For me, I figured out I was gay pretty late. I had always known I liked boys and I watched gay porn but I never really connected the dots until I was 16. I was pounding my butt with a dildo. I paused to catch my breath and sighed; wishing I had a boyfriend to fuck me instead of having to do it manually. I froze and was like "Wait am I gay?" Lmao. I figured out I was trans shortly after when I realized that crossdressing and pretending I was a girl online was not cis behavior ;_; I know I'm stupid lol.
How did you figure out you were gay/trans
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describe your dream man
pretty late
16
How is this bait
holy fuck, i knew the glowies had federal funding cut but I thought yall could still string together coherent speech
I would anally masturbate starting around age 12 but I would always get like post nut clarity and just push the thoughts out of my mind completely and consider myself straight. Everyone at school called me a faggot.
When I was 17 we had this openly gay football team captain/quarterback who was like the star of the school, also lead in all the high school musicals. Basically was the king of the school. And he had a massive crush on me, he would wait around for me after class, hand me notes, ask me to prom. I kept turning him down, but I started fantasizing about him constantly and trying to repress it. When he gave up and got with another boy it broke my mind, and I would masturbate to the thought of him fucking that other guy all the time. I still tried to keep repressing my sexuality.
I later transitioned, he fell into hard drugs and depression and became homeless. Idk if he's still alive.
When I was 17 we had this openly gay football team captain/quarterback who was like the star of the school, also lead in all the high school musicals. Basically was the king of the school. And he had a massive crush on me, he would wait around for me after class, hand me notes, ask me to prom.
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How did you figure out you were gay
When all the other boys around 14-15 starting chasing girls like they were water in a desert and I was confused what was so fantastic about them. Teenage me thought you'd have a way better emotional connect with boys cause you share more in common and oh hey I wanna date guys
Goddamn that's some hard regret, fate handed you the perfect boyfriend and you just spit in its face.
the worst story:'(
Nah, I've learned that you can't always judge what's on the outside. The other guy he fucked was into drugs and he was a classic case of "peaked in high school" he had inner darkness.
My current boyfriend i have as an adult is better than some fantasy of a Chad in high-school who flamed out.
oh that's wonderfulnow i'm happy
he fell into hard drugs and depression and became homeless
loving him would have saved him.
no that was my first reading but then i realized it only would've ruined anon
i think once I came to terms with the fact that spending years trying very hard not to be trans, would either lead me to killing myself shortly (and then it didn't matter if i tried to transitioned) or repping for long enough to see myself become a middle aged man (i can't express how truly horrifying this was). So when I was 20 I started hrt and slowly realized that the reason I was always super disassociated during sex with women was bc i didn't actually like it that much, I just did it bc i didn't like being alone and thought i could make myself like it. Though i still consider myself bi, im not sure if thats just another layer of cope--i haven't had sex with a woman since I started hrt and broke up with my then gf, maybe it would be different now :/
this is a really cute boymoder!
11
some minor celebrity was photographed kissing his boyfriend and this was supposed to be a major scandal or something
all my friends react to the image with revulsion
my only thought was "thats kind of nice"
fast forward to age 16
at the gym with my friend
he spots me for a benchpress
can see his abdomen up his shirt
almost drop the bar on my neck
thats pretty much it
i was always gay and everyone knew it but i also always knew it was wrong. it was the first bad word i learned and i immediately knew it described me. it was never something i had to realize, just something i have to accept. which is very hard because gay people can't have kids. so even when i told others about my gay feelings i still didn't accept it. i subconsciously wished they would be able to cure me. i forced myself for a long time to think of myself as bi instead, and that made it easier to acknowledge and repress the gay feelings, as a part of me not worth acting on, and then being bi would mean that i like girls and give me hope that i could live like i'm "straight" without negating the gay feelings, because that made it worse. but i never liked women, not the way a man does, not sexually. i just kept hoping and wishing a girl i would actually like would appear in my life like an angel falling from the sky who would cure me of my gayness. i wish i could want to fuck women but it disgusts me. why did i have to roll being a faggot? even if i could be a proud and kino gay it wouldn't matter because there are too many gross faggots. i do not want to be associated with them and have to try to distance myself from them. there is no honorable path forward. all gays are judged as one, only straights are judged on individual merits.
I Mean late compared to what I was doing lol. Like I was fully watching gay porn and fantazing about boys but didn't think I was gay for literal years.
