/bpdgen/ - bpdemon general

thread for fags/trannies/dykes/etc. with borderline personality disorder to discuss their experiences with it

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who was the worst person you’ve ever obsessed over/been your FP?

who was the worst person you’ve ever obsessed over/been your FP?

another person with bpd, it was awful/wondeful

Hard to say worst desu there's some that were destructive but fun and nice people and then others that weren't a bad influence per se but were just boring pathetic losers that I can't believe I ever saw anything in

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for a month or two my FP was a sex worker from twitter who pretended to love me and got me to break years of sobriety from self-harm to carve her name into my skin as I begged her to get on the flight I paid for her to get out of an abusive relationship in florida and live with me. turns out she was a lesbian and just liked the attention lol. had to pay her to block me on everything because I didn’t have the willpower to

You got nae nae'd

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who was the worst person you’ve ever obsessed over/been your FP?

my last fp who was the most anti-male transbian ever who still told me she loved me a bunch of times even though i'm a repper

i used to smash a serial killer with at least 3 confirmed bodies i knew of.
she would cut herself if i didn't come fuck her, and she'd try hard to break her bones and sometimes succeed.
she was a black widow, her fiancé died a pretty horrifying/mysterious way and her and her fiancé killed 2 dudes one time.
when she told me i looked up in her area and 2 bodies were found in the time frame and area she mentioned.
there is alot more worse things with her but i'm not going to talk about it.

she was very hot though and her pussy was great. but she was very bpd and literally evil. but really beautiful too.
i got her pregnant a couple times and she got rid of them.

sometimes i can tell she rubbed off on me in alot of ways.
it pisses me off alot there were other girls in the mix at that time and one that did love me and we did have a long relationship after all of this happened.
but because she was so fucking slow, i ran into this demon.

she was so slow i fucked like 5 girls before she finally admitted it and broke down crying that she loved me and didnt want me to sleep with all these girls.
and i was like BITCH. WTF. WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN. WTF.

cause i didnt even like any of these girls.. i just loved her, and i felt so empty, and when i was with them i was thinking of her.

this is all before the horses.

Start feeling attached to someone

Tell them

They ghost me

gyad damn

I'm a bi cis guy dating a bi cis girl who has BPD. She has it mostly under control. I've kinda come to accept I get along best with BPD women.

stop these lies

stop denying my lived experience.
im much older than most of you and have a body count so high i lost count.
next you will say i have never been around horses.
which came after mya the lioness.
it was her idea.
me doing the horse thing, was a direct ripple of splitting with mya.

good day SIR

shes mid sir... VERY mid... i would not have fallen head over heels for her myself. what a sad little man you are, keeping souvenirs from some mid bitch that managed to convince your retarded ass that she was a serial killer. still obsessing over a 6/10. wow. i almost feel bad for you. enjoy your horses, FREAK

its not about what she looked like.
it was about who she is.

go fuck yourself, kike.

and no the bpd demon is hot irl.
i'm not showing her face.
everyone knows she's hot.

mya wasn't the hottest, but she was the best. better than everyone else i've ever met in my life.

you are errr-ah, how do you say-ah, coping?

and for souvenirs none of those things exist anymore. they're old photos from many years ago.

i want to be your friend now i take it all back you are cool beans guy

no you're just being a faggot and im about to drag your ass to kim right now.
and have some fun for old times sake.

who is kim? :0

the only two times I've fallen in love I've become destructively obsessed with girls who I had a toxic dynamic with, one I was with off and on for years with a lot of drama and one I managed to get hurt by and scare off before I think we were even really friends

I'm trying to avoid falling for anyone again

rapist + long term harasser lol, used to jerk off while we played roblox cuz he knew it made me uncomfortable when he told me after

He would vent to me sometimes, and I ended up relating to him more than I would've liked, and he used the fact that I saw him as a version of myself to convince me I was as bad as him so I couldnt judge him
I was also like 16 at the time

it’s crazy how i’m borderline but im more emotionally mature and stable then most other people in my life

i dont want to be your friend.
i want to break your bones and make you bleed
and much more.

pls no
holy shit.. maybe they are the real borderline and we are,.. normal ones?

then why are you fucking with me.
you think bpd people dont fucking exist
you think serial killers and women that get off to violence and aggression dont exist?
what the fuck is wrong with you.
i fucking hate people like you.

how much to spend 20 minutes in a room with you with a box cutter and a hammer

LITERALLY just like …. this guy has been emotionally unavailable and flaky and inconsistent… and i’ve been kind, calm, collected and consistent… who’s the one who’s supposed to have the mood disorder now

five cents
mmmmhmmmmm soul sista i cannot deny and must confess that the LORD spoke through you just now! god damn if that aint the TRUTH

hot maybe you are okay.

