I am begging you to strongly consider medically detransitioning. You can be happy hrtless!

I live alone so I cross dress I'm not on hormones or anything but it makes me feel more emotionally stable. If I don't I go mental after a while. Should I stop? I have been going to therapy and trying to resolve the chaos in my life, I had a period where I was kinda ok with myself for a couple of years but then shit hit the fan and I started to want to troon again. I'm kinda ok with the situation now but I'm kinda disconnected from others as I don't feel like a man, but I do feel that this transgender thing is a disease in me - a delusion. No judgement on others but idk I'm trying to find a way to not go further.

So femme for myself, amab socially - ok to keep this going to keep myself emotionally stable or is this toxic as is?

I did and I am more unhappy
t. mtf

So YOU weren't trans then, ever consider that maybe every other person isn't exactly like you are?

What? I transitioned, I was trans. I took notice that the act never substantially alleviated my dysphoria. I wasn't a woman. I was a trans woman, with male sexual development. Down my path was more surgery and discomfort about my male characteristics.
'Trans' isn't a medical condition. It is a nominal description of an act done by Gender Dysphorics. I have & had Gender Dysphoria. That is not a question. It is on my medical record. Look at this board, do you see happy & fulfilled people? Would a fulfilled individual try to control the language of others, to avoid facing a fact of sexual dimorphism? Would they try to deny their partner's bisexuality? Would they conglomerate into 'queer' cliques, and isolate from broader society?

There is no "accepting your natural form" for people with brains like ours, just ineffectual self-flagellation.

That is what you believe. But it's not a fact. You are enforcing your own destitution.

Based.
Unfathomably based.
I wanna marry her.
Where can I find such level of abstracted beauty?

Tried it for 3 months and hated it. Went back on another 3 months and then tried going off another 2 weeks and hated it. I feel like this is sufficient attempt