis

i recovered over 2019/2020 at home with no treatment except for the pain bc my mom refused to take me to the other hospital & i wouldn't go back to the normal one because a dr had abused & traumatized me there during my 2mo stay several weeks before i fractured at home

finally in 2020 i was getting better again & got an iphone & dating app & got on hrt; my mom stopped fighting me on it; then she had a stroke & was removed from my life; i would have been homeless but my pso2 bf saved my life & moved me from CA->PA; then i met my ex gf/bestie on the same game & 7mo later she moved me to her state to live with her family; then i ruined my life over another girl i loved; then 1/15/25 i met my wife; she proposed on our first date & we married at end of summer

very happy now but still crippled/in pain everyday

i would never not be transfem; my life started with hrt

cuz im still mildly agp