Okay lemme preface this by saying yes, I'm aware of the whole
be me not gay
gayest shit ever
Thing okay? This isn't that. I'm genuinely confused here.
be me 19 year old straight cisgender boy
pretty jockish, played football in highschool
not crazy popular but pretty normal
have had a girlfriend before but broke things off when she moved away with her family
never once had a sexual attraction to any guy
until last month
dad is decently well connected so he sets me up with a well paying desk job
I'm a decent bit taller and more muscular than most of the guys around
I'm 6'1 and 230
meet boss
holyshit.jpg
he's fucking huge
like, 6'6, and if I had to guess at LEAST 270 pounds
his hands are massive
deep blue eyes
his voice is deep as fuck
the best way I can describe how he looks is take the guy from the gigga Chad meme, and replace his face with arkham Bruce Wayne, keeping the facial hair
his voice is very resonant when he speaks up
he's very Dominant but not in like the "you will do as I say or else" kinda way like insecure douches
he just tells you what he wants you to get done in a kind and amicable way, he's easy to talk to and always willing to help you work through stuff
but his requests don't feel like requests
they feel like he's stating a fact even if he's asking a question
"hey I'd appreciate it if you'd do this" feels like "this thing will be done by you. It is as inevitable as the sunrise."
idk how to explain it
ever since I first met him last month every waking moment of my life is full of the most fucking cringe gay thought
I want him to touch me, and make me do things for him, I want to hear him praise me, I want to feel his hands on my body so fucking bad
pic is the closest to how he looks I could find online
Wtf is happening to me?? I'm not fucking gay but I can't get it out of my head. What do I do anons?