thread for fags/trannies/dykes/etc. with borderline personality disorder to discuss their experiences with it
QOTT
Do you think you will ever "get better"?
What's the most retarded thing you've done during an episode?
/bpdgen/ - bpdemon general
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are broken bird chasers allowed?
sure man, just be bpd brain rotted and nobody will fight u here
istg I'm so retarded I couldn't figure out what you meant cause I read it as "broken. . . . bird chasers" like why are you chasing birds? I'd say I need more sleep but I alr slept like 10 hours today, so no clue what would fix me
to be loved unconditionally would fix me personally
yeah same
do you think you will ever get better
yes im deluding myself into believing as such so I don't kill myself
most retarded thing done during episode
bashed my leg into my bed frame, like a lot
felt like an autistic little boy having a tantrum and couldnt run cross country for a week because of it
it was over my sister not wanting to go out and get boba with me :D
Does anyone else feel weird about the word "broken"? Are you really broken if this is the way people intended to make you?
Do you think you will ever "get better"?
I think you can learn better ways to cope so yeah a bit but never really
What's the most retarded thing you've done during an episode?
idek if this one is bpd related but I once removed like basically all the skin from my sole cause it was annoying me, not too deep but deep enough to bleed in some places. It was a process that took multiple hours.
walking with that raw flesh out until it healed was very fucking shit
I think someone can intend to destroy something they've made, depends on the situation, but I think sometimes you can remake the thing they broke, like recycling an old clay pot, so who knows
holy shit
was this Uber autism or schizophrenia
what was irritating you?!?
does something retarded
calls you bpd for making them feel bad for doing said retarded thing
maybe don't be stupid?
no I think it's some weird form of OCD
happens when I get in a bad state of mind
basically like skin picking or nail biting but on steroids
I'm not like ultra into it when doing it, more like the opposite even: very calculated and robotic, I even sterilize my tools (kinda; I only got like hand sanitizer)
I could fix you
who is this directed to
oh and
what was irritating you?!?
not sure I just don't like having like extra skin there I guess
I also enjoy the feeling of starving for a similar reason; I like feeling clean and pure
hmnnn ok I get it, has it gotten any better since then? walking on raw skin sounds hellish I think id dedicate myself to bedrotting after that
I could fix you
I'm this person:
so doubt that tbdesu
got dbt and on snris and in partial remission
the monsters in my soul are howling at the bars of the prison of my mind wanting out again
want to obsess and destroy people again
hahhah whoa talk me down i like my stable calm life
oh shit ok real
ive always wanted to like molt out of my skin like a gecko but carving it out is a bit much for me
Yeah that was the worst I've ever done (at least that I can think of rn)
the starving myself got pretty bad at a certain point but I think I'm mostly over that too, cause I gotta gain weight or I'll sabotage my transition
its not worth it to ruin everything you've worked for until now, destroying others comes at the expense of yourself
Yeah I have a lot of urges like that, most of them impossible to survive sooo I just don't do that
im glad its getting somewhat better, you don't deserve to hurt even if it felt like the right idea
probably a good idea but who knows
yeah ty, slowly getting there
QOTT 1
I think I can get better yes, as in managing my actions and taking deep breaths and not immediately reacting in an extreme way, but I think my emotions will always be like this unfortunately. the goal is to mediate what I do with them and how I cope with them.
QOTT 2
burned myself because I was bored. it was only minor, just used a lighter on some metal and did a small brand, but it had a pretty gross color lol
wtf, i woke up from a dream where i had a crush on a girl(i have a bf) and my dysphoria is almost nonexistent. ahhh, who fucking am i.
ah the dyke angel has blessed you in your sleep, say thank you!
Happened to me and my ex
I repeatedly told them multiple times that I don't like it when my boyfriends talk to their exes. And what does he do? Purposely reached out to his ex. Then he's shocked I got angry...
i wanna get worse
mood
Maybe you shouldnt have given people who aren't him eye contact you cheater
do i think i’ll ever "get better"?
i think so yeah
ive made monumental progress since i last got warded, and my psych has agreed to get me off my meds. i’m still bpding every so often but im manageable and more stable
stupidest thing i’ve done during an episode
drink a bottle of irish spring liquid body wash i think
drink a bottle of irish spring liquid body wash i think
did it taste good?
no :( soap and perfume only smell good, they taste like ass
did your shit have a pink bubbly aura
What does this mean?
you CHEATED so
Oh no I was pretty isolated at the time. They were begging to speak to their ex, though