The answer is to stop giving a fuck about the opinions of straight people lmao. "Honerable path foward" honor is a lie made by rich people to get poor people to die for them. Suck it up and go ride a dick like your faggot heart desires.
all gays are judged as one, only straights are judged on individual merits.
this is because gays are othered
I was into yuri at the time and there were memes about "if you want to have a yuri relationship just become trans!" and I was like "no, I can't look like a girl". Then someone replied saying HRT would make you look like a girl and I researched it. Don't think it will work but I want it's effects so bad. Then I started thinking I was a girl, I had never had a singular personality it was like a council of desires and emotions but when I started thinking of myself as a girl then all those thoughts reorganized themselves into a person it was weird. I'm prolly gonna boymode and only act like a girl at home but that would be an improvment over the mess I was and the masculine body I have now.
be me
shaving my body hair in the shower
bluetooth speaker playing on shuffle
"How Soon is Now?" comes on
realize I'm shaving my nutsack while Morrisey is singing
This was last year.
Idk being bi is confusing
I'm still trying to figure out if I'm actually more straight or if I've been psyopped into being uncomfortable about gay romantic feelings
When I was 17 I saw a pic of a guy that made me feel something girls never did. I was super homophobic all my life, so the thought that I could be gay never crossed my mind. At the time I was making an effort to be less bigoted and, as soon as I considered it, a billion memories of the most obvious gay signs came flooding in. Like, it was so fucking obvious dude. I even got bullied for being gay as a kid. Everyone could tell but me.
Holy shit I had the mental "parliament" or "council" before fully coming out too! That was so weird.
I agreed to have a basically stranger’s dick in my ass at 20 and that kinda settled it.
i stumbled upon a news article about being trans when i was 13 and then read the wiki page and had the reaction of “what the fuck? that’s an option?” and immediately knew what i had to do.
i like really wanted to be a girl and was horribly disassociated from by body and puberty was like hell felt like my body betraying me but just didn’t know i could do anything about it or what was going on with me until then
I did some research and turns out it's common for people who super disassociate. It was so bad my parents made a joke about how I was traveling to different planets when I was thinking and shutting out reality. Now instead of a council it's just a whiny sad girl in my head, much more pathetic but more real.
You literally had the opportunity for an actual perfect boyfriend and you had to fuck it up you spaz
There's no such thing as a "perfect" partner. That's something adulthood teaches you, after many years and fuckups.
I found out I was gay when I saw my foster dad come out of the shower. His towel was kinda loose and I saw his cock and I couldn't stop thinking about it. Touched myself imagining him catching me and touching me and shoving it in my face.
if it was real you wouldve described urself as a straight woman or hsts not a gayboy tranny
I haven't been on hrt very long and I don't really pass so it's hard to see myself as a girl :/
Okay i am not OP but, no the process of realizing you like men as a gay boy has parallels with realizing you like men as a mtf trans woman. I have made threads with this exact same OP because I also like reading stories about gay boys discovering their sexuality, even if they don't change genders.
You are the only one who understands my vision fr fr.
Always knew I was gay, back when I was in middle school the song take me to church released and I remember being interested in it when everyone acted like it was the most outrageous thing ever. Also, I would watch gay porn because I thought it looked nice.
kinda always knew i wasn't quite the same as other boys my age. around the teenage years i jacked off to gay porn but somehow managed to mental gymnastics myself into not thinking i was "actually" gay and push it deep deep down and just told myself i was just confused. then one day while scrolling through porn i found an image of two guys just hugging each other. nothing pornographic about it at all, but that opened the floodgates and i realized the truth. can't find the og image anymore but it's burned into my memory. think i was like 15 or 16 at the time.
In your defense, I absolutely would never have accepted a gay guy hitting on me at 17 under any circumstance. My brain wasn't developed enough at that age to know what it liked, or that it would be longing for a boyfriend.
I realized I was bi when I was 13 or 14 and started having fantasies about men as well as women. It was actually a pretty simple realization for me, I just thought "huh I guess I am bi." I had no personal problems with it but I thought it was disadvantageous to tell people, so I wasn't super open about it until I was around 30 though lol
Told a tranny I'm too old now but if I could I would transition. She said maybe youre trans and that blew my mind. in retrospect I was retarded af but what can you do