it’s just like … i gotta control the demons meanwhile this bitch is just being ANNOYING… for no reason . like i will call in a bomb threat at ur work if you don’t stop

im a really nice young gay man thats living his life i was just kidding with you horse man i didnt mean to hurt you it was just a joke can be please be friends i think you are awesomely cool
LOL i would just say well fuck it you had mr nice guy and didnt respect it so guess what bad cop is here now haha. you should do hella coke and text her what you REALLY think

kim taught me if someone wont kill for you, then they dont really love you.

worst fp

prob this other tranny w/ bpd we were both really fixated on each other but long distance can never work and she started dating ppl in her area and never talked to me :( we talk now tho and i think she's not my fp anymore so its cool

kim sounds like she knows what shes talking about

the appeal is there but i think i have to actually be the bigger person probably for him … YUCK. just like how are you a grown ass man and you still suck ….

you think shes not your fp anymore? bbg u would know... oh chile.

im a grown man and i suck sometimes... maybe he has problems you should listen to

its been like 2 yrs there is no way she's my fp still...

do u still think about her and love her and shit? ime (in my experience) when someone isnt my fp anymore i just think theyre boring or i hate them or i lost contact and slowly found new people. is it like that? maybe if you could talk again she would assume her old position? maybe be careful and dont talk to her...

I don't have bpd but my ex did and a former roommate did. Both of them love bombed and manipulated me, took everything they could squeeze out of me, then lashed out and ran away when I no longer obeyed all their rules and approved all their self destruction and delusions. I try not to hate bpd people but they scare the hell out of me after all my personal experiences. The "fp" thing always grossest me out most... it's like you see people as a cluster of traits experiences and services YOU can get out of them, not individuals who have emotions that matter just as much as yours. The roommate I had with bpd seemed to switch her "fp" weekly, worshipping whoever gave her the most attention or money, while hurting and ignoring all the people who helped her in the past as soon as they didnt immediately benefit her anymore. Sometimes I wonder if bpd people are blind to personality in general, they dont respect other peoples feelings and needs and they seem out of touch with their own. I've heard they often feel like there's an empty void inside them that can't be filled so they end up addicted to stimulation and lashing out in relationships when their impossible needs cant be met. It wouldn't be so bad if there wasn't this "teehee I can't help it I have bpd boohoo" attitude about it all, i dont hate on people for having issues, but im pissed when people wont acknowledge what they need to work on or avoid. Anyone who hurts other people and refuses to take responsibility is a monster, hence the term bpdemon for bpd types who can't manage themsleves around other people and just make excuses for the harm they cause

hi sorry i went on a bit of a rant, im just tired of being like constantly used for emotional comfort and then disregarded

you should stop seeking out situations where that is likely to happen then

that’s the DISAPPOINTMENT. he was supposed to be the boring safe option

thinking about posting how cursed i am being troon and bpd

whole ass threas about it

why are tranners so psycho. I'm still bald though, might an hero

sorry i thought you were someone i knew i dont know your situation. idk i cant really give advice. im sorry you're going through that. try to keep your head up, ditch him if hes more effort than hes worth, try not to listen to the obsessive thoughts

true thanks ily, yeah it’s just a bit disappointing because i put a lot of trust into him with stuff, and gave him a lot of care; but i guess some people just can’t appreciate that

my type of fp is often someone whos super distant and avoidant but fairly self-assured, i think bc i like feeling special to someone that nobody else is. i always end up with these weird codependent dynamics and romantic feelings that go unstated in a platonic friendship. when i was in 6th grade my friend convinced me to join his boy scout troop and i was like obsessed with him till i was like 19. but he got really weird once i came out. and for the life of my ive never been able to figure out if there was reciprocal romantic feelings--like he invited me to go to the korean spa with him twice, gave me poppers randomly, would get naked in the water when we would go camping, we would cuddle when drunk/high, would regularly bring food for me (but not anyone else), and would talk about our fav romantic lit or movies but like i don't think he ever expressed being into men b4 i transed. he was also super super weird about me coming out, we were camping with friends and he didn't talk to me for a whole day after i told him. after like 6 months we don't really interact, which could have to do with my many psychward visits and declining mental health (i don't really remember much post ECT)

anyway he's super hot, tall, smart, funny, and caring so it feels like a big loss :/

whats your discord? I have bpd too and can kinda relate but from the opposite perspective

Don't do it!