I love constantly having intrusive thoughts telling me im just a fetishist!
I love constantly worrying about whether im into it cause my stupid moid socialisation made me think submission = feeling like a woman!
I love staying awake at night hating myself for reinforcing misogynistic ideas about women!
I LOVE THIS ALL SO MUCH!!!!!1!
wait. are you being sarcastic? do you actually like that stuff?
you are thinking about it too much. Just be yourself and trust that ur a girl.
i larp as more dominant because the nicest guys are subs uwu
You are going from the assumption the receptive role is inferior, that's misogynistic actually
Btw I am buff like the guy in the pic
sometimes i think im stupid but then i see stuff like this and remember what the average person is like.
i cant stop the thoughts don't go away, I used to be able to repress it but now i have an outlet for this behaviour they are worse. they said getting a bf would fix the brainworms not make it worse ;~;
location?
the receptive role doesn't have to be a woman, misogynist!! also receiving makes you superior, you're the one being serviced
i cant even larp dom it feels so weird t me ngl
receptive role
its not that im the bottom its that i actively want a man who can take the lead in my life and who i can just obey and devote myself to. i literally have urges to fufill the stupid misogynistic ideal of how women should be its disgusting
god i just wanna punch the daylights out of your head when you such my coch you fucking bitch
Hell
if i go there will you let me put my mouth on your penis?
coch
No, I am chaste and honourable
shes gonna be suching on it sloppy style lol
I bullied her until she admitted she’s not a fetishist and is actually a girl with typical
tastes and brainworms. If your girlfriend ever pulls this shit, firmly putting her down is usually the answer.
Try being a real homo I bet you'll never be able to
_< yes im sorry i was being stupid
I love constantly having intrusive thoughts telling me im just a fetishist!
I love constantly worrying about whether im into it cause my stupid moid socialisation made me think submission = feeling like a woman!
I love staying awake at night hating myself for reinforcing misogynistic ideas about women!
I LOVE THIS ALL SO MUCH!!!!!1!
i relate to all of this and cope my telling myself that sex is disgusting and i should die alone
No need to apologise, you can’t help it. You’re just a girl after all.
Yuh I love how everyone pressures me to be dominant and I love crying whenever I get turned on because I’m so ashamed of
my sexuality and I love knowing I’ll never be anything other than a dirty secret
You’re just a girl after all.
This misogynistic bullshit is going to hurt the trans movement going forward. I get the feeling, but girls can’t be giving in like that, especially with stuff so easily scapegoatable.You can help it, girls are doing better than men in school and such. Independance!
1. Yes, you are, we all are, it's not a big deal, it's fun and hot, get over it.
2. Submission does make you feel like a woman and whether or not 'moid socialisation' is a factor in this doesn't matter at all.
3. No one gives a shit and neither should you.
Hope this helps!
who the hell cares
just dunk your head in a radiation machine to kill all those brainworms
i’m sorry. i was literally posting exactly what you’re saying here a month ago to other girls but like it’s really nice to have an assertive bf. like i get it’s not very feminist of me to say but some of us girls are sorta better off in relationships where the man takes the lead, it’s not ‘misogynistic’ it’s just nice
i agree with all you said other than submission making me feel like a woman, i think it just makes me feel happy and content. thanks for the support so much <3 <3
You have to wonder what’s going on between these two points. or the hours in between.
I mean you’re changing up in the same thread. I kinda get it but you gotta resist that urge
what’s going on is my bf telling me i’m being stupid and helping fix me :3
resist that urge
girl the amount of times i told others this, it doesn’t work once you get a good bf it doesn’t matter anymore. my bf jokes about how much of an ‘uppity’ feminist i was before he came into my life and i no longer felt the need to externalise my self hate and man hate online. it’s so much better being the way i am now i don’t wanna repress it anymore
helping fix me
uh huh, uh huh. And that justsohappens to come in the form of you becoming subservient and docile.
Just saying there are probably other ways to let go of your self hate, and relying on someone external to yourself for validation is setting yourself up for failure, because you're always going to be with yourself.
I'm chill with myself and can still hold these opinions. :3
becoming subservient and docile]
i don’t see anything wrong with it. i made this thread in a headspace filled with dysphoria and self doubt, but in reality im naturally just drawn more to taking orders rather than giving them. my bf likes to be in control and i like him having that control, its only natural that when im in a proper headspace i recognise that/
relying on someone for external validation
he’s my boyfriend should i not rely on him a bit? we’re (hopefully) gonna be life long partners helping and caring for each other, it makes no sense not to rely on him a bit.
i can still hold these opinions
good, im happy that there are girls out there fighting against misogyny but i do think that you shouldn’t look down on the way me and some other girls prefer to live life. for some of us it’s just better that the man takes the lead in life, we can’t all be girlbosses :3
These aren't intrusive thoughts. These are just your actual thoughts deep down. You harbor sexist and fetishistic ideas that leak out when the coping and rationalizing about "male socialization" (ie the way men like you are hardwired to think and feel about sex) begin to crack. Try acceptance of your true feelings and thoughts instead of fighting or dismissing them, and follow them wherever they naturally lead you
nah they really aren’t my actual thoughts, they’re just one of the long list of irrationalities my anxiety riddled brain decides to torment me with. it’s about as reliable as the thoughts telling me all my friends are paid actors who secretly hate me and have done so for over a decade :3
"Intrusive" doesn't mean "untrue"
You make an emotional appeal that i can't really combat kasey. But just seeing stuff like makes me feel weird and cautious about all this stuff.
yeah but given the track record of my other intrusive thoughts, like the ones telling me nothing i’m seeing or feeling is real and i’m actually walking around deaf and blind in a world im unaware of, i think it’s fair to say they may be unreliable lol
that’s just him teasing sorta. like look he isn’t exactly the most politically correct person, certainly i would never have thought id ever be friends with let alone fall in love with someone with his beliefs, but he makes me feel warm, safe and loved in a way no one else,ever has.
i’m an abject failure as a feminist i know but he makes me happy in a way i never imagined i could be. it’s weird to find fulfilment in the antithesis of my own politics but hey i don’t want to reject happiness, i need however much i can scrounge up.
sorry this response is kinda messy but really i just think that we need to accept that maybe not everyone needs to be a girlboss, maybe traditional values aren’t as wrong as we might think.
You're a perfect example of why comorbidities should preclude transition
why?
have you had a lot of experience with people or is this kinda a first time for you? oh and also what were your politics and stuff, you mention being fem and such but was there anything more specific there?
desu this is my first relationship, first time i’ve actually liked anyone romantically too. pre-e i was completely aro so yeah im a bit inexperienced.
my politics were and to some degrees still are mostly built around feminism (specifically my issues with male socialisation and how that affected their views and treatment of women) and communism (mostly due to my lack of faith in capitalism to be viable long term).
So the girl juices are flooding around that brain for the first time then
I wont get mad at you for being like this then, maybe some people can be like that.
How's the other effects of estrogen been?
idk maybe it is just the hormones but i don’t think so. i think for myself and many girls we’re just better off in traditional relationships and pushing us to be girlbosses just leads us to be unfulfilled.
other effects
good, 1.5 years in and it turns out hrt actually does work. i don’t think i pass yet but my friends all seem to think i do which bodes well :3
well see you around :3
see ya :3
Kasey you were a puppyslut for months going around all desperate and needy. You don't need to pretend to be a pure maiden, im like 90% sure i've seen you link up with people from here a buncha times. You were mindbroken weekly. Don't pretend you didn't feel anything.