Hi OP, I'm a resident MEF poster here so I will give you a (you)
You're partially right. Partially.
I actually had several long term girlfriends who i was somewhat attracted to and I was committed to repressing and settling down with them at one point. Or so I thought. The fact is I hated being around them and it showed. I could mever find a woman I was I nterested in being around for more than a few months. Despite being biologically attracted to women I was aesthetivally more attracted to men and my MEF fantasies. I was frustrated by my relentless biological attraction to women for fucking up my life.i dreamed of something better.
So I consciously and willingly changed my sexual orientation. I had always had dysphoria and the desire to be a girl, but i had a man's sexuality. So I decided to stop having sex with women completely until my GF gave up and left. I started masturbatinf anally with dildos and viewing hypnos while under the influence of drugs. After a year or so i started hooking up with men on grinder, delivering myself to them until I slowly conditioned my body and mind to respond to male attention and stimulation. When j saw it beginning to work I started E and later got orchiectomy, slowly becoming more and more feminine and moving from NB to just she/her
It took years of hard work, but i succeeded, and today I am a passing trans woman in a loving relationship with my boyfriend, who i absooutely adore.
No one knows the full shocking truth about my past and it's so incendiary people cry out 'larp' when I give the full story.