Massive ftm fetish and I hate myself for it

I only date ftms and by all means I see them as fully human and full on romantic partner that I wanna treat well and respect and I am supportive (more than supportive) of them getting more masculine or surgeries or whatever.
But I cannot in good faith date them because I fetishise basically their entire existence and transition. It's not just genitals (but it also is). It's the reppers, it's the ones on T, it's the ones with chest surgery scars (fuck I need to lick those scars), it's the hairy apes, there is some kind of transcendence towards how much I yearn for them. There's no way anyone would ever feel comfortable with the amount of abject fetishisation my brain goes through whenever I interact with one and it's fucking over any potential relationship because I keep self-sabotaging myself because I don't wanna hurt them.
But it's too late now. I am fully, utterly, and entirely, uninterested in cis men/women, mtfs and non-bineys. I am cooked. I am so fucking cooked bros.

Where did this come from?

I have no fucking clue.

And it doesn't help that there's some weird fucking tomboychasers on this board that I do not wanna be like or be seen as, fucking hell.

….sure you don’t just have autism anon?

Are you attracted to fully passing FtMs who don't have top surgery scars (due to getting keyhole)? What about men who may or may not be trans, but just kind of look like cispoons so you suspect they might be FtM?

honestly as a bi cis guy while i may be into ftms too i will never date or fuck any of them bcuz their chasers are so terrible and i dont want to seem like one of them by trying to fuck one

Maybe I am missing something but if you don't see them as easy pussy like a lot FTM chasers do then what's the problem?

Do either of you want to fuck their front holes or is the visual appearance of the poonhole enough?

Whoever gives a fuck is being retarded, doesn't matter what you're into, it matters how you treat people and the self-sabotaging is part of the problem in this context. Get some self-respect, or at least act like you have some.

I would be glad if someone was that much into me.

Imagine Ryan Gosling with a big hairy manpussy. Imagine sucking on his engorged roidclit like a baby drinking out of a bottle, slurping out his musky manjuices.

Why wouldn't I want someone who's obsessed with every part of me? You're overthinking it